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Monday, August 31, 2009

They disgusts me so completely

What a day. Saw Chris, Matt AND Wenqi all in the span of one day.

But honestly, Chris didn't recognize me at all in the single bit. I was looking at him and he kept his eye contact with me for at least three seconds but i see no sign of recognition in it at all. I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not but i do like that.

Then saw Matt and Wenqi at the bus interchange after dinner. Xin Wang's pork chop wasn't as nice as compared to the last time i went there. BOO!!! And Gary initially had as much cash as me in the account but all of a sudden, it went rocket high. DOUBLE BOO!!!

I wanna steal his card and pin number!!! But he's keeping me away from both of them. *pouts*

Anyways, somehow or other, Gary started to ask what started my hatred towards them.

I really can't say it. Hell no am i trying to protect their reputation. They had did nothing for me to prove that they deserve it (explains a lot about all the bad stuff about them that were circulating huh?).

But it's not that i don't want to say but i really don't know how to. (And i can write an entire new entry about that... but not now) Unless you give me one long shower to let me think.

I love showers. And that's what you should know.

If i'm going to talk about the politics, the bitching/backstabbing/eye-roll-worthy-childish-and-not-childlike-stuff/blah blah blah... then it's actually nothing. This is what we see everyday in the society. It's reality and i know it well enough.

That shouldn't be a problem but...

I was thinking if it started off with Weimin. I mean, she's a total bitch and everything but i met my own fair share of bitches in my life but it would just contribute to my annoyance about her, not hatred towards them.

And so i wondered again.

Then i realized, it was my arrogance. My arrogance that i put my faith in Weijie for the fact that i trusted him to believe in me.

Don't ask how wrong i was. Me being able to trust him? Or him trusting me? Pack of lies (or at least how i feel when i'm thinking back).

-sidenote: listening to Lian Ai Da Ren while typing this totally ruins the mood-

Honestly, if he walks his talk, then he would at least believe that i'm not lying. Alright, maybe he didn't thought i lied but at least he wouldn't blatantly dismiss my side of the story, right?

Asking if i was sexually abused before? I don't know but somehow i feel like i should be feeling insulted. And i actually forgot about how Roy told me that Weimin's mom actually poured soya sauce on the floor at night and Weimin has to clean it up.

It was April who reminded me when she called me just now. Oh yes, we were talking about church in the latter part of our conversation.

I don't get it. Singling me out and talking to me. It's called 'talking to me' in a nice way, but honestly, how do i feel then? I felt that it was just plainaccusation against me. They had an agenda. And the agenda was to tell me that i am in the wrong despite whatever i said or did not say and that everything is my fault.

I'm not sensitive enough to a girl who has to clean up soya sauce in the night.

Outrageous theory? Trust me, that was their key stand for the night. They talked to me till like 1am plus? Pure insanity much?

Anyways, that's some eye-roll-worthy issue to me.

That was a start.

As i was telling April, it's like a piece of glass. When it's fine and clear of scratches, the glass could withstand any amount of stones hitting against it. But if there is a little crack on the glass, with the same amount of stones, the glass would bound to shatter.

Because of my arrogance that Weijie would have at least a slight degree of trust in me and the fact that he didn't (and oh, if you must know, i don't trust anyone easily. And because of him, it became worse now) crushed me. Disappointment is an understatement.

Of course. I felt humiliated. Why? I had faith in him and my trust was thrown away like a pile of trash. Total humiliation. Betrayal? Not really. Although i do admit i felt a slightly so but that is not enough for me to hate someone so completely. Humiliation does. Agree?

Anyways, after the mistrust incident, it was like a crack in the glass. When politics come, when underhanded means appear, it's like stones. Cracking me into more and more little pieces. To the point, i totally broke.

I sometimes do amaze people with my level of able to sustain my plasticity. But with them, they exceeded my level. It came to the point where i can't even be plastic with them. Yes, that bad.

