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Saturday, May 31, 2008
So long, suckers
Right.My cousin, Amy, is in the media industry. Being a assistant director. Her cousin, Belinda, is also in the mediacorp. Was initially a VJ, but now being a host and actress. So i should not break the tradition and go into the media industry. *hyperventilates* No wonder mum ain't angry when i'm studying audio. LIFE IS GOOD FOR ME, suckers. (: P/s: No offense. Tired I'm lazy to blog. I've got something to blog, but once i opened Blogger.com, all the topics just flew out of my head. ): AND I'M TOO TIRED TO BLOG. Saddening. I do have pictures to upload. But after transferring half of the load from my camera to my laptop, i didn't feel like transferring anymore. So the ones in my phone are still not with me yet. Since i wasn't done with transferring, it means i haven't edit. Which means i still have a long time to go. Anyway, my phone should be back up within one hour. (: Finally. IT'S HOLIDAYS. FOURTEEN DAYS OF SLEEP!!!! People, don't call me until 3pm. I want to sleep. And i started out with myspace. Do add me at HERE. P/s: I've just changed my MSN. To those whom i didn't add at my new account, catch the hint. *coughs* NAH. It's just that i'd P/p/s: I will try to post some better entries lately. Since i should be getting more sleep lately. Thursday, May 29, 2008
LONG LONG post
VPN hates me. PERIOD. I can't get in the normal way. I have to run it every time if i want to get into VPN.I got into this serious case of hyperventilation when i found out i can't connect to VPN this morning. Until i realize that UT doesn't require VPN. That's when i stop panicking. Anyway, the few of us went to Mac and ate there again. Frez, Haylie, Ben, Sharlini and me. The five of us squeezed at two tiny tables and sat there until 8 plus when we decide that we had been hogging the place for too long. During that two long hours of squeezing and eating, we talked about a lot of random stuff. Including ghost experiences. Not that i wasn't scared of it, but the fact is that i still refuse to believe in spirits. I hope i'm not in denial though. Heh. Ben and i both took 169 home. I love bus concessions. SAVE $$$!!! 媽媽說 省省省 I'm not promoting Shop 'n' Save. On the contrary, i prefer Cold Storage more even if the things are a little more expensive. But then again, i don't do the groceries. (That's why i don't really care about the prices) ^^ And when i got off 169, i saw Jian Wei. And when Jian Wei and i got onto 806, we saw Benjamin. In the end, all 3 of us went home together. I love going home with friends. Although i can go home alone, but i just don't like the idea of it. Because i love hanging out with friends who can make me laugh till i choke/gasp/snort. And laughing is good. Can lose weight. Won't get sick easily. Is a form of exercise. It's good, you see. Moving on. I hate waking up in the mornings and looking in the mirror. My face is bad enough to start of with, now my hair is killing me too. My fringe is getting from bad to worse. It's starting to curl to one side and i have no choice but to part it. If i comb it straight, then it would be going to the side or have partings in it. Infuriating. I wonder how Ben Toh can keep his bangs so well. And not only my bangs. The thing on my ear is hurting me too. I got to take it off in the middle of the class to sooth the pain. But vanity would force me to put it on again a few minutes later. I just so love that ring. (: And oh yes. We did the Monty Hall problem a few days before and i loved that problem. Case Study 1: Quiz Show On a quiz show held by a local TV station, the contestant is asked to choose one of the three boxes. One of the boxes contains $1,000 cash. The other two boxes are empty. After the contestant has made his choice, the game show host will proceed to open one of the boxes that the contestant did not select. It is important to note that the host knows the contents of the boxes and would not open the box that contains the $1,000 cash. The host then offers the contestant the opportunity to switch his choice to the other unopened box. Should he switch to increase his chance of winning the $1,000 cash? What would you do? Will you switch or will you not? Will you think that the chances of each box is still 1/3 or 1/2? The answer would be that the box you had chosen in the first round would still have a probability of 1/3 but the other box not chosen would have a probability of 2/3. Puzzled? Read this and you would know why. Anyway, my new favourite color would be orange and i have no idea why. Prolly it's because Ben Toh likes it? Same goes for the polka dots. But i guess i wouldn't really like it because i prefer simplicity. And i found out a new equation i liked. It has NO relation with Ben Toh at all. It's 1+1=3. Why? Go figure. (: PLUS PLUS PLUS i feel like eating Sakae. Anyone feels like that too? I want to eat Chawamushi, edamame, fried tofu, sashimi and SUSHI!!!!! Anyone? Anyone wants too? And i love playing with whiteboards. Frez, Haylie