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Sunday, August 31, 2008

Taggies replied here (:

Alright, i know i rarely reply tags in forms of entries. To be serious, i had never done it before because i see no purpose behind it. (Except to the spammer: Passerby/Passby)

Because mainly at times, i simply got too much to blabber about. I can post up to 5 or 6 entries in just a day. And so, it will be quite meaningless to have a post to answer people's tag if i'm going to have entries at that speed.

For no one would be able to read my replies in that way.

But somehow today, the up and down navigator of my tagboard seems to hate me. It's not letting me to move up and down. And so, i'm going to reply it here.

I know it's just 3, but hey!! The navigator hates me, alright?

[T]obi

GREAT!! On the desktop again? Even in the hols? Gosh. Get some decent sleep soon, man! I don't wish to see a dying guy hip-hoping for the performance. Take good care of yourself, alright? (*Psst* And how's Gaara lately? I mean the one in Naruto. What were YOU thinking? *wink wink*)

[A]pril

Lol. You were so dead right about it. If i can find the old bulletins which asks for 15 names and tons of questions below it, i'm so going to fill in all of their names. One by one. *cues evil laughter*

[K]isa

Oh gosh!! You worked at the IT fair too? It should end on 31st right? Urms, alright. Maybe not 'too' cause i didn't go there to work at all. Though i was supposed to... :X Heh.

Alright, let's skip this topic. And oh yes, don't worry about reading every single one of my entries. Some of them are darn boring (i can assure you. xD). Take more rest instead. Heh. You need those, especially since you're working and with school's starting soon. Arghs!!

And YEA. I realize by replying taggies here, i can type more. Without having to worry that i reach the word limit or it's too long in the little box over there.

This gives me an idea of replying taggies here.

Alright, i shall think about this tomorrow.

And guess what. Because i got this feeling that i would be out in the afternoon tomorrow, and so i wouldn't be posting from now till dinner time. That's why i'm safely typing the replies here.

So let's see, what am i going to get tomorrow.

I'm being a nice person (for an hour). Since i'm not suppose to say about anything, i shall keep mum. Until prolly tomorrow night? I hoping i can at least blog a TINNY WINNY BIT about it. But if i can't, i'll just put on my MSN nic. *winks*

And i want to get a beanie. I saw it at CWP and i'm practically drooling over it. But the thing is, i don't look good in caps. Darn!!! And it's not exactly going to be real cheap. Shucks.

But happy things follow. I'm going to get lunner (lunch + dinner) with April. I honestly hope it's Sakae, but with the cap, Sakae is a virtual impossible. I just wish i can have their endame peas. *licks lips*

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Totally freaked me out

I hate it when people off my lights when i'm bathing. It truly freaked me out.

And i have to bathe in total darkness. And when i mean total darkness, i mean i couldn't even see where is the shower creme, facial wash and towels are.

ARGHS.

And my MSN nic is totally true. I've people asking if i'm kidding or not, but i assure you, it's NOT.

If you ever have the chance to see my IC, you would understand why. Black hair, no makeup and spectacles. I honestly don't recognize my own IC.

And i had this name "Joycelyn" for less than a year. I think it's quite alright for me to not being used to it.

And yes, and i'm pissed by someone else's MSN nic. How is that even possible, you ask?

Let me tell you, it IS. And Haylie caught it. *grins*

Headache

I'm not sure why i keep on doing this. But i just felt like it.

1. The person who tag/pass you is?
NO ONE. (: [But i got this from Ryan though.]

2. Your relationship with him is?
A blog reader of his.

3. Your five impression of him/her?
[1] He doesn't look Chinese but has a Chinese name
[2] He has good posts!!
[3] He's a Republican (Alright, maybe this isn't an impression.)
[4] He has very tan skin
[5] He has nice eyes.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
NOTHING. Because i don't even know him personally.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
Silence. Cause he had never said anything to me before.

6. If he/she become your lover you will?
Wake up from my dream.

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
First, it's impossible. Second, i don't know him. So how would i know what's there to improve. HEH.

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will?
love him. Because i love my enemies, remember?

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
I did something wrong?

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
Urms. Finish his archives.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
Interesting blogger.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
Irritating. I guess.

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
The ones i don't hate.

14. On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are?
Heh. The ones i don't like.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
A nobody. For nobody's perfect. HEH.

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them :
Take good care, kkies?

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.
They are :
1. April
2. Haylie
3. Tobi
4. GL
5. Ben
6. CHING!!!
7. Hidayana
8. Thea
9. Wei Yi
10. Marcus

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
Urms. ME!!

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
Not sure. Will check his/her IC someday soon. *laughs*

20. If number 7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Urms. I doubt so.

21. What is no.2 studying about?
Pharmaceutical Science

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
ARGHS!! Days ago. He's busy with performances.

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
Urms. Those Cantonese kind?

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
Urms. NOPE.

25. Will you woo no.3?
Nope.

26. How about number 7?
IMPOSSIBLE!!

27. Is no. 4 single?
Not sure. But think so.

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Low.

29. What's the hobby of no.10?
Not sure though. Not keen to find out either.

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
Not sure? For they never getting along before

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
RP

32. Talk something casually about no.1?
April? She's cool!!

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
YES!! Everyday in my life.

