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Sunday, November 29, 2009

Pressies. Xmas. DADDYBIRTHDAYISCOMING!!

A few things that is very hard for me to get into.

Festive spirit

Birthday spirit.

An A4 copier machine paper box.

I honestly don't know any festive season other than the CNY period (where i get $$$ and more $$$ because i don't have to give them to any little puny bastards) that i actually don't feel like disappearing from the surface of the earth for that day.

And just on a side note, i'm actually proud in still keeping zeh's and mommy's angbao with the money intact till now. Most of the time, i'll just spend it away. But i managed to refrain from doing so though there were times where i was so close in spending it. *huge smile*

But yes, festive spirit. Christmas is coming and Gary is telling me about all his gifts and stuff. Not that i mind him telling me but it is just hard for me to share his enthusiasm.

Or extremity, some might say.

Ever heard of breaking up because a girlfriend opened her boyfriend's gift earlier than the occasion itself?

Wanna hear it?

Cause right now, to be honest, i really don't think he's joking about this.

*pauses*

Okay, bad ideas running through my head now.

Anyways, on the topic of gifts, no one really ever showered gifts on me and so, as a result, i don't shower gifts on others. And it has come to this point in time where i appreciate gifts a lot if i receive them but it doesn't hurt if i don't.

But last year was one of the best years. I think it was the year in which i received most presents.

And may i repeat:

I don't mind not receiving presents but i'll still be a very happy girl if i do.

Ferraro Roche(?) chocolates from Gui Liang

Handphone PINK strap from Ben (He's the cutest. He gave all of us as a Xmas present but none of us returned him any gifts. Because it was technically not a Xmas celebration day. But i shall buy him something this year... if i remember :D)

Camels, date nut chocolate and pendant from Gary when he went back to Oman(?). Technically not a Christmas/birthday gift but it's here in the picture so i have to mention them.

Sushi!! Technically not a Christmas gift either. I just stole him and dropped obvious hints to Gary, indirectly (and forcefully) made him give it to me.

Christmas hat. Enough said.

Speakers. Oh yes, this is a birthday present. From Gary. Speaking of which, i need to get a 3.5mm to 3.5mm jack for it soon. One side of it for this is down. Sadly speaking.

Okay. NOW i feel sad. The most presents i got in a year for my birthday are just two and i feel like it's a lot!!

Fine, after throwing in the rest, i think it definitely is... but still!!!

If you wondered what about my parents or zeh, yea, they didn't give me any. Not that i mind cause no one really celebrates it for me anyway.

Last year was really indeed a very special memory. F5 + Gary. All of them were besties + friends (I technically only knew Gary for a few months back then) and i didn't expect any of them to hang out/celebrate it for me.

And somehow, because i don't really celebrate stuff like such, so i don't really give gifts as such either. It somehow became a habit where i don't have this practice.

To the fact that the only present i bought this year was for April's birthday. And possibly Daddy if i can actually go out and buy something.

Zeh? Mommy?

Yep, you got it. I didn't get anything for them. Not that i'm proud to say so but it's just that, well, let's just put it this way as we don't have that habit or practice of doing so.

The inspiration for this entry was actually because Daddy's birthday is coming in less than a week and i actually haven't got my lazy ass out to get his present. I was initially prepared to go out yesterday and get it for him but laziness owned my determination's ass.

But in any case, i think it would be a little difficult for me to run away and hide this Christmas, not that i can't if i try hard enough.

:)

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Fringe

Had been the longest time since i gave myself a fringe.

Very much so ever since i decided to cut bangs a year plus back.

(P/s: This was the shirt/dress thingy from the Max + Mark incident in a few entries down)

Gonna cut it before i go over to Gary's tomorrow.

Somehow, i got this feeling that if i don't cut it tomorrow, i won't have time to cut it anytime soon.

But by soon, i probably mean 2 weeks. Cause holidays is coming in TWO WEEKS!!!

Awesome huh?

Seems like trying to grow my hair to my own length is becoming more and more of an impossible mission. I just have that urge, desire and tendency to cut it in every few months or so.

But maybe i shall just try to restraint myself and just cut my fringe back to bangs, hmmm?

Honestly, i hate fringes.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Now, back to manga

Was practicing minuet for quite albeit just now. Seems to be able to play half the piece with monstrous strength and sonic speed. Yes, which is very bad. But at least i could memorize it.