Like what i saw somewhere on FB before:

Sometimes, it's not the absurd truth behind Christianity that repels. It's the absurd behavior and attitude the UnChristians who claim to be Christians display.

There is a couple of things in there.

ONE: By saying 'it's not the absurd truth behind Christianity that repels', it means that Christianity has absurd truth.

But 'absurd' according to Encarta means: ludicrous AKA ridiculous because of being irrational, incongruous, or illogical OR meaningless.

And 'truth' means something factual OR something generally believed OR descriptive accuracy.

So with that, 'absurd truth' refers to a contradiction and therefore, does it prove that Christianity is contradictory?

TWO: UnChristians. They typically means those who call themselves Christians but yet do/say things that Christians are not 'supposed' to (according to the bible/how Jesus lived)

If they are talking about the people that are not Christians, it would be NonChristians and not UnChristians.

I think the second point is more self explanatory but my point is...

That is the thing i saw in them.

They claimed themselves to be Christians but yet... the actions and words they spoke are just so UnChristian-y.

I'm not stereotyping them but HELLLO?

Anyways, but i guess, more than being disappointed, it's not enough to get me to get out of the church. It's the politics that irks me to the core.

Just like how i would never go back with Kuku, i would never want to be part of that church again. With the same reason:

They disgusts me so completely.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

dreams

Saw April's entry about her bad dream and i suddenly recalled mine. I had the dream quite some time back (even before UT3 started) and so memories are foggy, but i can still some bits and pieces of it.

I distinctly remembered i was sitting in some dark and wet area (something resembling those huge drains shown in movies) with Mom and she was saying that she's gonna stick through this with me but i told her to go away as i'm bound to die. Chances of me living is not high and i chased her away telling her to try and survive. She went away without resisting of course. Fuck my life if this happens in reality.

Anyways, after that, the scene changed to some 'futuristic' (metallic) and dark looking tower. It was made up of twisted wires which looked like trunks and branches, just that they were in shape of wires and pipes.

It was a freaking tall tower and i remembered trying to climb it. I was halfway up the tower already and was climbing using those branches and veins (lookalikes) as footholds. But i was seeing that scene as a third person point of view. It was like, i was watching a movie, floating in midair seeing all these.

And my view shifted and it moved up. To the top of the building where all the twisted metallic wires/pipes/metallic branches/sliver veins which were twisted together to form a cave-like place. It's just an empty hole where there was this guy walking around it. Investigating the space with actions like what a spy would do. And somehow, i knew he was plotting something. I knew he was the bad guy.

Then the scene changed again and i was in this cafe with tons of people. And everyone has the intention of killing me.

I was sitting at a square table of four with three other girls. And the thoughts that i had was if nobody moves, i won't.

Then suddenly there were two girls who stood up. One whom in my dream was innocent to me and another evil one who's trying to kill me. I stood up along with them at the same time because i wanted to protect the innocent one. For i knew the one they wanted to kill was me.

Then we got out of the cafe (it was an open spaced cafe) and there was this huge huge space beside it. It has like high walls and everything was so dark and grayish in my dream.

So i fought with one of the girl and i was obviously losing. And then the other girl (idk who attacked me first though i remembered there was this twist in my dream, just not the details anymore) who was way stronger than the first girl starting to fight with me. The first girl just faded away. No idea where she went though.

I was flung around and trying so desperately to run. But the people at the cafe are all waiting to kill me so i can't go there. There's a huge stone/valley wall behind me so i can't run there either. The girl is too fast for me to escape from her anyway. And i was hurt, bleeding, panting and tired from all the running. I am a plain human and she was like a machine assassin (probably human too) and i just dont' have any chances of winning against her.

And when she got close to me, before slashing me again, she said this

"I want you to feel the fear and try to run"

It was like saying, i'm bound to die in her hands but she's just maximizing my torment. Super sick to me.