34. Where does no.9 live at?
Urms. I'm guessing in the East?

35. What colour does no.4 like?
Ehhs. Red? I think.

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
HA. They can try though.

37. is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
Hmm. DPDP.

38. What is no.6 doing now?
Slouching on the couch watching TV with a lappie on her tummy. HEH.

NAME 7 THINGS THAT MUST ALWAYS BE IN YOUR SCHOOL BAG:
1. Lappie
2. Lappie charger
3. Wallet
4. Handphone
5. Keys
6. mp3
7. Mouse

Name 3 things you do when you’re really stressed:
1. Blog
2. On music REAL LOUD!!
3. Hug knees, sit on bed and STONE.

Name 5 favorite fruits:
1. Watermelon
2. DURIAN
3. Grapes
4. Strawberries
5. Mango

What are you thinking about right now?
:: Can it not be so stinky right now?

Where is your phone?
:: In the room

Where do you sleep?
:: On my bed which is in my room?

Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing now?
:: Not sure.

What was the last thing you ate?
:: Dinner. Herbal chicken, yam ring, veggies, rice and satay bee hoon. *licks lips*

What is the closest item near you that is white?
:: magazine

What is the last movie you watched?
:: Journey to the center

1. Are you photo addict?
:: At times.

2. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
:: Sleeping and not caring about anything.

3. Do you care for your Friendster?
:: Not really. Just the bulletins.

4. How many different beverages have you drank since yesterday?
:: Water, yakult, water.

5. What are three things you hate?
1. The stench
2. My heart and emotions
3. My procrastination

6. What do you wish for?
:: All my wishes to come true.

7. When was the last time you got really hurt?
:: Everyday when i see him online?

8. Any plans for tonight?
:: TV!!

9. Something you are excited about?
:: Nothing at all.

10. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?
:: Cookies n cream + Mango sorbet.

11. Describe your keychains?
:: I only have one and it's from HK. ("V") my Jie.

12. Do you know anyone in prison?
:: I once do. But he's out now.

If so, who?
:: My uncle?

13. Party girl/boy or Home girl/boy?
:: Home. I rather stay at home and SLEEP.

14. Have you ever gotten naked at a party?!
:: NOPE.

15. Name someone you miss.
:: I-a.m-n.o.t-s.a.y.i.n.g-i.t-h.e.r.e.

P/s: I think i'm going to die from too much smoke. I can't even breathe anymore. And it's giving me this terrible headache. Now, i'm so utterly annoyed by it.

ARGHS!

Ha.ha. ha. HA

I'm very much irritated and guilty at the same time. By two entirely different things.

Arghs.

And i watched [Shear Genius] a few days ago and i saw what this man said.

Man: I'm a gay and i had a crush on woman. Go figure.

HA. HA. HA. HA!!

And yes. If i ignore you on MSN, catch the hint. Grrs!! (And no, i'm not irritated or guilty over MSN people.)

Whatever

Alright, remember the entry i posted yesterday about the age-long question? There's suppose to be a continuation to it.

But it's so damn long that i couldn't be bother to continue. It's supposed to be a love story involving the guy letting the doc drive the car with the old man to the hospital. Then he walked home with the girl.

Then he fell sick, because of staying too much in the rain. Because of his previous illness, there's a lot of complications. And the doc couldn't save him and he will slowly die.

One day, he asked to be let out to walk around the hospital. The doctor agreed, but it was just for half an hour. (He was still weak.) He walked about the streets and saw a record store. He saw the girl he liked working there. And went in. He stood there pretending to look at the albums for a long time, in actual fact, he was just in hoping to see if the girl would recognize him.

When it was time for him to go back to the hospital, he grabbed a random album off the shelf and went to the counter. The girl had long recognize him and tried to make small talk with him. But the guy was shy and the girl just went to the back to wrap his album for him.

And the guy took his album and went back to the hospital. He never opened the album. He laid on his bed thinking about the girl. The next day came, and he begged the doc to let him out again.

He did that everyday and the albums in his room piled up. All unopened.

Until one day, he was so weak that he couldn't even get out of his bed anymore. Day by day, both of them missed each other. Until the guy died. The mother saw him and the unopened albums and went forward to unwrap one of it. A slip of paper fell out. It's a note from the girl. "Hey, i like this album too. I can introduce you to another album if you want. And this is my number. XOXO."

His mother called her number and asked the girl to come and take a last look at the guy. The girl came and stood there silently. And she saw the unopened albums and walked towards it to open them one by one. Pieces of notes fell out. "Hey, you look pretty pale today. Are you alright? XOXO" "Are you free? We can go out together some day. Call me. XOXO"

Tears rolled down as she read the notes. Feelings for each other are never known. Ever.

OMIGOSH. Did i just let the cat of the bag? I think i just did. I honestly didn't want to post about it anymore. *scratches chin*

Anyway, i know i have stuff to do. But i can't help but to do random stuff. It's just the temptation. And now, it's the temptation of bulletins. I have LOADS of them. So i will be random throwing. Heh.

Name 20 people whom you can think right now.
Don’t read the questions until you named the 20 people.

