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Monday, March 31, 2008
im such a maple noob
Wahlao, i died twice in Maple CONSECUTIVELY. Therefore explaining why i ain't playing now but instead blogging over here. Anyway will be going back to play after bathing.And dad threw my chinese medicine away. I feel so sad. I'm not sure if i should post this Alright, April just went offline and i've stop gaming with her for the morning. See, how nice i am. She's off to bed and i'm still here blogging. (It's close to 6 already, okay?) Anyway, i simply love gaming with her. Thinking back, i DON'T game without her. From Fiesta to LF2 to some other random games which i forgot and to Maple. It was always her whom brought me through all these games. Thinking even further back, meeting April is a miracle in itself. We never knew each other. And was never from the same school (but we will be after half a month) Our personalities, our horoscope, our stuff ain't suppose to match with each other but we just click. It's this unseen connection that we have that i can boldly tell everyone that NO ONE I HAVE EVER MET CAN REPLACE HER IN MY LIFE. And this sentence still stands when we weren't contacting each other some time back. Boyfriend said something that's correct. But something April said that was more true. I had been through with April so much and no one other than us can ever see and feel. It's not about someone who is willing to be with me when i'm happy and nice to be with. It's also not about someone who is willing to be with me when i'm not happy. It's about someone who is being unhappy him/herself, but yet willing to be with me and try to make me happy. *coughs* I can seriously continue all these for 10 whole pages. Because April and i are not just friends, but people who can connect through their souls. She was the one that opened my closed heart. She opened the doors of my heart. She melted the cold gaze i once had. She guided me to see, to hear, to speak. And most importantly, to feel. Whenever i felt alone, she was always there. Whenever i felt weak, she will always be there to hold me. I trusted her so much. To the extent that i am very much dependent on her. Both of us would rather sacrifice ourselves just for the sake of each other. Both of us would rather to get ourselves hurt than each other. Misunderstandings occur. No doubt. Earlier on, we started to lose contact. Due to boyfriend. Due to friends. She thought that i didn't need her anymore and thought that leaving me alone will be fine. I was still being insensitive and didn't realize that. Until the day, her mum called me. It was a slap in my face. I remembered i cried that day, not because her mum had scolded me. It was because i thought that i'd hurt her. Days after that. We still didn't have the courage to face each other. None of us could make the first step. She thought i hated her. I thought she hated me. None of us moved. Until the time when i posted my blog. She read it. She called me. And from that day on, our friendship started to grew back. Slowly but surely. I have no doubt to say this. I love April (as a friend. Oh please, in which way do i look like a les or bi to you? *slaps*) And she holds a very special and unique place in my heart that no one can replace. Maybe one day, just maybe. When the time comes, and she's no longer around me (why do you think i mean that she's dead), the position she once held in my heart will still be there. Unoccupied. Forever. Because it belongs to her, and her alone. PS: I DIED SEVEN TIMES IN MAPLE TODAY. AM I A NOOB OR WHAT? (Well yes, a newbie) Anyway, we chionged 17 levels in a day. *grins* Sunday, March 30, 2008
Maple
Just had my yummilicious dinner of zi char again. Yep, our family have zi char every weekend. Cannot meh?Anyway, i started to play Maple for the first time. I didn't play when the Maple fever was going on, like 5 years ago. And no, i'm not a nerd. What's freaky is that i broke my nail from pressing 'C' too much. Darn. Real fingernail. Not fake nails leh. And what's more, i was playing in a different world from April. So being a nice newbie, i created a new character in the world April is playing in. What got me really pissed is not that i had to ran away every time i see a stump, but it's that i couldn't use 'Forbire' as my screen name any more. (Because i used it as my first character, which suay-ly is in a different world from April's) I settled for the next best one, 'Yuchingjoy'. Because 'IIforbireII, llforbirell, ILforbireLI', etc can't be used either. Very not happy. And what got me into Maple, you ask. Remember when i said that i was going to stare at the ceiling last night. I really did stare at the ceiling for one hour. But it was interrupted at 4.30am, when April called me. She enticed me with Maple until 6.40am. Which i succumbed under her temptation. Anyway, all thanks to her i will be playing Maple with her more than blogging or friendster-ing OR EVEN GOING OUT. Yes, i'm not intending to go out at all until Thursday where i go for the orientation with April and Friday, going to NUH with Mum. And apartments nowadays are so darn expensive. Jie started to look for her HDBs while waiting for her condo. (Seh, i also want to live in condo when i can support myself) Anyway, a HBD in Tampiness cost her around $60000. So damn ex. Might as well leave with BIL's parents first. *sigh* Anyway, will go Maple-ing first before coming back later to check for errors in this post. *winks* Nothing to blog about anymore Me: Ahh, i just saw Caleb in the TV ad. How come he so shuai ar? A random part of the conversation i had with April just now. Nothing to blog. Shall go offline and stare at my ceiling. Mental Note: Must remember to hound Clement for Photoshop while giving him a treat on the first day of school Mental Note Two: Remember to find Guo Quan and freaked him to death Mental Note Three: Start staring at ceiling L changes MY world I was once going quite crazy over L some time back. To the extent that i held my phone like him and puts my thumb to my lips. Alright, i just did those to piss April off. But she wasn't very bad either. She asked me to squat on the chair in McDonald's. @%#^#%^!!! (gibberish language) Wahlao, she's so evil. And *smiles* I love blogging in the comfort of lying down on the bed and hugging my pillow. Pure bliss. *coughs* Anyway, i was surfing net before i did the Excel for my mum and guess what i read. L IS EMO. Seh. How can say L like that. $@@%%#$%@%$@@%%#$%@!!!!!!! (more gibberish language) But that's not the main point. Main thing is that it's said that L always squat because he can't think while he's sitting down. That's why he always get chaffeured around. Imagine him putting his legs down to the pedal, then he can't think. Can't think while driving = instant accident! Gosh. Poor L. Shall surf more net before coming back to post. I have this weird feeling of blogging but yet at the same time, i got NOTHING to blog. Bah!! Ps: I didn't watch [L changes the world] Because Kira isn't inside. And i still personally think that my ex looks like Kira. *grins then slap myself* But ever since my ex got longer dyed hair, i think he looks horrible. *shakes head and slap him* i'm not EMO I'm fine. Thanks people. I just talked on the phone with April for two hours. And the first half an hour was full of, "HARLOOOO, I'M LINDSEY LOHAM". Yes, for half an hour. And no, i'm not siao. Anyway, i love reading horoscopes with her. Damn funny. Surfing net now. Will update later. *smiles* Ps: How come Ben's mum is like so darn young. So not fair, i also want. Pps: How come i'm gawking over Caleb (M3) when the [Wei Wo Du Zun] ads starts to show? Updates: I had been staring at Microsoft Excel worksheet for the past 45 minutes. And i'm finally done. Mum was consolidating her Toto results using Excel and she did something wrong. And poor me had to clear up the mess for her. *shakes head* But nonetheless, i'm done. Anyway, while doing up the Excel for mum, i started to think. Think about the conversation i had with April earlier on. I couldn't help but agree with her. Agree on how good it is to be free. How good it is to be not tied down. I also want to have freedom, but can i? *roars* Never mind, i shall let school life decide for me. *winks* Only April shall know what i'm referring to. Saturday, March 29, 2008
My fault?