and i went on confessing on the white board. And i suddenly feel like a flirt. I liked Tooru, Ben Toh, THAT guy which both Frez and Haylie knows, Xuan, EMP coloured contacts senior and MUSIC!!!!! :/ Heh. But then some of the sentences up there are very true. What Frez wrote was "The one who brought you up and bring you down." And i continued with his sentence, "And i'm willing to be brought down by you. If only you were to look at me and bring me down. Only for you, i'm willing." Then i wrote another sentence, "You broke my heart but all the tiny pieces are still loving you." And more and more of those. I thought some of them were very good though. Pity i didn't took a picture. And i'm too lazy to take them lately nowadays anyway. I'VE JUST REALIZED, BEN TOH HAS NO RELATION TO CHRIST IN ANY WAYS. HE'S A BUDDHIST. So he's loved. (: One advantage i found out being unattached. Phone bills will always be manageable. The bills for March came, when i was still attached to my ex-boyfriend. And my outgoing calls came up to a whooping $157. Outrageous. And i found out one of my EMP's faci is called Takuya. Talk about coincidence. Almost thought that joining EMP is a bad choice. But after ONE second of that thought, it went away completely because i still love music. ^^ And i will always. Heh. I don't care even if you will never lay eyes on me. Cause i just know that i will love you forever. You may not love me. But you can't stop me from loving you. I don't care if you were to like me. What's important is that i like you. P/s: We're going to Marina Square's Starbucks to chill tomorrow. Because our holidays officially starts on Saturday!!!!! P/p/s: I'm going to eat the wonderful choco cake in my fridge. It'd been calling my name for a long time. Time check: 11.25pm Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Hurting ears
OMIGOSH. OMIGOSH. OMIGOSH.I had no idea i am both accepted into Japanese Culture and Electronic Music Production. Until today when i realized i got BOTH meetings on the same day. ): I gave up Japanese Culture for Music Production. OBVIOUSLY. And i got into this team with April, Val and Marcus. Till now, i have no idea if it's a blessing in disguise or disaster in disguise. All i can do now is hope for the best. BUT I'M SO EXCITED. I CAN'T WAIT TO START DOING OUR 'PROJECT'. Anyway, there's some problem with my internet and VPN again. It has disconnected itself while i'm still typing this sentence. And the uncanny feel that i need to go to school next week is all gone. I can sleep for all i like for two weeks. Imagine this. TWO FREAKING WEEKS OF PURE BLISSFULNESS. Unless someone decides to come and wakes me up. Pictures!!!  I looked like Donald in this picture. But i still posted it up as i just wanted to show off the thing on my ear. I have no idea why, but it hurts a big deal today. ): When i'm not drinking Nutrisoy, i'm drinking Nutritea. (: Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Influential Grapes
Despite the fact that i'm tired, lazy, hungry, pissed and irritated, i still decided to faithfully update my blog.See, i'm so faithful. (: Anyway, i'm lazy to transfer pictures to my com, much less edit or even upload them. Therefore, explaining the lack of pictures lately. Will try to make it up during the holidays where i've decided to go out quite often. SINCE I CAN'T STAND THE BOREDEM. Someone, please ask me out and go somewhere. I foresee that i'll be VERY bored during the holidays. And, i got this uncanny feeling that i still have school on the next Monday and Tuesday. I hope this uncanny feeling would soon go away. ="= AND OH YES. OH YES. OH YES!!! ELECTRONIC MUSIC PRODUCTION FINALLY ACCEPTED ME!!!!!! OMIGOSH!!!! I'm going for their meeting tomorrow at 5pm. If it's NOT in a classroom, then i might take pictures. But i will still try to sneak a picture of this ONE senior who is very VERY cool. Coloured contacts. *goes ga-ga over him* HE'S DAMN NICE OKAY?!?!???? April thought so too. (: And i didn't go into EMP because of him. Not that he didn't played any role in it.... BUT.... I WENT IN BECAUSE I HAVE THIS PASSION FOR MUSIC THAT NEVER SEEMED TO DIE OUT. Weird in some instances, but i'm happy with it. (: Anyway, some random stuff happened in class today. April came over to my class and we started to play this word game where you use the last character of the other party's words to form a word of your own. Who knows what's Wen Zi Jie Long? It's in chinese anyway. It started off nice and innocent. With my current chinese name. And by the time it reached by old chinese name, everything went haywire. Imagine this. *Orange's me. Purple's April* Yu Jing -> Jing Qu Ba -> Ba, Wo Hui Lai Liao -> Liao Jie, Chong Liang Qu -> Qu Si, Si Gin Na (Si Hai Zi), Tou Na Lim Pei (Ni Lao Ba Wo) De Qian... ... (and so it continues on ... ... ^^) I took a picture of the stuff i wrote but i can't be bothered to upload it. Will do it sometime else. And... I'M EXCITED ABOUT TOMORROW. I hope that senior would be there. (: Monday, May 26, 2008
The.thing.on.my.ear.is.loved.
