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Tuesday, June 3, 2008
We're insecure. So?
Underneath that cheerful exterior is a insecure interior.Underneath that smile is a tear. Underneath that strong shell is a weak soul. I'm just another insecure freak. I'm just scared. Can't you get it? I can understand when people felt afraid, being insecure. Yes, we're insecured, but what's the big deal? It's a human right to be insecure. At least that proves that we have feelings. We can feel scared. We have the ability to feel insecure. At least that differentiate us from you. We are still human with feelings. I remember when Val felt afraid to just come in and go. I can literally feel the insecurities. When she's afraid to go and just register alone. To others, it might seem like 'just another small thing', but to me, for a minute i felt how she felt. The emptiness. The loneliness. I can literally feel it as if it was in me, that's why i offered to go with her. I just want to sooth her empty heart for a little. Just as a friend. Someone insignificant or so, but just at least for one minute, i want to sooth her insecurities. Because i felt it myself. The dark. The loneliness. The fear. It's just at the tip of my tongue. I know how it feels. I can feel how she felt. But who else can? Pool? Foosball? It can only freaking remind me of hogc. The place which had broke my fucking heart and use those shards of broken pieces and stabbed me with it. CAN YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL? Convince me? Persuade me? You didn't know what comes along with it. So shut your trap up. I will do what i want to do. But if i wouldn't, no matter what you can do, i wouldn't do it. Disciple me? Discipline me? FUCK. Who are you? Are you my leader? WAIT. I'm not even your sheep, why disciple? Why discipline me? Am i lost? Or are you. You never know. How do you know that the big guy up there is your God. Have you seen it? Prove it. You felt it? I can explain it scientifically to you. Trust me. Stop thinking you can come into my life. Unless you had seen it yourself, feel it yourself, died yourself, you would have never understand me. No matter how strong a word i can use to describe the events i had went through, it's not even a fraction of it. It's way more hurtful than that. That's why i had given up on trying to explain. I find it pointless trying to explain the pain when i can't find the words to explain it. We all have the rights to be afraid. What's the big deal about it? For we're all humans. |
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