That was the thing i was like so fucking traumatized that i remembered till now.

And i think i woke up shortly after that. Can't really remember since it's like a dream more than two weeks ago?

But the fight was like so fucking real. I don't feel the pain but i felt like i was seriously panting. The tiredness of the limbs and shortness of breath from escaping was so fucking real. Maybe because that was really how i felt in real life.

Bad dream suck. But sweet dreams rocks.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Man, i really need a life. Not personal thoughts. I realized the latter is just plain annoying. Fun lasts longer, somehow in a very idiotic way.

Had been going through the same routine for the past few days. Sleep for barely two hours, wake up, trudged to school for exams, complain and bitch about it, eat with April, complain about the lack of places we can go/the things we can do, home, nagged by mom to take out lenses before sleeping (had been doing that when she's not at home), napped on couch, wake up, TV, food, lappie and sleep.

REALLY. A life, please!!!

Ah wells. Going out with April tomorrow. I freaking need new clothes.

And awesome daddy glued back my shoe for me. I don't know why but i love daddy so so much. *huge smile*

Oh yes, i think i need to reinforce the point where i'm just a superficial bitch. Don't worry, i don't deny. I'm not a nice person to be with and i'm not forcing anyone to stay by my side anyways.

Okay, moving on. I sacrificed four DA points (note DA okay!!!) for April. What an awesome friend i am. SHHH. I'm not just lazy. There are other contributing factors :P

*sigh*

Really don't feel like updating anymore. Gonna post some heavily edited photos and move on with life.

Yes, i liquify like my life depends on it. Shut up. I can't look pretty in real life, so the least i can do is to look pretty in photos, right?

For the first time, i merely edit the contrast. My face ain't the prime focus in this photo, so i saved the hassle of liquifying. Though i could :P

Nose looks smaller than reality.

Nose still humongous. But eyes are larger and chin a little narrower.

Didn't bother editing a pouting face. And why does Gary looks like a XMM/guai bei bei here?

Eyes larger, side of cheeks gone but still with a huge nose.

Maybe i really can't live without PS. Photoshop. Not plastic surgery, duh?

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Ego

Beyonce - EGO

Oh baby, how you doing?
You know I'm gonna cut right to the chase
Some women were made but me, myself
I like to think that I was created for a special purpose
You know, what's more special than you? You feel me

It's on baby, let's get lost
You don't need to call into work 'cause you're the boss
For real, want you to show me how you feel
I consider myself lucky, that's a big deal

Why? Well, you got the key to my heart
But you ain't gonna need it, I'd rather you open up my body
And show me secrets, you didn't know was inside
No need for me to lie

It's too big, it's too wide
It's too strong, it won't fit
It's too much, it's too tough
He talk like this 'cause he can back it up

He got a big ego, such a huge ego
I love his big ego, it's too much
He walk like this 'cause he can back it up

Usually I'm humble, right now I don't choose
You can leave with me or you could have the blues
Some call it arrogant, I call it confident
You decide when you find on what I'm working with

Damn I know I'm killing you with them legs
Better yet them thighs
Matter a fact it's my smile or maybe my eyes
Boy you a site to see, kind of something like me

It's too big, it's too wide
It's too strong, it won't fit
It's too much, it's too tough
I talk like this 'cause I can back it up

I got a big ego, such a huge ego
But he love my big ego, it's too much
I walk like this 'cause I can back it up

I, I walk like this 'cause I can back it up
I, I talk like this 'cause I can back it up
I, I can back it up, I can back it up
I walk like this 'cause I can back it up

It's too big, it's too wide
It's too strong, it won't fit
It's too much, it's too tough
He talk like this 'cause he can back it up

He got a big ego, such a huge ego, such a huge ego
I love his big ego, it's too much
He walk like this 'cause he can back it up

Ego so big, you must admit
I got every reason to feel like I'm that bitch
Ego so strong, if you ain't know
I don't need no beat, I can sing it with piano

Innocent or not? You tell me.