I didn't have any ear holes on my ear lobes. But instead, i've got this. Isn't it cool? God's Debris Maple crusade is lagging my nerves out and i'm once again signing in for the n-th times. Anyway, i got nothing much that i want to blog about. Except that i got freaking pissed by Guo Hao, Gui Liang and Han Hui. What's the meaning that they don't want to transfer the game to April. I did tried to zip it up once, but it showed me a freaking 3 hour duration!! Then i gave up trying to zip it. So i asked Guo Hao to lend April the thumbdrive for her to play the game too. But just because Han Hui don't allow (by saying too many players make the game lag), Guo Hao seriously didn't want to give the game to April. And he managed to psycho Gui Liang not to give too. BOOOO!!! I will try to transfer the files for myself. I hope those files aren't corrupted. Anyway, i was reading God's Debris and i thought it was a pretty good book. It talks about this guy who knows about everything. And all the things that's in the book is very thought provoking. Even though this book is called 'God's Debris', but i ain't sure if the entire book is about God. For i'm only at Chapter 4, "God's Free Will". But below is two excerpts i took out from the book. Enjoy. OM stands for Old Man And ME simply stands for... well... me (: OM “If you toss a coin a thousand times, how often will it comes out heads?” Me “About fifty percent of the time” OM “Why?” ME “I guess that’s because the coin weighs about the same on both sides, so there’s a fifty-fifty chance it will land on one side versus the other” OM “You haven’t answered why. You simply listed some facts” ME “What’s the answer?” OM “The answer is that the question has no why” ME “You could say that about anything” OM “No, any other question has an answer to why. Probability is inexplicable.” OM “Do you believe in God?” ME “There has to be a God, otherwise none of us would be here.” OM “Do you believe that God is omnipotent and that people have free will?” ME “Yeah” OM “If God is omnipotent, wouldn’t he know the future?” ME “Sure,” OM “If God knows what the future holds, then all our choices are already made, aren’t they? Freewill must be an illusion.” ME “God let us determine our future ourselves, using our free will.” OM “Then you believe God doesn’t know the future” ME “I guess not, but he must prefer not knowing” OM “So you agree that it would be impossible for God to know the future and grant humans free will?” ME “I hadn’t thought about it before, but I guess that’s right. He must want us to find our own way, so he intentionally tries not to see the future.” OM “For whose benefit does God withhold his power to determine the future?” ME “Well, it must be for his own benefit, and ours, too. He wouldn’t have to settle for less.” OM “Couldn’t God give humans the illusion of free will? We’d be just as happy as if we had actual free will, and God would retain his ability to see the future. Isn’t that a better solution for God than the one you suggested?” ME “Why would God want to mislead us?” OM “If God exists, his motives are certainly unfathomable. No one knows why he grants free will, or why he cares about human souls, or why pain and suffering are necessary parts of life.” ME “The one thing I know about God’s motives is that he must love us, right?” OM “Love? Do you mean love in the way you understand it as a human?” ME “Well, not exactly, but basically the same thing. I mean, love is love.” OM “A brain surgeon would tell you that a specific part of the brain controls the ability to love. If it’s damaged, people are incapable of love, incapable of caring about others.” ME “So?” OM “So, isn’t it arrogant to think that the love generated by our little brains is the same thing that an omnipotent being experiences? If you were omnipotent, why would you limit yourself to something that could be reproduced by a little clump of neurons?” ME “We must feel something similar to God’s type of love, but not the same way God feels it.” OM “What does it mean to feel something similar to the way God feels? Is that like saying a pebble is similar to the sun because both are round?” ME “Maybe God designed our brains to feel love the same way he feels it. He could do that if he wanted to.” OM “So you believe God wants things. And he loves things, similar to the way humans do. Do you also believe God experiences anger and forgiveness?” ME “That’s part of the package” OM “So God has a personality, according to you, and it is similar to what humans experience?” ME “I guess so.” OM “What sort of arrogance assumes God is like people?” ME “Okay, I can accept the idea that God doesn’t have a personality exactly like people. Maybe we just assume God has a personality because it’s easier to talk about it that way. But the important point is that something had to create reality. It’s too well-designed to be an accident.” OM “Are you saying you believe in God because there are no other explanations?” ME “That’s a big part of it.” OM “If a stage magician makes a tiger disappear and you don’t know how the trick could be done without real magic, does that make it real magic?” ME “That’s different. The magician knows how it’s done and other magicians know how it’s done. Even the magician’s assistant knows how it’s done. As long as someone knows how it’s done, I can feel confident that it isn’t real magic. I don’t personally need to know how it’s done,” OM “If someone very wise knew how the world was designed without God’s hand, could that person convince you that God wasn’t involved?” ME “In theory, yes. But a person with that much knowledge doesn’t exist.” OM “To be fair, you can only be sure that you don’t know whether that person exists or not.” It's a little long. But i had a good time trying to make think about it. And now, time to go into Maple. (: Sunday, May 25, 2008
Maple is infuriating
I feel pissed.I feel PMS coming my way. I feel INSECURE. Anyway, was gaming for a few hours trying to get to my 3rd job. Before i could reach El Nath, i was already level 75. Just by fighting penguins. Infuriating. By the looks of it, i will be level 90 by the time i complete my job advancement. I'm not tempted This post is taken off... BECAUSE I'M TEMPTED. Answer will come pretty soon... i hope. NO MORE CRY NO MORE CRY! NO MORE CRY! I just watched first five episodes of Gokusen 2. Even though there's no more Matsumoto Jun acting inside, but there's MORE hotter guys in there. *drools* Watching all of them got me all hyped up to colour my hair. I know i had been saying this for a long time, but then, parents not sponsoring me. Got to save it up myself. But i guess, i might go and get some during the holidays. WHICH IS COMING VERY VERY VERY SOON!!!! I can't wait for the hols. Cause i need to sleep!!! Saturday, May 24, 2008
I love you. Will you ever know?