I have one of the worst habits while playing a piece. I don't learn it by reading scores. I mean, i do, initially. But after that, i just simply memorize the notes and how my hands should move. I no longer remember the tune of the piece. I just let my fingers move without listening to the piece.

A very bad habit as many would say.

And even a worse habit seems to be occurring now. For the first hour of learning that new piece, i could memorize it but i can't play by memorization or by letting myself go. Which is, well, pretty awkward for myself.

Because i just kept on improvising. I just kept on moving away from the original score. But by the end of the day, i think i grasp the first half of the original piece.

Hopefully though.

Cause i stopped halfway to have lunner. But by then, i can play the piece okay-ish but i still make mistakes though.

Anyway, i was listening to L.Gaga on iTunes and suddenly think about the speakers Gary got for me.

To be honest, i think he is the only one person that i really can't guess what presents he's gonna get for me before or after i saw the present.

More often than not, believe me, i can.

Just before or by looking at the wrapped gift, i can guess what's inside.

What's even scarier is that i could even guess the exact price to the very cent. HAHA. I think i freaked Mummy Ben last Christmas.

To be honest, i have no idea what would i say that price. Let's just say i'm good with numbers *winks*.

Anyways, i still have no idea why can't i guess Gary's present. I'm not happy about that though.

And what makes me even unhappier is that mommy like to take my little used notebook which has tons of numbers inside and find some number and buy 4D with it.

There was this number which i wrote that came as the first price and she didn't buy it. She thought about buying it but she didn't. And she was there complaining to me.

I think she somehow forgot that i hate gambling. Well, yes, i seriously do.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Fist

Random-est Thing I've Done In The Day:

I was looking on the screen, hearing the edit in Pro Tools.
A fist appeared out of nowhere beside me
Saw it out of the corner of my eye
Punched it as a buddy-buddy kind of fist punch
Owner of the fist said something
Heard there was something(one) talking to me but couldn't understand the low rumbles because of the earpiece in my ear
Owner of fist moved away
Resulting in me never knowing who is the owner of that fist

I mean, i can guess who it belongs to, but i just find it super funny. It's so random it tickled me.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

uDaddy HUG

After thinking and thinking, i decided i really don't have enough money to get Daddy an aircon. Unless i beg and rob and well, sell my blood...

Other than that, i don't see any way i can get an aircon for Daddy.

I mean, a few thousand dollars for a unit? It's way out of my league. But i shall try and save with all my blood and sweat to get him one for Father's Day next year.

I'll try. Very very hard.

But no promises though. Seeing i'm spending more than i should lately.

So i'm thinking of the uPapa Hug now. Not too way out of my league, $300 per unit, BUT i'll be too poor to buy any gifts for anyone else after that. And it doesn't help when his birthday is two weeks before Christmas.

And it also doesn't help my sis or mom that my birthday is 2 weeks after his + 2 days after xmas. I'm hoping Zeh would buy something for me. Though i doubt so. She would most probably bring all of us out for dinner but well... a girl can hope, huh? :))

And i really want to buy something good for Daddy. Though i think he would appreciate me a little more if i give him cash instead. I mean, he said that before... so should i?

Ah wells. Now, time to think of Gary's gift. It's a tough fight between the both of us because none of us is going to tell each other what both of us want. Though i can hope he'll give in before me :))

To be honest, not that i don't want to tell him what i want, but it's just that it's not humanly possible to buy. All the things i want are at least a few thousand dollars per piece.

Now you see why i can't even tell my parents i want them?

Sigh sigh. MOMMY!! Please give me money on my birthday instead of pressies. I'll appreciate it too!!

Okay. One problem at a time. uPapa Hug or money for daddy?

Daddy's one person i'll never scrimp when i'm thinking of buying stuff for him. Mommy too. Cause they never tried to buy the cheapest stuff for me.

I can still remember the time when Daddy got his Singtel/CPF money thingy and he have a choice of getting a new AC for himself or a desktop for me.

I had never had a computer prior that and his AC had been leaking and there is this one neighbor below us complaining.

So it's a really tough choice for him. Daughter or himself.

Being the awesome daddy as he is, he chose to get a desktop for me. Yea, i didn't have the luxury of having a computer until a few years back.

So being the awesome all-purpose-handyman daddy as he is, he tried to repair his own AC a lot of times.

I feel so guilty even now and therefore, my thought of getting an AC for him. But that is honestly WAY out of my abilities.