[1] Pril
[2] Tobi
[3] Haylie
[4] GL
[5] Jeff
[6] Ben
[7] HH
[8] Roy (DAMN) [I shall keep this here. *winks*]
[9] Wei Jie
[10] Wei Min [Someone stop me from writing any more of their names here, please?]
[11] Xuan
[12] Baron
[13] Raido
[14] Tooru
[15] Wataru
[16] Kamijo
[17] Xiu
[18] Heart-chan
[19] Wei Yi
[20] Marcus [I shall not write why, but same reason as Pril. *grins*]

where did you meet no. 14?
It was totally random. *wink wink*

what will you do if you never meet no. 1?
I would definitely not be me anymore.

what if no. 9 & no. 20 dated?
HA in their face. But i seriously do want to see that happening. HA!

will no. 6 & no. 17 date?
Urms. Ben and Xiu? I pity Xiu for he would be left alone cause April might kill Ben.

describe no. 3.
She's a Malay who looks SO much like a Chinese.

describe no. 7:
Well, i would say he looks like an AH beng at the first look. And so is the second. He's seriously an AH beng inside out (even smokes, arghs!!), but he's still an EMOtart, but he's always so nice to provide me songs. (He likes both JRock and Dance. Cool or WHAT?)

do you know any of no.12’s family?
I know about his late father *mourns*

what will you do if no.18 confess to you that he/she likes you?
OMIGOD!! A dog confessing? Sheesh.

what language does no.15 speak ?
Basic Engrish and Japanese.

how old is no.16?
Very old.

when is the last time you spoke to no.13?
Okay. I want to, but i can't speak woof language.

who is no.2 favorite band or singer?
To my knowledge, it's pussycat dolls. Not too sure thou. :X

would you date no 4?
ARGHS!! No.

would you ever date no. 1?
We dated umpteen times... AS A FRIEND. Duh?

is no. 19 single?
Hmm. No idea, maybe i'll ask him someday.

would you ever be in a relationship with no.11?
I want!! But he's not very rich. Or shuai. DAMN!!

where does no. 6 live?
AMK.

what is your favourite thing about no.5?
He's funny. Joker!! (Why so serious?) And he's a try-to-look-nerd-BENG.

have you seen no. 2 naked?
Yikes!! NO!!

what is no.8's nickname ?
Weak Fish. (Nothing suits him as good as that, right?)

This is a TRUE HEART SURVEY.
Answer all question truthfully if not you something will happen!

Q1: What's your zodiac ?
A: Capricorn!!

Q2: Do you believe in love at first sight?
A: Sometimes yes, but most of the time. NO.

Q3: Does any of your ex(s) still contact with you?
A: Yes, but i rather not thou.

Q4: Do you think your a good bf/gf?
A: Sometimes maybe, most of the time, nope.

Q5: Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
A: Not really.

Q6: Have u ever liked anyone else's bf/gf?
A: No. Wouldn't. EVER.

Q7: Thinking of anyone right now ?
A: Yep

Q8: What would you like to say to that person on your mind?
A: I don't really care much about you. Seriously. (I'm trying so hard to tell myself that.)

Q9: Have you ever broken someone else heart?
A: Yes, for sure Dada's and Momo's.

Q10: Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
A: I told my heart to prepare for breakage everytime i like someone.

Q11: Do you prefer to be single or in a relationship?
A: It depends.

Q12: How do you feel right now ?
A: Confused

Q13: Have you told anyone you'd marry them?
A: Yes, but i lied.

Q14: Total contact in msn ?
A: Not much. Around 98?

Q15: How many online ?
A: 17. Gosh.

Q16: Often chat with those online people ?
A: Nope. Deleted and blocked. HEH.

Q17: How many groups you've created ?
A: 8~

Q18: Prefer China or Malaysia ?
A: Neither. Japan and Taiwan. HEH.

Q19: What you gonna do on 11/09/08?
A: SCHOOL? Arghs.

Q20: What hp line your using ?
A: Starhub

Q21: What brand ?
A: Sony erricson

Q22: Do you have blog ?
A: Duh? Where are you reading from now?

Q23: Spammer spamming ?
A: Stupid people with IQ lower than a retard

Q24: Who love you the most ?
A: Dada and Momo

Q25: how would you know ?
A: Cause they're my PARENTS?

Q26: Star / Heart ?
A: Heart. (Cause Heart-chan looks so damn cute.)

P/s: If you know me in real life, you would have known that i love to say 'Whatever' lately. *grins*

Who would you choose

How many of you know this old age question?

In was a dark, rainy night. You were alone in your comfy two-seater car and were glad to be out of that damn rain.

You were driving along a quiet road and you saw some people at the roadside. You pulled over and saw a old man lying there on the ground.

There's a man in his forties and a girl in her twenties looking at the old man. Out of concern, you got out of the car and you recognize the girl immediately.

Of course you recognize her. How can you ever forget a girl whom you had a crush on for the last five years, ever since collage.

You see worry in the girl's eyes and so much wanted to take those away, and while you were gazing into her eyes, the man in the forties spoke.

From his voice, you found him familiar too. "Quick, you need to send this old man to the hospital as soon as possible. If not, he might survive throughout the night, with or without this rain."

The girl chimed in too, "Yes, we had tried calling for cabs but none were free."

"Dan, is that you?" The man in the forties said and i snapped my head at him. One closer look and i knew who he was. The man that had saved me with his hands, i can never forget him. He continued, "Dan, stop staring into space. Quick, send him to the nearest hospital."