Even if i can never be part of the pages in your book of LoveBut I'm contented with just knowing that at least i'm part of your book of Life before You'll never know how much i love you I'll never know if you had ever thought of loving me You'll never know that you're in my head every minute, every second I'll never know if you had even thought about me before You'll never know my feelings i had for you I'll never know do you even acknowledge my feelings Unless i told you Or you asked But i will never tell you For i'm a weakling And you'll never ask Because you don't know The feelings i had for you shall be kept as a secret to you The thoughts you had shall always be a mystery to me At the end of the day I've no idea who's the biggest loser Will it be me Who lost someone i really love Or will it be you Who lost someone that really love you I guess there'll not be a loser For there'll never be a winner or loser in this game of love There'll only be people who love or being loved Though i might only be in your book of life But you're already in my book of love Han Hui... will you ever know that i like you? Updates: The last sentence showing whom i like had virtually disappeared from this post. So stop searching for it. TEEHEE. Random post I've tried to go into Maple Crusade but i can't seem to be able. Is it just me (again) or is there something wrong with the system. I didn't know it'll turn out to be so But for the time being, i shall turn towards MapleSEA. For i can't go out because my Jie is home. And i can't go out. DAMN. And to think that i thought it was my Dada who bought Mac for us. So it was Jie. Anyway, till that time. Let me go and try if MapleSEA is dying on me too. Friday, May 23, 2008
MAPLE time
I shall keep today's post short.I'm playing Maple yet once again. But this time not as a cleric but as a Ice/Lightning wizard. And i'm a damn poor wizard. No money. No weapons. I'm still wearing my noobish clothes. CALL ME BOON. JUST CALL ME BOON. Anyway, moving on. I suddenly reminisce the time where no one knows my blog and i can write anything i want here without worrying. Because i know that whoever who reads my blog will be a stranger to me. I will most probably not meet that person for the rest of my life. But then, when more and more friends started to read (which is a good thing), but i felt that there's some thing i can't just say it out anymore. At times, i really felt like saying the guy i liked in my blog. But then again, i couldn't. Though friends like Fareez and Haylie would know which guy i liked, but the rest didn't know. And i'm scared of paiseh-ness. (X Anyway, thanks a lot to Haylie and Fareez. For telling the guy i liked to touch the wall. And when i asked that guy not to, Haylie still went on to say that i treat the wall as a particular someone. And that particular someone is my husband. WAHLAO. What if he really thinks that way? I really like him and if he thinks that way, it'll be so saddening. But on the other hand, this crush is a bit nonsensical. For i don't really talk much to him. In actual, i would even avoid him at times. It's not that i want to, but it's that i didn't know what to do when i'm going to talk to him. I'm afraid that i'll fumble in front of him and make a fool out of myself. HOW? I really like him. Shall i tell him? Or should i not? I guess not. T.T And to think that i've said that i'm posting a short post today. Anyway, time to Maple. Ciaos. Thursday, May 22, 2008
This is a VERY wordy post. Believe me.
I have two pieces of good news to share soon. Soon people, SOON. (: Okay, now moving on to the main entry of the day. Around half of our class didn't come for lesson today. I wonder what happened. Was there a communication break down with our class or was it just pure coincidence? I hope it isn't that half of the class agreed on not coming to school today but the message wasn't passed on. So people who had attended class today, let's all not go tomorrow. And let the ten odd people attend ENTERPRISE themselves. =/ No one would do that. Unless we're talking about science over here. =x Anyway, i feel like talking about my team's presentation today. Since i didn't get a chance to present alongside with my team and i feel that there's one part which ain't very accurate. Sodium chloride reduces the temperature of the ice to -10 d.c. whereas calcium chloride reduces the temperature of the ice to -29 d.c. Let's call ice with sodium chloride to be A and ice with calcium chloride to be B. Both ice A and ice B would still melt at 0 d.c. That's the properties of ice, it will start melting at 0 d.c. When i'm adding chemicals to the ice, i'm not lowering it's melting point, i'm just basically making the ice colder. By making my ice colder, it will require more heat (compared to Ice A or conventional pure ice) to melt them. Therefore, taking more time to melt it. So my point in my supposed slide is that our ice (which is Ice B) can last longer NOT by reducing it's melting point but by making it colder. Because our team had explained that point stated above as "We had added calcium chloride to our ice, which will increase our melting point to 29 d.c. So our ice wouldn't melt at 0 d.c. but at 29 d.c."
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
randomness
Can someone remind me how old is Jia Yang again?He's just 18 or 19 right? *thinks far far* Who do i like? When the time comes And when i fall Into a deep deep slumber I long to sleep But i'm afraid I want to dream But i'm scared Cause i know The only time when i can talk happily with you Smile alongside with you It can only happen in my dream No where else but my dream I long to be with you in there But i'm afraid I don't want to wake up I don't want to leave that dream Because i know that that dream will never come to a pass I want to be with you forever But in your book of love Doesn't have a page that belongs to me I long to see you I long for you to love me But i guess i don't have the time to wait for you for that long... ... Anyway, i am so dead beat. I had a total of 6 hours of sleep for two days. An average of 3 hours per day. It's a miracle that i can still be here blogging. AND... I'VE GOT STEPMANIA 4.0 WITH A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT OF SONGS. *going ga-ga over it* I've no idea why. But the spirit in class today is very low. And i've blurted out something wrong. So to repay, i shall blurt out something about myself. Actually... I... Like... M... ... *Merlion?