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Friday, February 15, 2008

Pril, you wanna see my eye bags? They're coming back again.

Alright, i just revived from my yesterday's death (aka terrible headache) with just a few hours of sleep. (Thus explaining my presence here again.) Couldn't sleep. Might go back to my warm and inviting bed after blogging, in case i get another attack of headache-ness tonight again.

I thought a lot, and well, YES people. I think. *stun stun* Actually, i didn't think of anything much in coherent. Just quite some random stuff

First, (this looks like my Chinese compo, 首先，再來，最後). Anyway, firstly, i've thought about what Takuya said about his beng and pai kia's past. I simply couldn't get over it. Too traumatizing. The look when he was saying it. Very scary. *shivers*

*still shivering*

Alright, why am i feeling so cold? *turns my head to my left* Right, the fan is blowing directly into my face, that's the reason. Darn.

*shivering while turning the fan away*

Yes, back. Where was i? Yes, shivering. Right, yakuza family. Maybe i should just sit down on one sunny day and type out the pros and cons of a yakuza family, like what i did to the comparison of phones. (Look at Monday's 11 Feb 3rd post, lazy to make links, want to see, read my archives and get bored to death.)

The only good thing i can see from the entire yakuza family issue is only protection. Physical protection. The only sliver lining i see in this piece of stormy cloud.

*Thinking about that uncle of mine, lost in Malaysia.* Then shouting to myself, "STORMY CLOUDS ARE STILL STORMY CLOUDS". *roars* But then again, everyone is different. I just pray hard that the sliver lining in his stormy cloud can last long.

Yes, physical protection. Leads me to think about all those spiritual warfare things. That's what i thought when i just woke up, like quite some time ago. A sudden thought. Spiritual warfare. I've realized, spiritual warfare are not necessarily angel VS demon. Or sons (and daughters) of Christ against Satan. It could be angels VS angels. Demons against demons. As long as it's a war in the spirit, it's a spiritual warfare. (For people that couldn't accept my theory, BUILD A BRIDGE AND GET OVER IT.)

And i know very well myself that i've lost the majority of my evilness lately. Didn't even have any evil thoughts against anyone. Damn. The mask i've spent two years building up, just vanished over night. Not good. Nevermind, i shall build a new one. Called aloofness. I bet this is even better, because confirm + guarantee + chop + stamp + insurance, that this will piss people off. I only have two weeks left to build up myself, before i got back into hoGc.

Imagine this, we walk in. Then other people couldn't see it. But i'm already engaging in a spiritual warfare. Fighting while we walk. Cool anot? I'm excited to try.

亞里斯多德：心智的暴力，可以不流血即取人命。

Conclusion, spiritual warfare is even scarier than physical fights. Therefore, i shouldn't be afraid of Takuya's family now. What's more scarier now is that the spiritual warfare against those angels (more like demons to me) that i will be receiving. But, a good thing is that, I could always find allies among enemies. For which, i already had a few in mind. If not, how can i stand in there for so long. Just that my pitfall was only when i chose my wrong ally. A minute of wrong judgment caused my downfall. But nevermind, they don't deserve my trust in them anymore. I only believe in them. I could only believe their lies. For that's what i see in them.

Physical warfare and spiritual warfare.

I don't have the buff to win a physical warfare, and more likely, i'm so going to die if i ever engaged in one. But that's the thing. I don't go around looking for physical warfare. But i love spiritual warfares. More so, when i can play with people's mind. Didn't do that for a long time, therefore all my skills are rusty. But i tried my integration skill on one person lately, and it worked. And i haven't even use the 'ten questions' tactic. One thing i really got to comment, Wei Jie had seriously taught us a lot about this. People work. People work. Whoever that were gotten to do people work, i wish you all the luck, cause you're seriously very suay. Still need to type reports.

But then again, spiritual warfares are very tiring to the spirit. Therefore, i shall be a good girl (darn, my evilness) and not engaged in any warfares. And BAH. (From now on, i will not try to reason with the idiots i encounter. I will dismiss them by waving my hand and saying, "BAH".)

Yes, BAH. Spirit of aloofness. Or rather, spirit of heck care-ness.

And the highest 境界 of all the spirit of whatever-ness, is the *behold*, SPIRIT OF SA-NESS. The spirit of confusion, insecurities, ... ..., whatsoever, blah blah blah, ladida ladida, yak yak yak is NOTHING, in comparison with SAness.

Roy : Ching, were you SAed when you were young?

Classic i tell you, CLASSIC. Yes roy, i was SAed. By YOU. How could you? By giving me a traumatized childhood and now, ask me again. You know you've hurt me when you say that? But roy, BAH.

And NO, i was never SAed. Lest people started to feign compassion for me and ask me what happened. But i love Ugine's reaction when i told him this last week at Far East. He said if he was asked my roy, he would first fist fight with Roy, then ask him. "Roy, are you gay because you got SAed when you was young?"

Another classic. And thanks Ugine for being angry for me. And thanks April for har-ing during that conference when you aren't supposed to be there. And damn you, Shu Jun. I shouldn't include you into the conference. Just a backstabber. Just ANOTHER betrayer. Just another idiot which i will dismiss you with a wave of my hand and BAH.

People tends to have more courage being in a huge group. May it be physical warfare or spiritual warfare. It's always the same. And lately, i seem to understand one thing. Read the four sentences i wrote here and think about it in relation to this topic. It's link. Now this is the link. CLICK.

Back, if you don't understand what the whole thing means. You can ask me, but if i think that you're too idiotic, you will hear BAH from me. Sad to say, but

BAH.