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Monday, September 1, 2008

Pathetic

I'm not sure if anyone realized, but i do post a lot of his MSN conversations.

To be honest, no one annoys me like he does.

Most of the time, if i can kill him, i WILL. With my bare hands alright. But i've realized it too, if i kill him, he will die easy and i have to go to jail.

And he's sort of my team mate... If that team still exists.

ANYWAY, that's a little off the topic.

Though i'm glad that he reads my blog, therefore explaining his sentences to me, but i thought it was pretty ironic to reply my blog entries to me via MSN.

Because firstly, my blog is essentially a place for my thoughts and feelings. I blog about what comes into my mind on the bus, on the train, before i sleep, while i slept, after i woke up, when i was being irritated by people. I blog about those thoughts alright.

BUT there are always times i saw good sentences online, on TV, in lyrics, in anime, and other stuff like those. Then i thought i really like them and want to keep them in memories, so i would have them on my blog.

And at other times, i love my warped and weird sense of humor and i kid on my own blog. I'm not sure why, but people love to take the things which i wrote THAT IS MEANT AS A JOKE against me. Sometimes i wonder why, but most of the times, i treat them as people being stupid and no, not a retard.

Because retard means you're born stupid. Where being stupid is that... You're being stupid.

You can't do anything when you're born stupid, you can't control it. But if you're being stupid, it means, you're just dumb.

Alright, so you're asking what has all these chunks of words link to the MSN conversation? Till now, not yet. I'm still blabbering. And to think i just want to type a short one, cause i still want to reply tags and post a survey bulletin.

Okay, so back to topic. Let's see what he had wrote to me. For i kind of forgot about it. And yes, i apparently did not reply him in MSN because i seriously can't be bothered to.

I agree on the part, living for myself and dying for myself. It's always a truth that i take. Because whatever i do, i do for myself. Not for the eyes of people, even my parents. I love them, and YES, i love them very dearly. But i don't want to let others take control of my life. Ever since hogc stuff, i expect that's what i learned from it. Taking control of my own destiny, taking charge of my own life. It's MY life and no one else but me should be the master of it.

BUT however, if you can't trust anyone, that's simply pathetic. I guess this is just a phase of life where everyone went through it. To be honest, i expect almost everyone to have this thinking in a part of their life, or a few for some. And when i say that, it's apparent that i've went through it before. You don't want to know how much i was against humans before. You don't even have to mention trust. I wouldn't even want to look at them straight in their eyes. It simply disgusts me out. I'm not sure what's your reason for not being able to trust people, and i seriously don't really want to know. There are things that need to be learnt by yourself. And i am so tired of doing integration that i honestly didn't want to care about it anymore. I expect that this is just a phase of life that you have right now and i seriously hope that you can grow out of it soon. I don't wish to tell you anything much for i insist, there are things which you will never know unless you've experienced it for yourself. But mark my words, those who can't learn to trust are pathetic.

And yes, i agree with myself, that i am still such a pathetic soul at times and i so much want to grow out of this.