* NO. Is Mu... ... *OMIGOD. You like Murni?* HELL NO. I like... ... Music!!!! And also another thing. I like HH. I like HidayaH. See, it's HH. Or i like HanHui. Also HH. Another one. Another one. I'm starting to enjoy this randomness. I like Japanese rice box. I like Bento. I like Ben Toh. I like Ben To(oru) I like Ben and Tooru!!!!! So now, who can guess who in the world do i really like. Alright, this is getting too way out of hand. I think i should stop here. P/s: I initally wanted to continue the liking part with Wei Jie, Roy, Charleston, Ivan and Jia Yang. But i guess if i put these guys in, i don't have to stop blogging for tonight already. P/p/s: I guess i would be going down tomorrow to take my phone. I need someone who's fashion trendy to go with me. Cause i also want to go look at some colours. Who can help me? P/p/p/s: I'm not going into game today. Be shocked. P/p/p/p/s: I think i will post another not so boring entry very soon. Tiredness After chiong-ing for quite some time in HS5, i'm proud to say that... I STILL HAVEN'T LEVEL UP YET. You couldn't blame me, could you. I only started playing since one or two days ago, and you should see the degree of lag-ness in my desktop. And the trauma. Even if i get all perfects, i am still being pushed down to the 8th position. Only when i start doing stunts can i manage to push myself up to the 6th position for a second or two, to drop back to 8th, 9th, 10th or even 15th position. Imagine that you're playing among all the pros. Almost everyone around you is getting an A or above. All those freaky pros are getting either S or SS. And poor me, getting only A and S. Nothing more. But it's okay. At least i had 30 plus perfect hits. I'm contented enough. Anyway, i seriously wanted to go off from HS5 for quite some time already. But it's just that the next song that comes up is so nice to listen that i can't help but stay on to play one more song. JUST ONE MORE SONG. JUST ONE!!! And i think i'd said that to myself for about twenty times. =x Anyway, i can't go into HS5 in school either. I had no idea why. Initially wanted to go in and buy some stunts or clothes or some stock or other, but then I CAN'T GET IN. Therefore, StepMania is loved in RP. Endless mode is further loved. BAH. There's a culture UT next morning. And i didn't even check if i got all the 6Ps. Wish me luck. Just wish me luck. And for now, let's see how many days will i start procrastinating to go collect my phone. Today is officially Day 1. P/s: Don't start me ranting. It'll be scary. Cause i feel that i had a lot of things to rant about Christianity all of a sudden. Imagine this. Pastors in my previous church earn $20 000 per month. And that was why my previous church still ain't this big and rich yet. Imagine now. *shivers* Now now. If any one time in my life when i'm broke. I can just pick up my bible, go get a licence and start my own church. Then, i might be able to earn this much. WAIT. If i want to earn this money, then i am not thinking about lives, i'm thinking about numbers. Damn. This means that i need to learn to be cold-blooded and scheming first. P/p/s: I only had about 2 hours of sleep yesterday and i'm still wide awake now. I suddenly have a bad premonition about tomorrow's lesson. Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Boring Random Post
Was carsick while on the way home. I hope it's not because that i had played StepMania on the way home on bus.And now, the fan behind me is irritating me out. Some parts of it most probably came loose. It's having this weird sound to it. Very irritating. Now asking my darling dad to help me fix it. Anyway, i saw this really nice looking guy on the way home. He was slim, tall and had very nice hair. I kind of forgotten his face. But he looked like a working young adult. My best guess is that he's around twenty plus? Definitely younger than twenty five. And he had this shoe bag, so i guess he just came back from gym. BUT HE DOESN'T LOOK SWEATY AT ALL. He's HOT. Read my lips. H.O.T. Jia Yang is very nice too. I am starting to wonder if half of the people in E zone is there just because of Jia Yang. The other half for Ivan. =X I hope not. Anyway, i'm supposed to be in HS5 already. I promised BiGBang to go there since an hour ago. =/ Standing in the rain Will you ever notice me? I never dared to look into your eyes But I was always behind you, watching you Hoping that you will lay your eyes on me I always thought being with the one that loved me is better than being with the one I love I’ve tried to be with him But my heart told me otherwise It’s impossible No one could ever replace you in my heart I ain’t that strong I ain’t that capable in controlling my emotions I ain’t able to stop myself from loving you I’ve tried to be logical I’ve tried to not love you But love is blind Love is mad I’m so madly blind I’m so blindly mad I can’t stop my heart from telling me that… I… Love… You… Haylie and Fareez. You would know who i were referring to when i said 'i love you', don't you? I initially thought i would go back to Xuan's friend. But then, i was pretty irritated and disgusted by him. Blocked him directly. Even if this means that i would be cut off all contacts from Xuan. BAH. Had diarrhoea today. Hope it wasn't the cheesy tofu, braised beef noodles or spaghetti i had. Oh yes. I had this very good ice chocolate at night. You can literally drink the chocolate powder. Ewwish but the chocolate powder was bitter. So it was loved. And let me say this. Even if it will piss people off. I'm not anti-Christ or an atheist. I believed that there's a big guy up there. But if that big guy is Christ, then i guess He's not a very great guy after all. Since a leader determines what kind of people He's leading. I can't see God. So i could only see His people. And looking at His people, my best guess is that He's not all that good after all. Anyway, if i were to choose any religion, i would go back to be a Buddhist. As at least this relationship had no strings attached or politics behind it. I want a pure relationship with the big guy up there, not some politics. I had my fair share of politics in my own world, no need to seek for more. Before you decide to think that i don't know anything, i wish to tell you this. I'm not saying this from a regular Christian point of view. I'm saying this from a Christian leader point of view. Damn, now i had seriously forgot what i wanted to blog about. So, let me go play HS5 now. Monday, May 19, 2008