If you were Dan, who would you drive to the hospital?

The dying old man whom everyone wanted you to? The only choice that seemed right.

Or would you choose the doctor who had saved your life?

Or to give up all these politically correct answers and choose the girl you like, who was sneezing and shivering in the cold. To take this one last chance to drive her home and spend maybe the last half an hour with her.

Who would you choose?

Friday, August 29, 2008

Random

Did i promise?

Oh gosh. Someone at the back of my head just told me Yes.

Great.

But well, i'm still not going to do it. I'm not going to post any good entries because i have NOTHING to post about.

Liew, you think ideas just come just like that? (Actually, sometimes it does.)

But do you seriously think i'm that free. I've things to do apart from procrastination.

5 more days to sch reopening.

6 more days to submission

4 more days to death.

P/s: No worries. Still friends, alright?

Insecurity

Gosh. I'm feeling so dead insecure right now.

I had the weirdest dream ever. EVER.

First, i dreamt that i was living in a dead weird hostel with Haylie and another guy and there's so much strange things happening. Not ghostly encounters, but it was strange things happening with all the surroundings and the people.

I know i might not be blabbering sense right now but please bear with me. For i'm still in a very confused state of mind.

I also remember hitting against the wooden hostel door to be let in because there were some danger outside and i had mud on me. Mud were flying everywhere and i was knocking on the wooden door wanting to be let in. I need a safe place.

But the wooden door was too thick. The people inside couldn't hear my knocks. I had to change my plan. I risked dying by crossing over to another side of my hostel to knock on the glass panel. Finally, someone heard it and asked me to go over to the door where he would open it for me.

Once inside, i just want to take a long warm shower but i realize that the shower was in a very strange position. It has no doors, no partition, just curtains. And i almost can't bathe in it.

So is the fact that i wanted to go deep into sleep in my dream. But Haylie and another person in the hostel said i can't. Because some head from the department of the school is coming to come and check out what we're doing in the hostel.

Alright, then fast forward. I went back to my own home. And this is where the scary part comes in. It was so vivid that i freaked out.

I dreamt that Dada had a new wife. He betrayed Momo.

I was so freaking scared when i dreamt of it. The face of that lady was so real. She had a face. She had an identity in my dream. I could clearly remember her face and everything in the house. I felt lost, fear, confusion. How in the world would my Dada do that?

I got so insecure that i forced myself to wake up. Now with a heart that's beating so fast, i'm not sure what to expect next. I hope that would just be a dream and not reality.

Alright, going away from this. For i need to. I have to.

As i was saying, i was dead shag by the time i went offline yesterday. But i still couldn't sleep. I was tossing and turning and getting more pissed by myself as the minutes went past.

I just want to sleep but i can't.
ARGHS!!

And oh yes. Before any more people irritate me with my MSN nic. Let me explain.

THAT WAS JUST FREAKING LYRICS!!!

Freaking NO can you ease my pain. Arghs!!

Shagged.

Oh gosh. It had been a long time since i last thought of something interesting to blog about and i thought of using powerpoint to bring my point across. BUT i ~~didn't~~ couldn't get pass the first slide. I got distracted half way and never got back to do it.

So none of you shall know what funny thoughts i got in my head just now.

And instead of getting some better entries, you shall read the survey i'm going to do.

Alright, to see if people BOTHERS to read my blog, i shall tag a few people.

Tagger: April
Tagged: Haylie, Tobi, Ben and GL.

(Psst, this is so going to show me if you guys come to my blog daily. *wink wink* Also Ben and GL, this entry is so NOT hinting you guys that you need to do some updates soon. *smiles*)

001. Real name → Joycelyn

002. Nick name → Ching

003. Eye color → Urms. Are you referring to eye whites, eyeballs, irises or pupils? *grins*

004. Zodiac sign → Capricorn!!

005. Male or female → Female

006. Elementary → Chongfu *beams in pride*

007. High School → Yishun Town (Alright, i haven't went back to take my testimonial yet *frowns*)

008. College → Republic Poly

009. IQ → Higher than my EQ

010. Hair color → It has a number to it, but yes, blonde.

011. Long or short → Longer than yesterday, shorter than tomorrow.

012. Loud or Quiet → Loud when i'm supposed to be quiet, quiet when i'm supposed to be loud

013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans

014. Phone or Camera → Phone (for phone has the camera function too. *winks*)

015. Health Freak → Oh NO.

016. Drink or Smoke→ Fan of NONE.

017 Crush on someone → Oh so much.

018. Eat or Drink → Eat AND drink

020. Tattoos → Somehow, i find them STINKY.

021. Righty or lefty → I'm always right. *winks*

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing → NONE!!

024. First best friend → Stop me from blogging one whole entry about this here. *grins*

025. First award → Some best student thing. Can't remember exactly though.

026. First crush → MARCUS LIM EN-JIN. (Oh gosh. I remembered him after... ... 9 years.)

027. First pet → Fishy fish.

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating → ~~Baron~~ Bacon

050. Drinking → in music tunes

052. I'm about to → laugh in my own face.

053. Listening to → I don't know (Yes, [I don't know] is the track title.)

054. Plans for today → Blog. Go on cutting. Blog. Sleep.

055. Waiting for → My time to come.

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kid/s? → Yes, but not anytime soon.