Hidden meaning for the word 'ego'? You decide.

:P

Monday, August 24, 2009

Trust me

Emotionless

How does it feel to be the one labeled as being emotionless. Like a wall, no one can see anything through your eyes. As you stare blankly ahead, through their souls, they see nothing from you, understand nothing, feel none of your vibes.

Does it sound cool? To be called as someone whom no one can feel. To be deemed as someone who can't feel. Does it sound cool? A little, doesn't it? But it doesn't feel cool at all. Rather, the crappiest feeling one can get.

How do you think you would feel, when the ones you hold dear said that you are just like a slab of concrete, cold and unfeeling. Not unfeeling per se, but they can't feel you, your feelings.

It sucks. Really, it does.

You flinch when someone touches your wound. That's human. I ran away when i feel scared. I don't speak when i know what i'm going to say would hurt you. That's human too, right?

But why? Why is it that when i ran, when i hide my emotions, when i kept quiet, do people not try to understand, to think that might be the reactions as of a human?

I build a wall in between my feelings and your thoughts. It's really not a thick wall. Rather, it's paper thin. I didn't build a wall to hide myself from you, i build a wall to see who in the world would actually be bothered to break the wall down.

How many people i've met tried but failed. Tried to break the wall down but instead my heart.

Gary tried. I appreciated the fact. But when he said how he felt like he was speaking to a wall to me, i saw mom in that line.

Both of them had said that line. Both of them don't understand me yet. Both of them whom i hold dear. Both of them who because of that fact, became the one that inflicted the most pain on me.

Do you know how much that one simple line can hurt? Do you think they know i was hurt because of that sentence?

I don't remember being this way as my choice. Maybe it was, but i can't remember. It seems like i had lost everything to fate, to life.

Maybe hiding isn't the best option but i'm going to smile this little smile, softly, until someone who can find me, finds me, i'll continue to hide.

There are still things i won't say, because you're too dear to me for me to say. More than afraid of you leaving, i'm afraid of you being hurt. Even if i might hurt you along the way of trying to protect you in my own little way but i'm still not going to stop.

This is a never ending story. A recurring theme between everyone. A lesson we all have to learn.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

starry, starry night

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

P/s: Cried 5 times today. Not the sad kind of crying. But the kind where you are moved to tears. Pretty feeling :)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Barney!!

Honestly, i just realized how wrong Barney is.

He's a talking dinosaur who hugs (in pretense of pressing them onto his crotch) and sings "I love you, you love me" (forced-love) to little kids. Can anyone spell P-E-D-O-P-H-I-L-E better than that?

And not only that, he has a friend(?) called BJ.

What exactly are they trying to educate the kids huh?

Hahahahah. Just a sudden revelation. Okay, maybe i should go shower now. And try studying later?

HAHHAHAHHA. Okay, i'm just kidding about Barney being a pedo. But BJ. Why BJ? Hidden meaning? I can't say anything much about it, can i? AHAHAHHA. But yes, i hate the barney series all the same :)

Do you wanna date my Avatar

Hang with me in my MMO
So many places we can go
You’ll never see my actual face
Our love, our love will be in a virtual space

I’m craving to emote with you
So many animations I can do
Be anything you want me to be
Come on, come on, share a potion with me

Do you wanna date my Avatar
She’s a star
And she’s hotter than reality by far
Wanna date my Avatar?

You can type commands
I’ve got slots for what I hold in my hands
Don’t care what’s in your character bank
How ‘bout, How ‘bout a little tank and spank

Grab your mouse and stroke the keys
In cyberspace there’s no disease
Pick a time, send a tell to me
Just pay, just pay a small subscription fee

Single white human,
Looking for group
My stats so high
Don’t be out of the loop

Got an uber-leet staff
That you can equip
Close your mouths ladies
This is pure nerd-nip

I’m a pixel-based fantasy
A man who is stoic
I hack and slash
Who the heck’s more heroic?