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKWahlao, i finally know why boyfriend was angry just now. It's because he took a wrong bus to Tampiness. SEH, like that also can blame me sia. You never ask me properly lor. Next time, i'm so NOT going to care. BAH. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK *breathes in breathes out* I'm feeling so much better now. Misunderstandings, stupid questions, horoscope Wahlao, i initially wanted to blog something funny, but the moment i woke up and read the sms, my mood all went away. PEOPLE, STOP TAKING MY BLOG AND MAKE SUCH A BIG MATTER OUT OF IT. 99% OF MY BLOG ISN'T SAID WITH A SERIOUS TONE. I MEANT IT AS A JOKE. IS IT THAT MY SENSE OF HUMOR IS SO HARD TO CATCH? I'm very pek chek over these. I've no idea what boyfriend had heard or read, but i got this uncanny feeling that it's from my blog. Because what else could i have cause him a lot of trouble. I ain't sure if it's the time when i said in my blog that boyfriend had gotten himself a new girlfriend, but let me clarify this one more time. He's didn't get himself a new girlfriend and i'm still faithful to him. Since i'm clarifying things, let me continue. April didn't ignore me just because she had a boyfriend. It was due to some personal issues. But anyway, i still will not change my style of blogging, but please understand that whatever i'm saying in my blog is not supposed to be read with a serious note. Please DO NOT turn my blog against me. ----------------------- Now, back to what i want to blog. (Wahlao, absolutely no feel now) But anyway, i've seen people asking these few questions and i'm sibeh tickled by it. Situations like: When you get woken up at midnight by a phone call... Stupid Question: Sorry. were you sleeping? Answer: No. I was doing research on whether the Zulu tribes in Africa marry or not. You thought I was sleeping... You dumb witted moron. When you see a friend/colleague with evidently shorter hair... Stupid Question: Hey have you had a haircut? Answer: No, its autumn and I'm shedding And now, for the worst of all worse When people call your HOUSE phone... Stupid Question: Hello. Where are you now? You outside is it? Answer: -.- Or when FRIENDS call your HANDPHONE Stupid Question: Hello, may i speak to Joycelyn please? (Not said in a jokingly manner) Answer: No, you may not. Wahlao, i love the phones one. Damn funny. Especially when it's said with a serious tone. Anyway, i've found these horoscope thing on the net and it's said to be 90% true. Mine was quite accurate and i want to post a few up. CAPRICORN WOMAN (Me) A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at an office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection. She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone , she will not comments or criticize but she will completely ignore that person. She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent. She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jean one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her. She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like losing face. She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter. She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop. She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only. She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date. She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you lose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do. She likes to help people an d expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a high hope and a high faith and believes in her own confidence than believing in "Luck". If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after". SCORPIO MAN (Boyfriend) A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain. He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most success man in all the Zodiac. He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched. If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is. He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able to take it. Example, if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him. If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and believe in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time. He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friends. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space. He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him. When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call. ARIES WOMAN (April & Jie) She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. She think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slightly taller more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or mixture of character. Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, nothing will stop her. Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek.She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she choose you, she will need to be proud of you. "Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is "Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love,but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a "Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn,but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person,but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it. For those who can tahan until here, let me reward you with something. If you want your horoscope findings, then email me at yuchingjoy@gmail.com the horoscope and gender that you want to know about. And i will reply you with it. Kenji After me going ga-ga over Chord, Arron Yan Ya Lun, Li Jun-Ki, Matsumoto Jun, 12012 and Jeff Dunham (along with Achmed) I have one new addition to my list. A WARM WELCOME TO KENJI WU KE QUN. I'm going bonkers over his songs. Very nice sia. Ps: Xiao Zhu and Xiao Gui in Kenji's Fen Si Tong Le Hui is damn funny. Must watch!!! Friday, March 28, 2008
Xuan
