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Saturday, June 28, 2008
I wonder...
Going to my friend's birthday BBQ later on. I wonder if they would still recognize me. The world had changed me so much. The difference of mine were so great.I've learnt to dye my hair. I've learnt to wear contacts. I've learnt to put on makeup. I've learn to draw eyeliner. I've learnt to dress. I've learnt to hide my flaws. I've learnt to pretend to be smiley while i'm crying so hard in my heart. I've learnt to seem alive on the outside, but yet dying on the inside. The world had taught me so many things. The church had let me learnt so many things. They taught me to pretend. They let me learnt how to harden my heart. They taught me that no man is good. They let me learnt that at the end of the day, i'm still alone. The world is round. What may seemed to be the ending is a beginning. But at the same time, a beginning like an ending. People told me that the early bird catches the worm. I replied them with the early worm get catches by the worm. Everyone has a right to be emotional. We're humans who can feel. We smile when we are glad. We laugh when we're happy. We cry when we're sad. We huddle ourselves when we're scared. We try to seek for a shoulder to lie upon. Someone who will be with us to share the joy, the tears, the success, the failures. All of us do have emotions. So what's wrong with being emotional. There's no right. There's no wrong. I'm scared. I'm freaked. I'm not afraid to say that out. The world had taught us that being weak is wrong. So everyone thought that being strong is the only correct option. Even if that means we have to pretend that out. I'm tired of it. I'm human. I've weaknesses. I can't be strong every single minute, every second. My knees buckle when i'm tired. My eyes close when i'm exhausted. My heart skips a beat when i see a HOT guy. Is there a reason for it? Yes and no. Yes, because we're humans, that's why we do this. No, because we're humans, so there's no explanation as to why we do this. I'm not a philosopher. And never will i be. I'm just someone who thinks a lot. I'm just someone who were categorized as an 'insecure freak'. But i don't mind. Because that proves that at least i still have my emotions. At least i'm still humane. Unlike those. |
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