059. Want to get married? → YES, at the end of this year. *winks*

060. Careers in mind → *looks at Xuan* DUH!! Do you still have to ask? Of course it's an album producer!!

WHICH IS BETTER for you?

068. Lips or eyes → Eyes.

070. Shorter or taller → TALLer. How can someone be shorter than me? (*wonders* OOPS, sorry Rody.)

072. Romantic or spontaneous? → Knows when to be either one

073. Nice stomach or arms → BOTH!

075. Hook-up or relationship? → Relationship.

077. Trouble maker or hesitant→ Neither.

HAVE YOU EVER:

079. Drank bubbles? → I'm not as insane as that

080. Lost glasses/contacts? → Almost. But nope.

081. Ran away from home? → Heys, i'm a guai gia, alright?

084. Broken someone's heart → I know for sure, i had broken dada and momo's. *regrets*

085. Been arrested → Nope.

087. Cried when someone died? → Yes. But i wasn't sure why did i try to force those tears out.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → I should

091. Love at first sight → Maybe, but those don't last.

092. Heaven → Not yet. Maybe when i fall in love DEEP ENOUGH, i might know

093. Santa clause → Yes, my DADA!!

094. Sex on the first date? → Never.

095. Is there one person you want to be with right now?→ YES!!

098. Are you seriously happy with your life right now? → It could be better, but i'm contented.

099. Do you believe in God → Well, isn't this the same as Q089? For i'm my own God. *grins*

Okay. I'm so not going to continue blogging for now. Because i had spent more than one hour watching Shimmy and i still am. I'm so going off to BlogTV again.

And yes, i was at BlogTV ever since 2.30AM. And it's 4.48AM now. I can't believe i had been watching him for 2 hours and counting. I really want to go off now for i'm tired. To add on, i barely had any sleep today and that's dead annoying. Cause i kept on waking up and not being able to go back into any decent sleep.

So i'm pretty much dead now and i totally have no idea what i'm typing cause i'm not looking at my blogging screen right now. My eyes are actually glued to the BlogTV's screen. (Don't ask how in the world i can manage that, but i just DID.)

GOSH. Shimmycocopuffsss watches Elfen Lied too. I'm happy. OKAY, actually, i'm not.

He's funny but i'm only laughing at half of his jokes. Which is not good because my brain's too shag to process what he just said. Maybe i would laugh about it tomorrow morning.

In the meantime, let me go watch a little more before hitting my covers.

Timecheck: 5.08AM

Thursday, August 28, 2008

I'm alive. NOT

Okays. I'm not blogging right now. Cause i just want to rant.

Rant about me spending $90 on stuff which i don't even know what i had spent on.

Gosh. I'm not that rich to start of with, and now?

Being broke is a choice. But i can't help being so damn broke. (:

I seriously had no idea what i spent on. Alright, maybe just on 3 eyeliners, 1 foundation and LOADS OF FOOD.

And to think i still feel to urge to eat Sakae. ARGHS!! I don't have much money now. How am i supposed to go out tomorrow?

But April had free tickets to Escape. So i should go right? Speaking of which, WHERE'S OUR SIX TICKETS FOR WILD WILD WET AND ESCAPE?

Alright, i shall stop here. And take my contacts out, makeup off and bathe!! Before cutting out more pieces of random tracks. *winks*

6 MORE DAYS TO SCH REOPENING

7 MORE DAYS TO SUBMISSION.

5 MORE DAYS TO DEATH!!

Brr

YAY!!

It's 2.52AM and i just bathed.

Brr. I totally hate sitting in front of a full-power fan.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Never be you nor anyone else

Alright, i had a MSN chat with Ben earlier in the afternoon and i honestly couldn't say i wasn't affected by it.

Even though he didn't tell me much but i thought through the entire issue and had a few thoughts in mind.

No one can replace anyone else. No matter who.

I might have joked yesterday that GL had replaced Jeff in F5, but to speak the truth, no one can replace anyone else.

May it be GL or Jeff, or simply anyone else. No one can replace or substitute anyone else. For we're all unique individuals. The things you had made us feel is special and can no one else can stand in your place.

Maybe ten more years down the road, someone else might have done something similar to you, said something close to what you had said, made us feel like how you once did. And that would have reminded us of you. But still, no matter how close he might be of you, he will never be you.

Through that person we might see you, but deep down we will always know, he will never be you. Because you're an unique individual that had a special place in all of our hearts. You are part of our clique and always will be.

No one can stand in your place because they can never be you.

Though i have no freaking idea what happened, but i just feel like saying,

"Don't be angry anymore, alright? I'm sorry for making you feel left out. I apologize for not asking you. Still F5 right?"

And the morale of the story? Get Jeff's cellphone number ASAP!!

Im tired. Sorry for messy entry

Finally!! I'm done with uploading of pictures. I'm not sure how many pictures i had uploaded, but i've got this feeling that this could be one of the excessive pictures (and words) post.

Anyway, let me boast first. Because it would defeat my purpose of boasting if i put it at the back and i lost all of your interest in the middle.

And i'm too tired to post any interesting entries. So sorry, but please make do with whatever i have. *smiles* (read: this will be a long and boring entry.)

ALRIGHT!! BOASTING TIME!!