Die, i still haven't buy my Jie's birthday gift. I've got to go out and buy later. Sheesh. Yes, i MUST. If not, i'm afraid that i will only get a gua zi ke for my ang bao next year. *shivers upon the thought* Worse, what if it's only HALF a gua zi ke. *feeling ever so traumatized*Wahlao, have anyone heard that someone can feel like crying while listening to a mando-rock song? *sigh* Yep, YOURS FAITHFULLY felt like crying. I was listening to Xuan's old old creation. Not his new ones. SEH, his old songs are so so so good. Anyway, this song was created with his old band, and i remembered what Xuan said when they were disbanded at the end of last year. The song written when they were 18, "We aren't very good, but we're willing to play music, and to be played by music". Not very well translated by Yours Truly Anyway, it's sibeh touching can a not? But what makes me really feel like tearing is the songs Xuan is writing now. Set aside the tune, the lyrics which he was once strongest in, is... ... *sigh* But i will still hold my faith in him. Just as people is willing to wait for my blogging bug to come back, i'm too, willing to wait for his song creating bug to come back. For he's the one that brought me into this realm. *smiles* Sorry Alright, i confess. The drop in quality of my blogs for the last few days is that i blogged not because i want to, but out of obligation. So i shall now blog not because i have to, but because i feel like to. *smiles* But i will still continue to update. And sorry for the really bad posts. *grins apologetically* Thursday, March 27, 2008
I love the TCM doc
Thea: Anyway my mum ask r u feeling better?Forbire: Ahhaha.. yea Forbire: Feeling better Forbire: Thanks neh Forbire: heh heh Thea: I think my mum sounded kinda worry Forbire: Hmmm Forbire: Why worried Forbire: Im not dying Forbire: Relax Forbire: Heh heh Thea: Cos she heard tat ur mum nt happy Forbire: Nvm de lah Thea: Lol Forbire: My mum always not happy de Forbire: She is also not happy with church Thea:Lol Thea: Cos my mum was worrying tat ur mum will scold u for cooking the herbs medicine den she said tat the doc also know den the doctor wanted to help u cook so tat u dun have to cook at home Thea: Haha Forbire: Wah Forbire: The doc so good ar Thea: Yeapp Forbire: *cries* Thea: Haha Forbire: I so gan dong Forbire: I go cry first Forbire: WAHHHHHHHH Thea: Haha Thea: Lol Thea: Yea Forbire: WAHHHHHHHH Thea: Den my mum said if u scare den come my house Thea: She help u cook Thea: Yea Thea: Haha Forbire: wah Forbire: *sniffs* Thea: Yar Thea: Haha Forbire: Dun need so ma fan la Forbire: Plus doc didnt give me medicine Forbire: Heh heh Thea: Cos he knows tat ur mum nt happy mah Thea: My mum so happy for u Thea: Cos she can sees tat u r getting better Thea: Haha Thea: Ur grey grey thing on r face gone Thea: Haha Forbire: I so gan dong sia~~ i nv tot someone cared for me so much Forbire: *sniff sniff* Forbire: Heh heh Thea: Lol Forbire: I sibeh happy sia Thea: Yea Thea: Haha Forbire: *hugs you* Forbire: ahahhaha Thea: *hug u too* Thea: Haha Forbire: *hugs u and turn around and around and around like in movies* Thea: Lol Thea: *slap slap* Thea: Haha Thea: Think too much Forbire: *yeowch* Forbire: Why u slap me Forbire: *cries* Thea: Hahahahhahaha Forbire: *shuffles to a corner* Forbire: *cries in a corner and sucks thumb* Forbire: *looks at you* Forbire: *meets ur gaze* Forbire: *looks away quickly again* Forbire: *whine* Thea: Lol Anyway, what i want to say is that i'm sibeh grateful towards Thea's mum and the TCM doc. They're simply the best i had ever known. And Thea's mum is the second mother that is willing to cook for me. (Apart from my own mum) Both Thea and April's mum are sibeh nice. AND MY MUM IS ALSO ONE THE BEST TOO. *grins* There's things that i can't say. But i'm just so grateful towards the TCM doctor. He has a heart for all his patients. That's one thing i can assure. *tears brimming* Say HARLOOO as Achmed Wahlao, i'm still quite bothered that boyfriend didn't contact me for two days already. I think he already had gotten himself a new girlfriend. And, was really glad Alvin was there to encourage me, *smiles*, but he stood on boyfriend's side. *roars* Shucks, i think i'm starting to sprout quite some expletives in real life. *slaps myself* Alright, it's still not too bad yet. And at least all my expletives is the ang mor pai. I don't use CCB, KNN, and whatsoever. I use words that can be found in the dictionary. (But here's one for you. How do you know if the dictionary makes a mistake *grins*) And i think i'm sharing the same fact as our merlion right now. We're both facing identity crisis. Our merlion couldn't decide on being a mermaid or a lion. And the same goes for me. I couldn't decide who i am either. Fine, i shall mimic Achmed instead. *smiles* (And no, i mean i have no idea who i am. Not if i am a mermaid or lion. Cause i'm a HUMAN. HUMAN!!) And *scratches chin*. How comes RP send a sms saying that orientation is on 2nd to 4th of April. Isn't supposed to be today? Well, at least the paper said so. (Or is the message meant for the pon-ners? Damn) I'm supposed to go NUH on the 4th leh. Sheesh. Whatever. Shall pon the 2nd to 4th orientation too. Pretend that i never recieved the sms. Sheesh. Any Republicians reading this, please pretend you didn't see anything. Or any Republicians in the School of Technology, please pretend that i am a student in NYP instead. And April, if you see this, you don't have to pretend. *grins* Anyway, MY COUSIN IS IN THE SAME POLY AS ME. Darn. My wonderful plan of being 'good' in school is foiled. So, can anyone please tell me if the course doing environment under the School of Technology. I hope not though. AND UGINE, GUI FANG IS IN OUR POLY. NOT IN ITE LEH. GOT CELEBRATION MAH? (But i still hope that she would be in your school though. But chances of her being with me is higher. Damn) And speaking of the 'wonderful plan' in school, i'm deciding to act as Achmed in school. April has decided to shun me for that, but i'll so pull her into it. *winks* Harlooo, i'm Lindsey Loham. This is just a little of what i've decided to do in school.