Check me out:
Cloth armor
Fits me like a glove
Just twitta a time
And I’m ready for love

Hang with me in my MMO
So many places we can go
I’m better than a real world quest
You’ll touch, my plus 5 to dexterity vest

What role do you wanna play
I’m just a click away night or day
And if you think I’m not the one
Log off, Log off and we’ll be done

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Never never never let go

Pomelo head.

Oh oh. I think i woke Daddy up with my hairdryer. But he is being such a sweetie by telling me he wasn't woken up by me but was because that he can't sleep. Isn't Daddy sweet?

And Daddy got a new phone today. You know the phone that changes to the next song with just a flick from your wrist? Yes, daddy got that phone. Not only that, the last phone Mommy got was a phone with some touchscreen functions.

I'm so so so freaking sad. I mean, i'm the teen in the house right? I should know which are the best phones to get right? But why am i getting like the worst phones in comparison to them. I don't get it!!

Okay, i'm not being completely honest over here. The previous phone i got was because of its reflective cover. I didn't care about choosing any phone. Once i saw the mirror like feature, i wanted it.

But that's not the saddest thing (That both my parents got better phones than me.) but rather, all my 'parents' are.

My real parents are as stated above.

Daddy GL, Mummy Ben and Daddy Malik... ALL OF THEM GOT BETTER PHONES THAN ME!!!

Malik is the worst worst worst one. He had some O2 phone. The market price of the phone then (when he got it) was like 1K.

Total madness.

And my point, EVERY parent, real or not, have better phones than me. MAN!!!

Ah wells, moving on.

My freaking fugly hair.

Mom laughed at it, daddy glanced and gave me a weird look... AND gary giggled while trying to stifle his laughter.

Man :(

But i ignored Gary for at least an hour. At least, maybe more. This is what he gets for laughing at my hair.

And while drying my hair just then, i just realized...

My hair doesn't only looks like a mushroom, or a helmet... BUT THE SKIN OF A WATERMELON.

I don't know why but i suddenly saw the connection.

Not the round one but the ones you ate. Or pomelo works too as a description, i guess.

Man. It's really only a look that a mommy, daddy or a boyfriend who really loves you for not just how you look can stare at it for more than a minute and still decide to acknowledge you.

And yes. Had been listening to Halleujah by 12012 for a good half of the night. It's not a worship nor a praise song... DUH?

Jpop, to be exact.

I don't wanna believe, just only want halleujah.

See the irony? A christian or one who studies bible/christianity/whoever who understands the meaning of 'halleujah' would understand.

HAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Oh yes. For those who wants to know how a pomelo/watermelon could be my hair...

Yeps. Like so.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

She knew it :(

Had dinner with April today. I'm not sure if you considered it to be dinner but i really had no appetite today.

Had garden salad and garlic bread. Vitamins, slight protein and carbo, healthy right?

Anyways, had a small little talk with her and she told me she knew it. She knew this was going to happen with me.

GRRR!!!

Not intending to make this into an emo post. So BYE PEEEPSSS!!!
:)

CLICK

HAHA. I don't know but i'm feeling paranoid as to why people would think the reason for my previous post. It was actually because of this entry:

CLICK

When i think about man, the first thing comes to my head is cheating. Don't ask me why, it's just a stereotype in my head. And thankfully, i haven't be cheated on. At least not yet (or not to my knowledge. OKAY!! THAT'S SAD!! I KNOW!!!!)

Anyways, it's late and i haven't finish my portfolio which is due on this coming Friday (i haven't even properly started. Only finished one part of the intro page to the website and a crappy APP movie) and haven't even started to study for the HUGE test coming up in like a week. Okay, make that FOUR huge tests.

Each stand 60% out of all the UTs i've taken this sem.

Yea, if you just said i'm screwed, you're right. I am.