Somehow, for some weird reasons, the first time i saw this grade, i didn't feel any joy at all. Prolly it's because Baron ain't here to praise me for it. :X

Okay, i was just kidding about the Baron part. But it was true about the no-feeling-while-seeing-GPA-of-3.8 part.

But anyway, i'm still quite glad, because ALL my predicted grades except computing was initially B+ only. So i guess that being able to get these grades are considered not too bad already.

AND now i have one new thing to boast about. Who cares about having a L1B4 of 11 points at O levels? Now i have GPA of 3.8 for the first semester in poly to boast about.

COOOL or what?

Alright. End of boasting time. It's high time to start blogging about today.

And just to show everyone what am i seeing day in and out.

Lappie and phone's wallpaper. Nice right? JUST SAY YES.

And i'm totally irritated by my own foundation. I was unpacking my stuff for the chalet when i dropped my entire box on the floor. And when i picked it up, my entire foundation cracked.

ALL of it, GONE.

But i bought a new one today. I'm not sure if it's good, but let's just try it out.

And i wore my shoes today. It had been a long time since i wore them. (For i normally wear slippers.)

And there's a reason behind wearing of shoes. I obviously want to play DDR. *winks*

And since this is my blog. What you shall see is all ME, ME and ME!!

While i'm waiting for the bus

And while i'm ON it

When i'm waiting for the train

And when i'm ON the train.

Is this the actions which defines a cam-whorer? *grins*

Alright, the truth is, i'm ultimately bored on the train. For i had absolutely nothing to do.

And oh yes, i'm sorry Haylie for making you wait for me for half an hour at Borders. And sorry GL for making you wait for us for 45mins at Downtown East. *awkward smile*

The 5 of us (not F5) had a smashing day at the arcade. But obviously i didn't take any pictures for i saw someone that i didn't really like there.

But there's pictures for the rest of our day.

We went for bowling after our subway lunch/dinner. Okay, to be precise, it's Tobi, Haylie and Ben who were bowling. GL and i were just sitting there rotting. (Oh yes, because the 2 of us can't bowl at all.)

So what else can i do while they're bowling? CAM-whore, duh? I literally drained all of my camera juices today. :X

And what fun can there be when you're just snapping pictures of your own. Of course you need to do it with your friends.

Our star player: Tobi (aka my best cam-whorer friend)

This was supposed to be taken with me and Haylie. But then the guys made me laugh and my hand shook. Explaining this effecty failed picture.

Okay. Here's the successful one.

And the player whom was the first (and prolly the only one i would see) who kept throwing his bowling bowl on the floor to test the weight.

He said his face was too big and want a new one.

And so he took this evil looking one.

And me and my first friend in E36C. GL!!!

Yes. He asked me not to post this up. So all of you pretend not to see this alright?

And him rocking the drumset. I did not see him play much today but i heard he passed the Advance stage of breakdown (which is a very hard song by the way).

I missed the chance of seeing him play because i was Para-ing all the way. I wanted to wash the scoreboard (meaning having all the top 10 as my name), but when i got all the top 8 to be mine, someone else came and took my machine away
):

So i only had 8 names out of the 10 positions. But looking at the brighter side, it was the top 8. *grins*

And after that, we realized that we hadn't touch a neoprint machine for ages. And all of us squeezed into the tiny booth and took our pictures.

All the while before we squeezed into the booth, GL was on top of Ben. :X

GOSH!! Sounds so wrong.

Anyway, i like the ones we had taken today.

Click on picture to enlarge.

My fave #1: Ghostly encounter. (I've no idea why those 2 jokers in front were acting cute and smiley)

And though i wrote F5 there, this ain't our 'original' cliquables. F5 is made up of Haylie, Frez, me, Ben and Jeff. But Jeff ain't there, so GL took his place. *grins*

Anyway, my fave #2: Acting cutsey. (I like how my eyes look here. The eyeliner seems so visible.)

And after our neoprints, we went to wash a copy for each adn everyone of us at the photo store. It was $4 per copy. EX but worth it. For the memories can never amount to any form of finance.

After that, we went to MCD to slack. And we sat there until around 10.30pm when we finally realize that it wasn't early anymore and i'm still at the East area (in which i live in the North.)

But in between that, we were talking about Halloween. And when Frez suggested that we have our own Halloween party, i was pretty much interested about it. Because i had never celebrate Halloween before, much less been to one.

So they were talking while i suddenly asked, "Do we have to dress up?" Frez answered with a DUH face and i grinned to myself while announcing. "OKAY, i've a costume in mind already."

Frez went stoned for 2 seconds and was like, "Ching, that was fast? We were like talking about it less than 5 seconds ago and POOF, now you have a costume in mind already?"

DUH? As a vampire lover, how can i not have any ideas in mind. *grins*

And after that, somehow we suddenly talked about drums and i gave my drumsticks out to Ben. ):

And it's not the one that belongs to Wei Jie. It's the one I bought. But i gave it away because it's a beginner set and it's intended for girls. The one i kept at home (aka WJ's pair) was a more amateur set and is more suited for guys. As in because it's heavier.

My last photo with my drumsticks. Goodbye my love, wo de ~~ji tui~~ drumsticks.

Ben, ni yao hao hao zhao gu ta, zhi dao ma? And GL, stop promoting Tobi's phone.