Now is the 19th, 10.16pm
Right. This blog entry should be posted yesterday, but halfway through the uploading of pictures and installing HighStreet 5 in my lappie, i got pretty pissed and stop doing both things.And i spent the entire of today playing HS5. YES, it's that addictive. GO DOWNLOAD. GO DOWNLOAD NOW!!! But there's always a catch. A lot of the audition pros are also in there. Made me look so noobish. But still, i managed to level up twice today. (: Even though HS5 is installed in my lappie, but i still couldn't play it in school. Cause i need to use the 4 arrow keys to play and my left arrow key is spoilt. And no, i can't change the key settings. Good thing that there's still StepMania. Gosh. I'm playing so much music-based games lately. Guess i should really stop procrastinating and contact ACER to get my keys fixed. But till then, should i get a portable keyboard. *scratches chin* Anyway, April and i went to Far East yesterday and i spent more than i should But whatever i bought was loved. Though i saw another dress that i fell in love with, but without NETS card, there's nothing much i can do. *sigh* I should get a rich boyfriend soon. KI TAT, YOU STILL AVAILABLE A NOT? O.o Just kidding. SERIOUS. I'M JUST KIDDING ABOUT IT. Anyway, i can't really remember what happened yesterday. So let the pictures tell the story instead.  I was seriously late in meeting April already. But how could i ever resist taking a photo before i leave.AND MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A STRONG HEART IF YOU WANT TO SCROLL DOWN. YOU SURE?? BOO!!!  The reason as to why i would choose to keep bangs now. Me without fringe = nightmare. See. So much better with bangs. I can't use my PS anymore. Therefore, see all the pimples starting to appear on my photos. With thick lips. DAMN. I love my clothes. But quite some people think otherwise. But who cares about their thoughts. Waiting for my turn to get my table ornament back to it's original purpose. Being a handphone. My mouth looks weird. Explaining the heart over there. Just pretending to be studious.After getting our loot and being almost broke, we decided that we were hungry enough to eat. When to some Thai restaurant and got a two person meal. Cost around $34.20. Worth every cent of it.  I was damn hungry. Was complaining to April ever since god knows when. And the Shilin XXL chicken did little to sooth my hunger. I initially thought that their drink would be diluted. But NO. IT WAS DAMN THICK. ("V") their drinks. I love to use straws. Drinking from the cup was just for photos. Given a choice, i would rather use straws. SIAN. Caught stealing April's drink. Isn't this cute. There's this mushroom stuck to the underside of my plate. I love their rice. Round. Round. Rice. April wanted to take a picture of me eating the rice. Then i did this. Chicken with cashew nuts. Scallops with Kai Lan. I LOVE KAI LAN!!!And there also this sweet and sour fish. Just that we were too hungry and dug in before the fish came and by the time it came, we were too busy eating to think about taking pictures of it. Tsk tsk tsk. What kind of bloggers are we? But who cares? We don't blog for a living. We blog for interest. Therefore, we're forgiven. HEH.  I seriously tried to finish the rice. But i was too full. Now i hope that the superstition which says that the rice i didn't finish would appear as pimples on my spouse face isn't true. If not, my spouse must be an acne-y guy for sure. =/ April and i didn't clean our plates. Good thing we aren't eating buffet. See the amount of onions? All the food that we can't finish were all arranged by April into weird formations. And lastly, the chillies.Both April and i can't take any degree of spiciness and we had this challenge. To pop one gigantic piece each. I did it first. I chewed. I swallowed thinking it was alright. But once i swallowed, the spiciness came up and out. Drank a waterfall full of water. Sheesh. Anyway, it's 10.10pm now. I should Sunday, May 18, 2008
I've just cried
 I've just cried. I've just debated with my mum over the drug issue. I hope she believes me now. I can't sleep now in case i get puffy eyes tomorrow. P/s: My NETS card are still not with me. Saturday, May 17, 2008
Finally. Pictures!!
Let me boast, let me boast. LET ME BOAST.I found out an advantage of being an RP student. RP had taught me how to talk. Mum was talking to me about taking bus to school, since i'm on bus concession. But i refused to, because taking bus to school would mean that i will have to wake up earlier. So mum was saying that i was moving too slowly in the morning. I took half an hour to bathe in the morning. BUT who can resist standing under that warm trickle of water in cold mornings? That half an hour was pure bliss. (: Anyway, mum was saying that i should move faster in the morning, so i could sleep more. I replied that i don't like to hurry about in the morning. It makes me feel tired even before i start school with all those hurrying. She was saying that i should change myself and everything *blah blah blah* and i also retort back with *yadidah yadidah yadidah*. CONCLUSION IS... I WON!!!! (: RP is loved. Moving on. I think i had a lot of overdue blogs. :/ And the main point is, i had long forgotten the main bulk of what i was supposed to post already. Moving on ... ... again
P/s: I'm still not sure if i like that guy. TELL ME. Cause i like him when he's being nice. But i hate him when he's not. DAMN. P/p/s: I guess i'm going to Orchard tomorrow. To watch April shop and get my damn phone fixed. P/p/p/s: And that'll be a torment as i can't buy anything without my NETS card. Love is also loved Stop telling me about infatuation. I hope it isn't. Anyway, my phone is still down and i haven't send the stuff i'm selling out yet. I hope i won't receive the money first before i sent out those stuff. =/ And i'm not stereotyping Christians. I'm just biased and against them. Or until i can find a reason as to explain. I couldn't blame them. We HAD (past tense) spent so much time and effort to built this fake image out. If people don't appreciate them, aren't we just wasting our effort? So people who love it is also loved. Integrating? BAH. P/s: I will spend my weekends thinking about him and playing stepmania. I think my phone is down for good. Or at least until i get my lazy butt moving to Wisma to repair it. Thursday, May 15, 2008
H.I.P.P.O.P.O.T.A.M.U.S.