Pppps: Roy is so good. He said i was SA-ed when i was young and true enough. I got into SA (Sonic Arts) this year. *grins* Bow to Roy, people. Bow to him. (And shun bian kick him after bowing though) Kinda miss boyfriend I'm pissed off by my 1 year 2 months old iShuffle. I've downloaded iTunes again for my desktop and i happily thought i can put all the songs in the faithful shuffle into the not-so-faithful desktop. But i guess my desktop is jealous of my shuffle because i showered more love to my shuffle and lappie than my desktop. So the desktop refused to let me put my old songs from the shuffle into him. And if i wanted to synchronize the shuffle with my desktop, i need to erase all the songs in the shuffle. AS IF I EVER WILL. Damn you, desktop. If i cannot blog on you, then i wouldn't do what you asked me to. Now my chio lappie is the king, geddit? Bow to it, desktop. Bow to my lappie. *grins* Anyway, i just finished reading my March archives. Yes, because i had nothing better to do. And i found that my blogs are so damn boring. But what brings a tear to my eye is that, no matter how badly i write, there's always people willing to read my blog. Some of them i know, while others prefer not to surface and mail me. But i want to thank you all the same. *hugs all of you* Thanks for bearing with me, especially when my blogging bug is not with me. And boyfriend didn't contact me for more than a day already. I hope it's not because that he found himself a new girlfriend. *bites lip* Darn, i'm missing boyfriend already. *slaps myself* Snap out of it. Further damn, i think i lost my appointment card. SHUCKS. The X-ray form is with it. I'm so dead. VERY DEAD. I forgot where i put my entire file. Die. Must find it soon. Going to see the not-so-shuai-but-very-professional specialist on the 4th. Heng, school starts on 7th. Good thing that my Jie got to work tomorrow. Her birthday thing is pushed to this Saturday. Which gives me two more days to find her present. Any ideas? A couple teddy (for her and Brother-in-Law)? Accessories? Ornaments? *roars* See budget first. Ps: Going to call Brother-in-Law, BIL, next time. Lazy to type such a long word. Sorry, three long words. *winks* And anyone studies in the School of Technology in Republic Poly too? Please email me at yuchingjoy@gmail.com. I'm sibeh scared to go to a school where i know no one (if April suay-ly isn't in the same class as me) And all the more since i'm pon-ing the orientation. Damn. I'm such a suay kid. Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Sibeh bored
Alright, i had been procrastinating and was refusing to blog even though i was so damn bored. All because i got nothing to rant about except my boredom.*roars*So here goes. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I'M SIBEH BORED. I was bored enough to listen to all the songs i had in my thumb drive for umpteen times, watch [Girls Out Loud] for 4 times and [Xiaxue's Guide to Life] thrice. Man, or i bored or am i bored? Anyway, i'm still opting against going for the orientation tomorrow. How can i go somewhere on my Jie's birthday? (Read i don't feel like hanging out with new people. I'm an insecure freak, can?) But damn, i haven't bought my Jie a present. I'm so dead. So dead. I hope she's not celebrating with us tomorrow. Even if that means i will have one less good meal to eat. Shucks. And i want to see how CC will earn my number. I hope that it will include lots of cold hard cash. *grins* Jeff, Caleb, Ben's hair Oh mi gosh. I LOVE Jeff Dunham. He's absolutely the best comedian ever. Plus the best-est (which means best of the best) ventriloquist. I laughed at his acts for 3 hours straight. YES, THREE HOURS. Damn, is he good or is he good? Close behind comes Caleb Chew. He was also funny and 17. Ain't he hot? *slaps myself* But i CAN'T seem to find some of his decent pictures ANYWHERE. This is the best one i could post online. He doesn't seem to have any individual pictures uploaded to some site where i can find it easily. Damn. But nonetheless, he's still one hot guy. *smiles* Agree?
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Chocolate fonde
Man, i went out today without contacts and makeup. Sheesh. Was sibeh fugly, therefore didn't took any photos today.Anyway as promised, i uploaded the photos i'd taken yesterday. I thought i had a lot of them, but when i checked, i only had FOUR pathetic photos. Damn.  I rarely took pictures from this angle. But more from this angle. (Actually ALL my recent photos are from this view) I learned it from Benjamin. *grins* See, same angle. Plus same sign some more. I put the picture upside down because i look uber weird in it.Anyway, boyfriend is complaining about my hair again. SIAN. But bah. Finally, after a long ... long ... long time, i went out with April again. And had a very long talk with her. *smiles* I couldn't help but agree on one thing April said. She said that, "We couldn't go on being Christians anymore because we had seen too many Christians that let us not being able to trust Christianity again." We were chatting at the playground quite near her house. And was sitting at the top of the slide where there was a roof attached to it. We sat there and talked for about an hour. Though it was damn funny but still, we both had to agree, something is different. It's not like before. *sigh* But i really hope that all well will end well. And i almost chua-dio when i sat the slide down after our talk. It had been too long since i last played slides. I'm not going to talk about that embarrassing moment anymore. *shy laugh* Instead i'm going to talk about how much i want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. I want to eat chocolate fonde. See, that was how much i want to eat chocolate fonde. *grins* Damn. Boyfriend still hates my hair. But i shall still keep it because i like it. *smirk* Damn funny. Must watch Ps: I think the M3 in [Wei Wo Du Zun] is very hot. Agrees? No feel to blog, very tired Very happy now, watching [Yu Le Bai Fen Bai]. It's showing Kenji's Ting Zheng Hui. Very nice. *smiles brightly* Anyway, my desktop revived. There's this guy who came and repaired my PC while i was still sleeping. Now, all my pictures, music, documents, creations, diaries and all the other little gritty stuff is officially GONE. Sibeh irritated. And not only that, the reformatted PC is sibeh fugly. Set the fonts aside, the bars looks like they were from Windows 96. My desktop was initially very chio de leh. How can i stand it being like that. *roars* All the more since i've been staring at a chio-er Vista (lappie) for the past few days. And the desktop can't read Chinese at all. The freaking Chinese language pack isn't re-installed after reformatting. Sibeh sibeh irritated now. *yawns* My headache from the lack of sleep is back again. Anyway, i shouldn't continue to rant in this condition. Still have to go out tomorrow. So shall upload the pictures taken today after i reach home tomorrow. Ps: I got a new grey cardigan and jeans mini skirt today. Though the mini skirt is sibeh chio, but i got NO top at all to go with it. Damn. Pps: The new red nail polish i got doesn't seems to have a great difference from my old one. Sheesh. Ppps: Kenji's Ting Zheng Hui is very nice. He's one talented musician. Monday, March 24, 2008
Damn diarrhoea
Wahlao, i just had diarrhoea again. Third one in the night already. Must be the mango i had just now. Damn. How to go shopping tomorrow? Sibeh sian.