Right, guess i better sleep. Long day tomorrow (art critique) and PMSing like a total bitch now.

Shall fall asleep while stroking Mylo's ears. At least that's the least comfort i can get.

AND OMG. After the last post, i realized Gary is not replying my SMSes and MSNs (even when his MSN status is online). Is it part of the points mentioned?

Haha. Maybe. But i'm feeling too crappy to actually be properly bothered by it.

Gonna go off and hug Mylo. Am anticipating his silky huge ears and cute little paws.

NIGHT WORLD!!!
:D

Cheating boys

Signs of a Cheating Boyfriend/Husband:

Suspicious Computer Activity

These days, it's easy to meet men in chat rooms, forums or on instant messenger. Have you seen a suspicious name in your IM window or an unknown chat site in your browser history? A little digging can go a long way. Be careful trying to be a super snooper, though, and give your man space. It's just as easy to meet friends online as it is love interests. Your partner may just be reaching out for other gay people to talk to.

Sudden Changes in Schedule

Some men may be spontaneous, but most of us keep a set schedule or standard routine in some form or another. This is especially true for day-to-day activities. Has your man's routine suddenly changed without you knowing why? Did his working hours increase or does he have a new gym schedule? Things often change in our lives. In turn, we decide to try and impress our bosses by working overtime or resolve that it's finally time to get into shape. But what raises suspicion is how these changes are communicated to you. Was the decision made without your input? Was there an attempt to include you? Are there any signs of progress?

Emotional Distance

It's normal for the intensity of your relationship to decrease after you've been together for a while. There may have been a time when you couldn't bare to leave each others' sight and now you both enjoy your time alone. This isn't a sign that he is cheating, only that the relationship is starting to settle into a loving and comfortable phase. Nonetheless, take note of any emotional distancing. Has he stopped listening or laughing? Does he seem distant or spacey, almost as if he's preoccupied? Take note if your partner is there physically, but not quite "there" mentally.

Less Time Together

Just as the intensity of a relationship dwindles slightly over time, so may the time you spend together. But spending less time with each other shouldn't be confused with spending no time at all. Don't react too swiftly. Who knows, his company may be ready to close on a huge deal and they need him around the clock. Or there may be some other legitimate circumstance that demands his attention. Many huge time commitments like these don't last for long periods of time and make sense. He may be working 14 hour days, but does he also leave home on weekends? Look for the unreasonable and unexplainable time commitments.

Instinct

Mom always said follow your instincts and this is a time when that motherly voice can come in handy. If your gut tells you that something is wrong or that some other person has captured your man's attention, then go with it. But take caution with how far you follow these feelings. Ask yourself if they are legitimate concerns or if you yourself are lacking trust.

Appearance

Men typically dress and groom to impress and the things most men want to be impressive for is work and women. IF you husband has not had a major change in attitude about work or has a new job but has suddenly taken to excessive grooming that does not seem to be for your benefit you may have cause to worry about cheating.

Money

Money being spent that is not accounted for can be a sign of cheating as they could be spending this on dinners for their lover or gifts to win their affection. Credit card statements with purchases that look suspicious or large withdrawals of cash from ATMs to cover up what they are spending can be indicators of this sort of activity.

Time

This is one of the most important parts of investigating a cheating husband because more than money or a change in lifestyle what is needed to conduct an affair is TIME. If your husband is taking more ‘business trips’ or is spending a lot of time at work doing overtime and this does not seem likely you have cause to worry and further investigate where and with whom they are spending their time. If they become defensive and angry if you question where they spend their time you have even more cause to suspect that your husband is cheating on you.

Intimacy

Intimacy varies from relationship to relationship but to answer the question is your husband cheating on me? you must analyze this aspect of your relationship so you can catch a cheating husband with a firm resolution and certainty of the evidence you have obtained. Some changes in intimacy can be sexual or emotional, a coldness of emotional intimacy or a disinterest in you or your children could be a problem especially if it is a marked change over a short period of time. In the bedroom it can vary from greatly increases sex drive to a much lowered one depending on the type of affair but again the difference compared to your regular sexual patterns is the key to focus on.