Okay, if you'd realized, i was just talking about the photos and not about my day. It's not because i'm lazy, it's just because i'm lazy. :X

Anyway, as promised, i finally found some chalet photos. It seems that none of my friends had posted their photos up (other than Haylie), and the main bulk of the photos are with Frez. So if his is still not up yet, i couldn't really post anything much about it.

But after a long scrapping through my phone's album, i finally found 3 photos taken during the class chalet.

I didn't dare to take too much in case i don't have enough battery to last me for FOUR days.

My typical hair shot.

I've no idea who took this using my phone. And i totally couldn't recognize who is who other than myself (because of my hair color.)

And our pukey guy eating his cup noodles. No, it wasn't suppose to be candid. He posed for it.

And moving on to random pictures of me in Frez's phone.

Me with Grace. Now you see my clipped up bangs in class.

And a photo taken gadzillion years ago with his phone. And i totally didn't have any recollection of it until Frez assured me that it was really me cam-whoring with his phone. (Told ya he was my best cam-whore buddy.)

Note, my hair was still black then and the necklace was still intact at that point of time.

Okay! RANTING TIME. I promise this will be short, for i had yakked for quite some time already.

We were at the arcade when i saw someone inside the cashier booth.

Me: Fuck!!
GL: *stun* What happened? Why suddenly say fuck?
Me: ARGHS!! You remember last time, at my blog, there's someone who scolded you a fucker?
GL: Yea, why?
Me: See that blonde hair guy? He's the friend of the one that scolded you.
GL: Har? Really ar?
Me: Alright, they aren't really friends anymore. The last time i've heard from him, they had went separate ways already.

And then we went on playing arcade while i was trying very hard not to be mindful about him. But at the back of my head, i kept on wondering what was he doing in the cashier booth. He's apparently not a worker there(for he's wearing his own casual punk wear)

Me: I'm so pissed. Utterly pissed.
Frez: Why, what happened?
Me: Turn your head to your right and see the blonde guy over there
Frez: -.-" CHING, stop your obsess...
Me: I hate him.
Frez: You know him?
Me: DUH?
Frez: Oh gosh.
Me: Okay. I'm pissed.

Alright, i have no reason to be angry at Masu/Shino/Shiro or whatever his name is (and i simply can't get his name right, no matter how), but the fact that...

ARGHS!!!

It's just pissy lurs.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Smiling, i am

Oh no. I'm seriously not going to laugh at you.

I just feel like laughing at myself for feeling the joy by just staring at your picture.

But it's just that this joy is so short-lived.

Knowing that you're so near by my side, but yet also knowing that you can never be mine.

You're so close to me, it's seems that i can literally touch you with outstretched hands. But then again, you're so far. For your eyes will never lay on me. You never seem to notice me. Notice that i'm always behind you, supporting you.

I'm never in front of you. For i don't wish to run ahead of you. Neither am i beside you, because i want to catch you when you fall.

It looks like i am never there for you when you have all your glamor and fame, slumps and pits. It's not that i had left you, but because i know that you need me more than ever to be behind you right now. The higher one climbs on a ladder, the harder the impact one will get if he miss a footing. That's why i'm not in front of you nor beside you. But behind you catching you if you fall. Giving you a push when you need it.

I don't need recognition. Not even your love. Knowing that i was part of your life was good enough. I'm contented just by having you crossing my path.

This is what i have. And most probably this is all i am ever going to have with you. But i just want to hold on to it and one day, be able to look back and not laugh at myself ever more.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Totally don't feel like blogging

Okay, i just don't feel comfy. You know the feeling where you just want to sit in a corner and scratch yourself?

Anyway, when i go into my Multiply site not too long ago, i just saw this link that caught my eye.

Actually i'd known this for quite some time already. But it's just that i didn't take any screen shots of it. And when i finally did, he changed his display name. ):

His posts are normally short and sweet. Unlike mine. ):

I had no idea until not too long ago that this Shaggy is our senior Shaggy.

And i'm listening to the Superband right now and i totally regretted it. The Zha Ba Lang... *shakes head*

I totally can't believe that i'm listening to it.

BUT after this commercial, it'll be Yi Shi Jie's turn to perform. Finally... FINALLY i can catch YSJ's performance. I totally didn't have much chances to hear them.

Anyway, TOMORROW'S PLANS.

Where: Downtown & Wheellock
Who: Me, Haylie, Frez, GL (HH & Jeff, maybe?)
When: 2pm, E-hub
Why: Temptation
What: Get HIGH
How: By playing arcade and shopping

Alright, YSJ is playing a song that i always played on RF5. But i thought it wasn't that good. Prolly because they're a rock band but yet this week's theme is dance. That could be the reason explaining their performance.

But i still thought that the B-box were smashing. Their hair is awesome. Their accessories and costumes are so VK that it's almost droolable. And i love what they said. (Totally remind me of aChord.)

我們是個搖滾樂團。我們只會搖，只會滾，就是不會跳舞。

aChord did say something close to it before. Though he didn't mention about the dancing part, but he did say something about the 搖ing and 滾ing part. *smiles*

AND oh yes. Remember the previous time when i said that AnDyStorm is the cutest with geeky spectacles. Now there is one new guy that i thought looks awesome with geeky specs.