April and i are okay, i hope I'm sibeh happy today. Everything between April and i had been settled. We're back to normal. *smiles* Though i told April that i wanted to blog about the conversation between us, but i forgot everything we spoke on the phone. Damn. Anyway, Thea just sent the photos she took with me that day. And since i had nothing to post, might as well upload the photos i just got from her. All unedited. Shucks.  Yes, i'm doing my makeup at Bugis MRT station. Cannot meh? Thea said that i look like L over here. Where got? Plus L had short hair, i had long ones.Anyway, meeting April 1.30pm at AMK Hub tomorrow. Will do shopping with her. I want to buy!! I want to buy a lot of things!! I WANT TO BUY NEW CLOTHES!!! I want to get new skirts. I want to get new tops. I want to get a black scarf. I want to get new nail polish. I want... ... i want a lot more. *smiles* If there's any nice souls out there who wants to sponsor me some new clothes, please come down to AMK Hub at 1.30pm onwards. In case you can't recognize my acne face, i will be wearing black tee-shirt with a grey jumper and jeans. *grins* Just kidding. I will buy with my own cash. *sigh* Sunday, March 23, 2008
Damn and damn-er
DAMN, i didn't realize my dad was locked outside of our main gateDOUBLE DAMN, I CAN'T SEE MY OWN BLOG POSTS. Long post of random-ness Alrighty, i did up my comments box but i'll do moderation. I'm sibeh afraid of people flaming me. But i'm MORE afraid to know that others can see people flaming me. *embarrassed laugh* But i will still let out comments, depending. So people, please do comment me, kies? *looks sweetly at all of you* Though i know that my comments will be a pathetic ZERO for a long long time, but i hope that one day, just one day, the number of people commenting me will shoot up. Anyway, i tried to edit the comment section. Honestly i tried to. But i guess i'm still a noob at it. I tried to do up the direct link section, i tried to give it a border, i tried to change the font family, i tried to change the font size, i tried to do a lot of things but all FAILED. The only thing i've managed is the font color. Sheesh. Don't ask me how come i can do the font colour but not the rest. But i will try to do it again at some other day when i'm not feeling so down. Shucks, i'm just feeling so emo. *slaps myself* I remember the time when i step into Wei Jie's friendster profile, emotions will overwhelm me. This is happening again when i click into April's friendster. How much i wanted to leave her a comment and tell her that i appreciate her shoutout, but i know i'm just asking for one tight slap if i'm going to do that. But then again, she's being very nice by not putting responsibility or blame on my shoulders. Therefore, i shouldn't blame her too. It's so not nice. It's my way of doing stuff. If no one flames me, i don't go and flame that particular person. Since she didn't blame me for that, i shouldn't blame her too. But April, tell me the truth. Whatever your mother told me, did she get the words from you? Tell me the truth if you ever see this portion. I have no idea how to face her for the next 3 years in our RP life. I know both of us couldn't pretend that this whole issue didn't occur before. So should i turn away when i see her? Or should i pretend i didn't see her? Or should i stare at her? Or should i cry in front of her? Or should i be hypocritical and smile at her? Damn. How come it's so hard to find a way to face her. I want to talk things out with her. I want to. I need to. I have to. DAMN IT, but she don't want to. I'm so glad that i'm not having PMS now. If not, it will be so much worse than now. I might even take my own life. *gasp* I wouldn't, i hope. If i'm ever going to die, it'll be of heartache anyway. If you think i'm emo up there, then you should be glad that i ate a slice of very-oh-sinful-for-my-tummy chocolate cake just now. Sibeh nice.  Mum bought it for me. Around $3.20 per slice. Very tasty for this price. Anyway, mum was telling me what dada did. I was almost crying. After mum bought this slice of cake, dada didn't want to buy any more bread for himself. He said that he would go home and cook maggie mee for supper instead. Cut cost. For the cake is too ex. Nothing much to you, but damn touching for me can? It's not the first time dada sacrifice for me. From little things like me eating cake, him eating maggie mee. And me getting a desktop instead of him getting a new air con. To big money like him selling off his insurance to help me raise money for surgery. Wahlao. Such a good father. I shall love dada forever. I shall be very very very filial to them when i grow up. But i finished the cake all the same. Too tempting already. Now i'm not going to eat anything until dinner tomorrow. I need to get the oh-so-sinful-weight off my scale. And *grins*. I have the same advertisement as Benjamin. *smiles* I got the same bangs as him. I got the same advertisement. I have... *kicks myself* STOP GETTING OBSESSED WITH BENJAMIN. Boyfriend, i don't love Benjamin. He's just another blogger. No worries, k? I was msn-ing one of my friend who happens to be a guy just now and he's so... ... *grr*
A long random chat about nothing. But nonetheless a fun guy to talk to. And nope, this ain't Clement. Lazy to post two MSNs in one night. I had hell clicking here and there just to type this out. *smiles* And i think this conversation is more random. Therefore posted this instead of Clement's. Anyway, reading this message history makes me feel so much better. It took my mind off April's issue. Damn. I reminded myself again. *hits my own head* Saturday, March 22, 2008
Dense head