I've just blogged. And i deleted the post. It's too horrendous to be posted.Anyway, i went to Subway with half of the class today. I regretted not going to arcade with April and James. I know April for more than a few years. April knew James for less than a week. April rather go out with James than me. I've gained 2kg. And that makes me 47kg. But i'm still binging on food. Damn. My phone is still down. I've got some random pictures. But it's with everyone else except me. I feel like eating fried rice, which is in the kitchen calling my name and daring me to eat him. I don't think i really like the guy (the one which i told Haylie). I felt nothing about him today. Nothing like how i felt for Tooru. Damn. ): I think the senior in EMP has the nicest color contacts i had ever seen. It suits him like nobody's business. I'm neutral towards God. But i don't like those who like Christ. Cause the majority of them (or at least to those whom i've met) are bad and scheming people. But Shalom. Be secured. You do not belong to the bad and scheming part. You're ("V")ed. I think Xuan's blog is catching my heart over here. But i don't like him. I once do. But not anymore. I don't feel like going for tomorrow's science lesson. I don't like the module. I don't like the faci. I'm neutral towards the group members BUT I'M TIRED!!! Can i pretend to oversleep? I'm not making any sense over here. I hope my blog post would get more interesting from today onwards. Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Layout done!!
After three long days, my blog finally seemed decent.Decent, i would say. But not perfect yet. But it's 11.36pm and i've yet downloaded my 6P for tomorrow's test. STRESS AR!!! Anyway, my little fucker phone is still down. It's still a $300 table ornament. Damn. When will i ever have the time to go down to Orchard and repair it? Moving on. I just told Haylie who i liked. So bribe her if you want to know who i like. And it's who i really really like. Not the Tooru or Benjamin Toh kind of like. And. And. And. AND!!!! Jayden viewed my blog. He actually viewed my blog. *hyperventilates* IT'S JAYDEN LEH!!! Remind me to talk about Mother's Day and the security issue soon. I'd forgotten what to blog about for the rest. P/s: I HATE IRRITATING AND ANNOYING GUYS!!! Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Blogskin will soon be fine (i hope)
I know my blog is in a horrendous state now. But it shall soon be fine. As long as i find the time to find out the error.I'm hungry. My phone is down. And the name "Joycelyn" keeps on ringing in my head. Anyway, i just want to say that i had just typed a 700++ words Reflective Journal. I know it's not the longest compared to the others, but it's the longest i had typed. My average RJ is about 100 words. Plus or minus. Bah. I'm too hungry to blog. Will update again. MAIN POINT OF THIS ENTRY IS THAT MY BLOGSKIN WILL SOON BE FINE. I hope. And i will try to blog about Mother's Day celebration, running away from the security guard and Benjamin (from block W4) soon. PLUS, MY EMP AUDITION IS TOMORROW. Wish me luck. NOW IS THE ZE TIME TO PANIC!!! P/s: I DID credit Benjamin for this skin. It's just that it's supposed to be in my side bar. But my sidebar ended up at the bottom. I will try to ratify this as soon as possible. Like when i finally have enough time to sleep. In the meanwhile, please bear with me. Monday, May 12, 2008
Changing layout
Alright. I'm going to do this even at the expense of making Benjamin (Toh) to hate me.He hates this. But i had ran out of ideas. I'M GOING TO COPY HIS LAYOUT. *evil laughs* He hates people copying him but i'm going to do it anyway. At least i would have credited him in someway or other. And i want to flirt with him. It was him who said that we can. ): Anyway, my phone is down. It keeps shutting down automatically. After a freaking THREE hours, it would switch on AUTOMATICALLY for 2 seconds. After it saw me rejoicing over it's revival, it will switch off AUTOMATICALLY again.  This is that little fucker.I was almost late for school today because of it. When my mum came hollering into the room, my first thought was that i would want to skip school. I had no idea what made me climb out of bed and go to school. Must be some scary force.  I found out that my digicam ran out of batteries. Had to charge all 4 batteries.I will blog about Mother's Day dinner soon. Real soon. P/s: If you come in and see this blog in a horrible state. Ignore it. It will soon be fine after some time. O.o Sunday, May 11, 2008
Killer headache
I had this really good post in my head. But then i'm lazy to blog.My eyes hurt from the contacts and the pictures are still in my phone. My cable couldn't sense my phone and my desktop didn't have blue tooth. Therefore i can only blog in school tomorrow. And i hope i won't forget what i want to blog about. I had been typing for three minutes and i had no idea what i'm typing about. So i shall continue to type. I'm guessing that my jie might have read my blog. She really came out with a better idea which is to eat at a restaurant. Their food ain't too good. But their dessert is <3 I shall type more tomorrow for i have a killer headache now. WARNING
The following material may contain offensive material that may or may not include indecent verbal insults to certain individuals. Readers discretion are advised. In other words, if you're an on fire Christian, don't read this blog entry. OH MY FREAKING GOD!!! I suddenly feel like i'm a Late night baths. Replying mails. Integrating. OH MY GOD!!! Shucks. I realized that some people are quite affected when i say, "OH MY FREAKING GOD" or "OH MY FUCKING GOD". So as to be nice, next time i shall say... ... OH MY GUAN YIN MA (: Now. Will that be better? Damn. I suddenly feel like ranting about Christians again. It's like at times, i feel that i am quite okay with Christians. But at other times, i hate them to the core. Will i offend a lot of people if i talk about this? *ponders* BAH. This is MY blog right? So i have the rights to type this out. It's like, when i see good Christians (meaning Christian who shows a good testimony), i will like Christianity as a whole. But when i see Christians showing a bad testimony, i will get so angry (because it reminds me of the older generation of my previous church). And then, i would hate ALL Christians. Call me stereotyping. But ain't Christians used to stereotype? They Tell me again that Christians are different from people that's in the world. Tell me again that you don't group people. Tell me again that you see everyone