WELCOME THE SIZZLING HOT BARON!!!

No, i'm not showing his picture. You can look at my MSN display picture to know who i'm referring to.

Alright, actually Baron ain't hot at all. But he has a nice personality. I fell in love with his character not his looks, alright?

And NO. I like him more when he doesn't has his geeky specs. On second thoughts, i don't like geeky specs at all. Oh WAIT, to be precise, i hate specs in the first place. *grins*

Ashy

Someone, please slap me.

No, anyone will do fine. It doesn't have to be him and him alone.

I suddenly feel like i'm so going to waste my money once again because i saw a new color series i like and guess what, i want it on my hair.

Please stop me from tweaking my hair. Before all of them threatens to fall out.

Now i'm thinking. Should i get it BEFORE school reopens or during the semester break. I'm considering to do it at the next sem break for i just dyed it not too long ago. But i'm starting to hate my hair more and more as each day passes by.

Either i'm going to add copper to it soon, no bleaching for me though, or i'm going ashy. I saw this tasty color on the color board that i want it so much but i doubt it would look good on my hair.

FINE.

I'm going there next monday!! What i have in mind right now is colors very close to earth. I'm going back to the ZEN. *Ohmmmmm*

Alright, maybe not Zen as in ZE ZEN.

But more of my original tone colors now. I'm thinking of pretty dark ashy brown with ashy grey highlights.

YES, i fell in love with the ashy series. But i got this feeling that it might look greater on guys. But anyway, i'm going to go down and look at the new colors soon. YAY!!

Whoever is going down to downtown east tomorrow (i'm hoping at least the entire F5 can go out together, if not at least some time else to watch Wall.E with me at Cathy.)

No idea why, but i fell like going to watch at Cathy. *hits forehead* My current financial status needs planning. Not much reserves left. YIKES.

Anyway, i know the 4 of us is going to go down tomorrow. But then again, what time and meet where?

I have no freaking idea.

P/s: Bye bye idea of having black plus pink highlights. BYE!! For the ashy series is in place. *grins*

wink wink

Arghs, i let the cat out of the bag. I thought what Haylie meant in the tagboard is that she knows who is the guy that said the innocent [No problem] to me. And i was wondering how in the world will she ever know it. But it actually turn out the fact that she meant that she knew who Baron is.

Ahhhs.

I hate whatever guilt conscience led me to do. Now she knows who i was referring to.

But it's quite alright though. Since i know her little things with her guy too. *grins sheepishly*

Anyway, i'm seriously not supposed to be awake now. For i had barely had half of my normal sleeping time. But million thanks to April who bothered to come up to my house while i'm still asleep to quietly slip the game into my house through the window. (And no, it's totally without sarcasm.)

THANKS APRIL!!!

And so, the next post coming up would be about what she slipped to me and the scandal family i've decided to come up with *grins*

But it'll be a short update for i'm going to play the game April slipped into the window for me.

And oh yes, ever since i woke up with the tune [I'm in heaven (when you kiss me)], today's another day. I woke up with the song [Pi Li Pa La]. And what's the scary thing? It was a damn fast rap and i can have all the lyrics in my head. Even the 'Ahahahaha' part.

Brr, scary.

Anyway, i'm almost done installing. Now i need to go find cheatcodes for my game.

Till next time peeps!!!

P/s: And this can only mean one thing. I'm not going out anymore. *winks*

Grins

Alright, now i'm feeling better. Still insecure, but at least more at ease. (Hey, there's some rhyming here.)

Anyway, it's times like these which makes me feel the urge to blog about Baron. To be honest, ever since i change my MSN nic to [Ching wants Baron], i feel like making known to the world about how much i want Baron.

But i can't.

Because i don't want any other people to know who he exactly is.

Just like how no one would know who said this to me.

Me: Thanks ar.
Him: No problem

Sounds innocent?

Yes, it definitely is. But it is whom who had said it makes me feel happy just by thinking back about it.

And no one shall know who is Baron and neither will anyone know who said the innocent 'No problem' to me.

P/s: I broke my foundation powder and eyeliner stick. I got this feeling that i'm committing suicide over here. Without foundation and eyeliner, i'm totally in no shape to go out.

Alright, i take back my words. For cliquables had seen me without either during chalet. I'm so glad that they didn't died from shock when they saw me without any makeup on and also that the fact that they are still contacting me.

Namely speaking: Haylie, Frez, Jeff, HH and GL.

Note that Ben is not in here. Cause he DID comment about me without eyeliner. So did Alia and Surayah.

Total sadness ):

And for the rest who didn't say anything, don't think i don't know. You were all laughing at me inside yourself. And so did my clique for sure.

But at least they didn't shun me and kept in contact with me. *grins*

I totally need at least my foundation and eyeliner when i go out. Either that, or you need to be really close to me to see me without either. (And no, i didn't mean close as in distance wise. But that will work too, for my momo and dada always see me without them.)

Anyway, without my foundation and eyeliner, i'm thinking how am i supposed to go out for the next few days.

Should i go out tomorrow and get some? But income wise, my money is dropping way below my standards and i'm still not allowed to touch my NETS card, so that's one major problem.

And if i'm going out tomorrow, will i have enough money for Tuesday?

All these needs detailed planning. Tsk.