I LOVE BENJAMIN'S HAIR. I LOVE BENJAMIN'S HAIR. I LOVE BENJAMIN'S HAIR. I LOVE BENJAMIN'S HAIR. I LOVE BENJAMIN'S HAIR.I WANT BENJAMIN'S HAIR. I WANT BENJAMIN'S HAIR. I WANT BENJAMIN'S HAIR. I WANT BENJAMIN'S HAIR. I WANT BENJAMIN'S HAIR. Darn, why am i a girl? If i'm a guy, i would run to any salon and point at Benjamin's hair and proclaim loudly that i want his hair. Though his hair is long for a guy but short for a girl. So, sad enough, i can't have his hair. *cries* His hair is so damn chio. I don't want to show you his hair. Before all of you guys go and cut his hair. Then i will be sibeh sad, because all of you can have his hair, and i can't. But looking on the bright side, at least i have his bangs. *smiles* *argh* Leaving this very nice topic on Benjamin's hair. I want to rant!!!! I'm so freaking irritated. My laptop cooler is making this loud and annoying BRR-ing sound. Like one of the fan blades had got loose or something. Very irritating. And because the fan is loose, it cannot cools my lappie very effectively. Now my lappie is sibeh warm. Very unhappy. And both my arms and shoulders are killing me. They're aching like no one's business. Every little movement i make will result in a groan from me. Sheesh. Then my head seems to hate me by not letting me able to think straight. It's not heavy or aching, but just dense. I feel like an idiot right now. Shucks. Then, my friend is no longer my friend. So damn freaky lor. Forget it. Since it's her decision, i shall respect it. I got nothing to say. Since she thinks it's my fault, then i can do nothing about it. Cause it's her thinking, her head. I can't like open it up and type a code into it and change her thoughts. So, BAH!!! And to those who don't know the meaning of BAH, i'm quite surprised by it. But nevermind, if you seriously had no idea on why i'm using BAH, it's high time to start clicking on my archives. *smiles* Double damn, i initially wanted to rant. But my dense head is not registering anything into my brain. So irritating. Wahlao. Nevermind, shall blog again later. *grins* Anyway, i love talking to Clement. He's so freaking funny. He could even make me laugh with my dense head. Not bad. And he's also not in church anymore. *smiles even wider* And it's because that he was disgusted by what he saw except for his brothers. *smiles sibeh sibeh widely now* Cause i agree with him. *scratches chin* I wanted to post something funny which he msn-ed. But it's all like individual stuff. Very hard to post leh. So, it shall be my sole entertainment or anyone else whom click on my message history. *grins* And *cheers* Dinner's home. Gotta eat. Tata. Ps: Just had my zi char dinner. Had chicken, fish and brocolli. Sibeh yummy. *smack lips* But during dinner, mum said that we ate $80 for two nights. Because i didn't had dinner with family last night so i asked what they ate. They had like Yi Pin Guo, mango chicken, and some more yummy zi char food which i forgot. So jealous. They ate a $50 dinner last night whereas me, only ate a $2.50 wanton noodles. *pouts* So unfair. Very not systematic post. Sorry. *cries* Part I: Am waiting for [Yu Le Bai Fen Bai] on Channel U to start. The feeling of sitting in the living room with a blocked nose and aching head (with a uber warm lappie on my lap), is sibeh horrible. How to sleep tonight in this condition? Blocked nose = very hard to breathe = cannot sleep = damn Part II: My hair is super fugly today. I tried to style it but it was completely ruined. I didn't wait for my hair to be completely dry before applying wax and spray to it. Therefore explaining everything. Wet hair + wax = disaster Yes, my hair is totally very unsightly today. So all the more i didn't expect someone to think that me (with my acne face and fugly hair) as attractive. *smiles* YES, I KENNA SAY I WAS ATTRACTIVE. Sibeh sibeh happy. *smiles brightly* Anyway, as a proud attention seeker, i shall post about it. Part III: *flashes back* Was with Thea at Dhouby Ghaut's Zone X. I applied for the VIP card and topped up without playing any games. (Speaking of which, i tapped one credit into the machine but didn't use it. Saw too many pros there, therefore i had no guts to play in front of them.) Not happy. But while in Zone X, there's this guy who was Thea's friend. He seemed to be quite a nice person to talk to. Let's call this guy, Christopher for the time being. Though i heard that is name is Ki-something something, but i can't really remember. *coughs* I digress. Yes, Christopher. *coughs even louder* NO, Thea. I was standing beside Thea while waiting for our turn at the Para machine when Christopher walk past Thea and suddenly hi-fived with her. (Yes, imagine me being so awkward there) Then he asked Thea why is she in waloli. And why didn't she tell him that she's wearing that. Cause he had punk clothes too. (I think his is K-star. Not too sure but he had the exact same pants as Masu's.) Anyway, i had a very small talk with him about lolitas. WHICH I AM NOT INTERESTED IN WEARING (Read WHICH I LOOK HIDEOUS IN IT) Anyway, *fast forward*. Christopher was suddenly standing DIRECTLY in front of me when he took his phone back from Thea. He then looked at me. I stared back and asked, 'Yes?". (Because he was too close to me for my comfort) He said, "You're very attractive." or something close to that line. Cause i only heard the word, "attractive". Because i didn't hear the entire sentence, i was asking him to repeat his sentence. But he didn't. Shucks, my evil plan of getting another praise failed. Darn. (And how is it possible that i couldn't catch what you say. You were so close to me that i wasn't even feeling comfy anymore.) Anyway he asked Thea if i was single and Thea replied that i'm attached. I quickly tapped his shoulder and told him that Thea was single. *laughs evilly* Thea, go stead with him lah. Then i can play free games in arcade. Plus he's like very clever. First express class from your school. Second in class somemore. Plus, he's like so damn rich. And he cosplays too. Also he can wear G.P. with you. Not bad what. See, so good. Part IV: I also had this weird observation. Why do people only jio me when i'm wearing goth. Never when i'm in casual. Then Thea always had people jio-ing her when she's in casual but not in goth. *ponders* And also, why when someone wants to jio another person, that person must know more about that crush through the crush's friend. Very weird. But heng, i won't jio anyone BECAUSE I'M ATTACHED. *smiles* Part V: Anyway, not sure what happened to boyfriend now. Cause i couldn't remember what's going on in the conversation i had with him (i was too tired). But i remembered at the beginning boyfriend was repeating, "WO XI HUAN NI" for quite some time. It didn't quite registered in my head until much later. *embarrassed laugh* I couldn't really focus on anything for a period of time. I couldn't even reply friendster comments. Yes, it's that bad. Bad until the point that my mind couldn't understand, "Wo Xi Huan Ni". Much less blog. Though i did tried to blog just now, but it's so bad that i couldn't even have the heart to publish it. Part VI: Boyfriend's disciple looks like a SUPER UBER UBER good guy. *smiles* Part VII: Pictures taken today