equally? LIARS!!! *points finger and laugh hysterically* I know i will offend quite some people for these. Nevermind. I shall put a very cheem disclaimer in front later. I don't know how many people know this. But in actual fact, i don't hate God (if there's One up there.) I just cannot understand the people who chooses to carry the cross for Him. On second thoughts. I don't even know if there's a God up there. I don't even know if there's another higher being up there. I don't know if we look like ants to the big guy up there. Scarly the big guy up there treats us like how we treat the ants. Or bed bugs. Or fleas. PEOPLE. START TREATING BACTERIA AND VIRUSES WITH RESPECT!!! WE MIGHT BE THOSE IN THE BIG GUY'S EYES. To me, i am not sure about all those stuff. Even when i was a Christian. And i feel like i was worshipping the pastors instead of God. Anyway, i had this thought about heaven and hell. Heaven is just a nicer way of explaining death and vice versa for hell. So in other words, heaven is just hell with lots of nice fancy decoration. Taking away all the nice frilly sides, heaven is pretty much like hell. And that's what it is if there's even a heaven and hell. So if you want to experience hell. Just live on earth. If hell means eternal punishment, living on earth would be close to that too. Eternal punishment until you die. Till now, i have no idea on how should i view Christianity. I had seen too many ugly Christians to let myself even trust Christians. I saw the ugly scheming side of me when i was a Christian. I only changed for the better after i backslided. You wouldn't want to know how scheming i can be when i was a Christian. Even when you're in the realm of Christianity, it's still a dog eat dog world. Only the strongest will survive in their eyes. Tell me again that i'm following God and not pastors and leaders. LIARS!!! I had lost a few years being HELL. WHY AM I SO EMOTIONAL NOWADAYS. Nevermind. The cheerful Ching will soon be back. P/s: I've heard that we ain't going to eat in restaurants tomorrow. Father wants to da bao fast food and eat at reservoir there. WAHLAO. I don't feel good now. I hope Jie would recommend something better. =/ Saturday, May 10, 2008
Love?
I had broken up for like around 3 weeks time. And someone came about asking me for love advice.URMS. YOU WANT TO ASK ADVICE FROM SOMEONE WHO HAD BROKEN UP? But since it's about typical things. I guess i could still help in some ways. For girls are like this. *sigh* And i'm fine. My parents are good. They're alive. And i'm still breathing too. TEN MORE MINUTES TO MOTHER'S DAY!!! Listen. Can you ever? Let me rant first. Let me rant first. LET ME RANT FIRST. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. Damn. My anger is still here. Let me continue. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE HELL. Better now. I'm so pissed. My mother is blaming me for being cold towards her. Well. Is it my fault? Shouldn't i be pissed if you had accused me for so many things i didn't do? All the little nitty gritty things you once put on my name was still bearable because i wasn't at my weakest. But when i was at my weakest point, when i was so helpless, even you, MY PARENTS, didn't believed in me. Could you blame me for being hurt? Could you blame me for not being able to trust you as much as i could have? I always believed in you. I always put my faith in that no matter what happens, parents will always be there for me. Or to be there to trust me. At least that's what you had told me. But what about now? Being accused? Did you even bother to listen to my explanation? Did you even bother to think about what i'd said? Did it ever occur to you that i am a soul with feelings too? Did it ever occur to you that i am still a human who would fall sick? Did it ever occur to you that when someone is sick, they're naturally emotional? Did it ever occur to you that if you stab someone when she's being emotional, you would have hurt her more than ever? Did it occur to you that even if she didn't cry, her heart had been shattered? Did it ever occur to you that the little pieces of her heart was beating and hurting her but yet she couldn't tell anyone? Did it ever occur to you that behind that nonchalant face looking at you everyday is a bleeding heart? I guess, my parents had never noticed this. They chose to not believe. They chose not to. Given the freedom to choose and their choice had determine how i am supposed to face them. It's not me who wanted it this way. It's them who caused it. ----------------------- Anyway, i was being emotional just now. Before 'anon' or whoever it is to come to my blog and call me "illogical and incomprehensible", i better state this first. Well. How logical do you want me to be when i'm crying? In which i rarely do cry. Moving on. I was trying to come out with a new blogskin myself but i guess i failed. I did it half way and i got too lazy. That's why i've decided to just change the header for a little while until i get my lazy butt moving to continue editing. But in the mean time, let me scare all of you who clicks on my link. *grins* P/s: Tomorrow's Mother's Day. (: I feel like chewing I have itchy gums now. I want to chew something. Blah.Blah.Blah Great. Now Trist might have hated me. I really want to be his friend, but then he might think that i have ulterior motives. Damn. I really want to be his friend de leh. Saddedning. ): Anyway, i finally had more than my usual 7 hours of sleep. WOOOOSH!! I'd been awaiting for this ever since... urms.. like Monday? Now, i finally could. And i initially wanted to go out to shop either at Orchard or Bugis today. But first, my NETS card is still not with me. Second, i'm too lazy. Third, i'm tired of wearing contact lenses. My eyes seemed to be hating me lately. It'll hurt like hell once it's inside my eyes. But still, i refused to be seen without it. Oh yes!! I'd lost my iShuffle this time round. I think i seriously need to stop losing stuff. Although it's like $138 which might mean nothing to some of you. But my heart is still aching. Because i paid for it with my own freaking money. So was my digicam. And clothes. And almost everything else. Damn. Mum, gimme some money. Please? Anyway. Now to consider. Shall i get back a iShuffle or should i just save more money and get a iPod instead. I know that there's a lot of other mp3s outside which ain't Apple products. But i LOVE Apple mp3s. I've no idea why. I hate Macbook, but i LOVE iPods. Nevermind. Life will move on and decisions will be made. 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