How to know if your boyfriend/husband is cheating on you:

* Asking your friend if he/she thinks so.
* He acts different around you.
* He talks about other girls in front of you more often than not.
* He doesn't spend as much time with you as he used to.
* When he's on the phone and says he has to go because he's busy and you call him back to find out the phone is busy.
* Doesn't call or talk to you as often.
* Makes different excuses for one mistake.
* Avoids you.
* Pays more attention to a certain girl than you.
* Gets annoyed when you ask him where he's been.
* You find him with another girl when he's supposed to be somewhere else.
* You catch him kissing a girl.
* You sense it.
* He tells you himself.

Honestly, they aren't foolproof and might vary from individuals. But heck, these could be 'suggestions' for a reason to have an argument that that would lead to one cheating boyfriend/husband eh :P

Same goal, heck the process.

LOL. No girls, i'm seriously kidding.

And if you're curious, no, i don't think Gary is cheating on me. If he is, don't worry, i'll have my own ways to deal with it.

Death by castration is one. Oh no wait, NO!!! Torment by castration (not death) and burn all his FF games, GS and gadgets while he's tied to a pole rooted deep into the ground with thick metal chains. Industrial style. Might need Daddy's help to get them but definitely can do :)

And while he sees his game wither away into ashes and is considered a half unofficial transsexual, he would be set free, scarred for life.

AHHAHAHAHHAHA!!!

Sounds horrible, isn't it? But a darn good punishment for cheating boys, huh?

LOL!! I'm just kidding, please don't treat it for real.

Or am i not?

*grins*

HAHAHAHAHHHA!!!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

food, glorious food

Had been an ass and couldn't be bothered with updating at any sites lately. Other than short and spastic updates in class/when i'm bored/annoyed/whatsoever not at the it-shall-not-be-named site (lol, it's just yet another site actually).

Man. 7 more days and 4 more UTs and this semester is over.

Like finally. Not that i'm excited to move on in life (and not that i'm not excited... am i making sense over here?) but it's just that i'm stuck here too long for my liking.

And fuck. I got this feeling i can't stay in the top 5% anymore for this sem. I already had my first C in UT and countless Bs and Cs in DGs. How am i supposed to sustain my GPA.

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

And the main problem is that i can't be bothered to buck up. GRRSSS!!

Man. I miss food. I suddenly felt like eating IKEA food (mashed potatoes and meat balls!! chicken wings!!), Xin Wang (pork chops!! wonton soup!! shrimp dumplings!! red bean ice mountain thingy!!), KFC (chicken. enough said), MCD (fries), LJS (chicken!! garden salad!!), Subway (Toasted honey oat with chicken, cucumbers, pickles and honey mustard!!) Pizza Hut (Baked rice!! Mushroom soup!!), Swensens (Fish & Chips!!), Gelare (Waffles with maple syrup!! Lemon Tea!!), Fish & Co (Seafood platter!!), Bakerzines (Warmed fudge cake!!), Sakae Sushi (Fried Tofu!! Chawamushi!! Takoyaki!! Tempura!!), Shilin (XXL Chicken!!) ...

OMG. I SHOULD STOP!!
I'M GETTING SO HUNGRY JUST THINKING ABOUT IT!!!

I don't know. I just ate Xin Wang like yesterday so the desire was somehow what curbed... NOT!!!

MOM. DADDY!!! HELP ME DA BAO XIN WANG.

But honestly. Top on my desire list... SHILIN ZHA JI PAI!!!

OMG OMG OMG.

And why am i updating my food list when i haven't start on my RJ at the time of... 2310. OMG. Gotta start. BYEEEEE people!!!