 Taken on the train at a wrong angle. Makes my face looks so SHORT. But love the light. Bugis MRT station. Look at my poor hair. Not going to style it anymore. Will straighten it instead. (Edited by faithful handphone) My casual punk and Thea's qiloli. What on earth did i saw to make me look so emo? OMG. It's this cup of sinful coffee. (Tastes not very good by the way. But cute cup) Evil me + sinful coffee = perfect match Shucks, i was so damn tired that i can even fell asleep while STANDING in the MRT. So can someone sponsor me for a spa to let me relax my mind and rejuvenate my soul? *grins*Part VIII: I'm not really sure if my roman numerals are correct. Part IX: Really sorry for today's blog. Not very systematic. Forgive me, won't you? Part X: Look out for the nuffnang banner for these few days. You never know what you'll see. *winks*
Friday, March 21, 2008
I could have slept more
Wahlao, i woke up so early for nothing. Just after i put on my contacts, Thea smsed me to ask if we can meet one hour later. I'm sibeh sibeh sian now. Woke up with a horrible headache from the lack of sleep (again), only to find out i can actually sleep 1 hour more.Well, to be honest, it should be 40 mins more. Because i woke up 20 mins later than my planned time. I completely slept through the first alarm. Honest!! I DIDN'T wake up, snooze the alarm and went back to sleep. I only woke up to the nice melodious tune of 'Sympathia' and wondering how come it's already 10.20am. Please don't blame me. I only had 5 hours of sleep last night. *groans* I went offline at 4am thinking of getting at least 6 hours of sleep. But i tossed and turned and couldn't sleep until 5 plus. Sibeh sibeh not happy. What's worse. I woke up at 8 plus AGAIN before able to go back to sleep. Now, i'm sibeh tired and uncomfy with my headache. SIBEH SIBEH DU-LAN WITH MYSELF NOW!!! Anyway, going to change first. Will update again if i still had extra time on my hands after changing. *smiles* Ps: My jie is sleeping in the other room right now. Should i sneak over and take a picture of her? Base on her chio-ness, i'm sure my blog hits would increase over night. *slaps myself* How can i use jie to boost my blog's popularity. *shakes head* Nevermind Jie, you're safe now. I'm not taking any pictures of you sleeping. *grins sheepishly* Thursday, March 20, 2008
Finally some photos after so long
*cheers*I finally had 8 hours of sleep today. Rejoice people, rejoice!! But it's only for today. I still have to wake up at unearthly hours like 9am tomorrow. Okay *shrugs shoulders* maybe around 10am. But still, i have this good feeling because i know i can play arcade until siao tomorrow. So if anyone wants to know how i really look in real life, you can catch me tomorrow at Sembawang's Star Factory at around 3pm to 5pm. Or around Bugis from 12pm to 2pm. Thea will be in qiloli (waloli) and me in casual (but leaning a little towards punk). So if you ever want to notice where we are, just look around for someone wearing qiloli, and that will be Thea. (Since i'm in casual, you wouldn't have a chance to notice me.) *smiles*  That's Thea and i with my long long long long long arm. (Alright, i confess. That's just the camera angle. I'm actually just yet another short (and fat) person in life.) *AHEM* I mean, that's us if you're wondering.Damn, i really hate it when i cannot edit my pictures anymore. (Ps: That's my old hair. And that very chio girl beside me is Thea.) Anyway, i just had a one hour plus phone call with Thea. She kenna bullied by one of her seniors at work. She was crying when she called me. Gave me quite a shock then. Then i didn't realize that i was talking to Thea for so long, and when i went back to the phone with boyfriend, he had already hung up on me. Then when i called him again, his phone was off. *embarrassed laugh* So paiseh to boyfriend. Sorry boyfriend. *shuffles feet* But there's one thing i seriously realized. If it was the old Ching who picked up Thea's call, she wouldn't even have bothered to be there for Thea when she's crying. Much less call her back. Or even if the old Ching called Thea back, she would only do it for a motive. I'm so glad that i'm no longer that old Ching anymore. I'm officially Forbire now. Forbire, who is willing to be there and willing to do things without any motive. Anyway, i'd some pictures taken last week or something. (Ps: ALL my photos, music, programs are GONE. My entire drive crashed, and i'm lazy to bring my CPU down to ask them to help me back all my data up, so all my stuff is gone. GONE. *heartaches*) And i wouldn't be using my camera as much already, since i'm lazy to synchronized my lappie with the cam. Will use phone to blue tooth instead. *grins* Conclusion about myself: I'm FAT, EVIL and LAZY. Damn, am i bad or am i bad? But BAH!!! Anyway, RANDOM PICTURES!!!  On the bus directly after my new haircut. Edited by my faithful, 3 months old, phone (since i don't have any photo editing programs anymore) See my room. What can you spot? Me after mild styling of hair. But i wouldn't do this when i go out. Cause it looks quite emo. I did away my face because i don't want to let people see the aftermath of my tears. Was scolded by friend's mum earlier then. Taken by lappie's webcam. And see the posters behind? *grins* Anyway, i've realized some people is quite bothered when i use the word 'fuck'. But what the heck, i wouldn't stop using expletives just because someone is bothered by them. But if you seriously can't take it, tell me, and i shall use the word, 'rainbow' to represent the word 'fuck'. So instead of hearing or seeing, 'what the fuck', you will hear or see, 'what the rainbow'. Why 'rainbows' you ask? Cause rainbows are nice. Rainbows are things that should make girls happy. Rainbows ... ... are fucking boring to me. *embarrassed laugh* Fine fine, i'm neutral towards rainbows. I just suddenly thought of it. It could be strawberries or oranges too. *smiles* Ps: A serious big THANK YOU to Shane. He sent a lot of songs to me. Will count the total number of songs later. But still have to tell Shane, THANKS SIA!!! Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Emotions are harder to express when it's about someone once close to you
Rather than updating as said in my previous blog, i've decided to post a new blog. I'd been thinking about a lot of things today and was quite bothered by it. How come it's always the same thing. Facts being thrown in my face but i couldn't bring myself to accept it. I feel like i was lying to myself. But i couldn't stop it. Damn, is this life or is it people? Or both?I don't believe in giving time to both parties to cool down. That never work out and even if it works, it only works for the worse. I'm not sure what i should do now. Because i seemed to doubt. I doubt the things that reached my ears. Things are never that simple. I don't know who's the reactants and who's the catalyst. But i think i can guess it out myself. And i think my presumption ain't very far from the truth. At the end of the day, humans are still humans. Humans in church are still humans in the world. Much worse, humans in the world were once humans from church. I guess it all went back to square one. It all went back to me trusting the wrong person. I should be used to it. For i trusted too many wrong souls before. I was scarred and was used to the pain. But apparently, getting used to the pain doesn't mean not feeling pain anymore. This is just so damn sucky. I just feel like i am being lied to. But what the heck. You lie. I lie. We all lie. This is a Liar Game. A world playing in the game of lies. But what's different from the first version of Liar Game is that this game doesn't end. No matter who the players are. It's a game we have no choice but to participate. Until the day we stop breathing. Until the day when we are proclaimed dead. Anyway, i should stop talking about these because i know that NO ONE likes to read a emo blog. And especially since i hate emo-ness myself. So i shouldn't be emo. *shakes head and slaps myself* BAH, i hate how i wake up nowadays. Only had 5 hours of sleep today, 4 hours for yesterday and the day before yesterday. *roars* WHEN WILL I EVER GET ENOUGH SLEEP?!?! *sigh* I woke up to an sms from boyfriend. Fine, actually two smses. I slept through the first one. But the second sms which came 10 minutes after the first one woke me up. Shane saw the comments Alvin posted to me and told boyfriend about the existence of those comments. Then boyfriend smsed me. I told boyfriend that i will stay faithful to him and explained about the comments to him. Then he seemed to understand more and one thing he told me that touches me is that, "I will respect your privacy."WOAH, i was super uber moved by that. I still love him caring for me, but having privacy is an entire new topic altogether. Think about this, will you enjoy having someone breathing down your neck every second or so? Once or twice or a week or so is still bearable. But what about every single day in the one month, one year, or the rest of your life. I'm sure that'll be pretty irritating. I give him space and he gives me. But i still love him (and hopes that he will love me too. *smiles*) Anyway, i told him about the jealous thing and he replied that he won't agitate me with that jealous issue anymore. (But he still didn't mention about my hair. Means he still hate it. Shucks. But at least i like it. *grins*) Shit, i digress. Yes, i was saying about the jealous issue, and i wasn't agitated at all. I just didn't like it. But i was uber happy that he's willing not to make me jealous anymore. *smiles very sweetly* Mental Notes: Remember to find fake lip ring for Masu. Damn, i forgot to ask what kind he wants. Never mind, i shall go get one for myself then show him the sample. Before asking what kind he wants. Or *ponders*, shall i be extra good and ask if he wants to have a chain attached to it, so he can linked it to his ears. *scratches chin* Maybe not, since the guy he's cosplaying isn't doing that and that'll be so troublesome for me. And all the more when i need more time to sleep. Shall just spend 5 minutes buying the fake lip ring and nothing else. *grins sheepishly* Ps: I have such a sweet boyfriend, don't i? And sorry boyfriend, for being so impatient with you when you help Masu to call me and ask about the fake lip ring. *shuffles feet* Thanks Cloud (aka kuku aka boyfriend) Alright, doing a few-sentences-kind-of-blog now. Because i promised Alvin that i will blog. And a person must keep her promise eh? Anyway, as much as i wanted to blog, i can't. I cried for like three rounds today. So tired. Crying is damn bad. It's so unglam. And it gives you puffy eyes. It let your eyes be so dry that even blinking would be painful. And it gives me a splitting headache. (Fine, to be fair, the headache was from the lack of rest.) So, forgive me for not being able to blog now or blog well later. I will try my best. Anyway, i'm going to go into the arms of my warm and inviting bed. *aww, my head* *coughs* Thanks boyfriend for being there for me when i kanna scolded by friend's mum until very badly. Thanks for not being irritated when i was crying like siao and be super patient with me even when you can't make any sense out of whatever i was blabbering. Thanks for supporting me when i broke down. Thanks boyfriend, i love you. (And i don't care. You must love me too. *pouts* And cannot make me jealous. AND MUST SAY MY HAIR IS NICE.) UPDATE AGAIN WHEN I WAKE UP. *smiles* Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Crying on trains are so paiseh
I ate my words about not coming online to blog. But i shall come up just to say one thing.I AM SO PAISEH TO CRY UNTIL SO JIA LAT ON THE TRAIN. A lot of people were looking at me. And to make things worse, i was wearing eyeliner and mascara. Good thing i've cried with skills. So it just smudged a little. *smiles* Anyway people, please take note, i am a very bad influence, okay? Please stay clear of me. I am a very scheming evil person. I destroy mother-daughter relationships. I got no conscience. I'm a betrayer. I can make someone do something bad with mere words. So in short, i am a very bad person. There's more. But i forgot what else i was scolded. Plus i was scolded in Mandarin. Quite some of the stuff translated into English means more or less the same thing. Anyway, PLEASE REMEMBER I'M A BAD PERSON AND DON'T COME NEAR ME. But 'Han', IF YOU EVER READ THIS. DON'T GIVE UP THIS FRIENDSHIP BETWEEN US JUST TO PROTECT ME. ONLY GIVE IT UP WHEN YOU HATE ME AND FIND NO REASON TO BE MY FRIEND ANYMORE. JUST AS FEARFUL AS YOU ARE, I DON'T WANT YOU TO GET HURT TOO!! (Next time, just don't anyhow give your mum my new number lah. *grins*) Anyway PUI. I'm not a bad person. I don't drink, i don't smoke. Whatever happened above was just a misunderstanding. Ps: I was so proud of myself that i refrained from scolding expletives at her mum. *grins* Pps: Boyfriend, stop talking about my hair. I love it, can a not? And if you're really sick, go see doctor lah. And yes, i'm jealous. *smiles* |
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