But i shall try and try and try. Even if that means i'm going to go without food for half a year.

And after his AC, i'm still gonna continue to starve, scrimp and save to get myself a new laptop. I've my eyes set on a few but they are all at least $2K per unit. Seems like i can only get one next year.

p/s: mom just cooked the best salmon skin i ever had

p/p/s: i haven't tried out my ice cream slice. Would do it tomorrow. Wish me luck that it'll taste good :)) Which i'm pretty much sure that it will, just skeptical about how pretty it would look.

Friday, November 20, 2009

BEST day in this sem EVER

It had been the longest time since i had such an awesome time. Especially so in this semester. Maybe i would start to have some different thoughts about this semester.

Dinner with Hafiz, Daryl and their friend was funny!! I was talking with April just this morning that how it is official that people in DIDM is wayyy funnier than DSA people.

I mean, just take a look at Yew Chai, Gui Liang, Clement, Daryl and Hafiz (just to name a few). They're not just funny, they're HILARIOUS!!!

But it's not too bad yet, cause we have sweet facis in DSA too.

Before going there, it started off as a good day today. There were only three of us in today's team and all of us got to touch the software today.

April did the starting, Guo Yan did the middle and i did the end.

It was super fun!! We've decided that we're gonna split our work from today onwards.

I didn't hear what some guy in class talking about it until April told me that he did. First, i hate it when someone insulted Guo Yan's work. I mean, if it's a joke then it's alright, but if you mean it as an insult, well, i take it pretty seriously. And i also hate it when you insinuated that we didn't do any work.

When April told me about it, i can only coldly sneer and say

"Some people are just judgmental, what can you want?"

But ah wells, at least Guo Yan was fun today. I forgot how we got to the subject but we were on the topic of religion. And he said he belong to the 'xie jiao' and doesn't like Christians. You could almost literally see April and my eyes glittering.

Went into class for UT and while i was about to sit down, Mark was being friendly and said

Mark: "Hey"
Me: O.O "Err, hey."
Mark: "How's your day?"
Me: O.O?? "It was good, thank you"

And Joel suddenly came into the class and came over to our table. I was so pleasantly surprised and asked why was he here. I thought he had T314 UT too. Sadly, he merely come in to say hi to me.

But i was really surprised he did so. I mean, people would normally feel weird if they enter a class full of unknown people PLUS a faci. But he came in all the same to say hi to me. Super super happy. Cause it had been the longest time since i saw him.

And he was asking why did i wear contacts instead of spectacles again. He insists i look better in specs and i insist i look better in contacts.

I was so happily in my seat chattering until April reminded me that i have to use the washroom. Literally. I can seriously even forget the need of using the washroom.

Came back from washroom and walked past Max.

Max: Didn't know you had such a nice dress.
Me: *walked to my seat and ignored him*
Max: Is that a dress?
Me: No?
Max: Then what is it?
Me: It's a shirt.
Mark: HAHAHAHAHA!! *offers his hand for a shake*
Me: *took his hand with a huh-face*
Mark: That was so funny!! Thank you.
Max & I: *proceeds with huh-face*
Mark: It all happened so fast, to and fro. Such a humorous bunch.
Me: Haha?
Max: Oh yea, it happened so fast that i didn't catch her humor.
Me: *squints*

But in Max's defense, i don't get my own humor too. I don't see how it was funny either.

And i was bored while waiting for UT to start, so i just grabbed my hair at the nape and split it into two pigtails and said, 'KYAAAA' softly!!

Then i felt someone looking at me and i turned to my right. I saw Mark staring at me and i was went uh-oh.

And he did the funniest thing. He tilted his head, stuck out two of his fingers in a twist/peace position and said, "Kawaii neh!!!"

I think April laughed.
:(

I was trying hypnotize him but it didn't worked.

Mark seemed to be a fun fun fun faci!!

Got some stuff before going home. Wanted to get a rolling pin initially but couldn't find any in both Fairprice and Cold Storage, therefore went to get a meat tenderizer instead.

Crushed Oreos and am freezing one of it (the one with creme) in a egg cooker in the freezer. I hope it can give a result of a perfect round circle. Kinda regretted not getting the cookie cutter just now.

But it wasn't fun trying to get the creme out of the cookies though.

Ah wells. Only had noodles just now. Am hungry now. Gonna go munch some stuff now.

Kthxbai
(:

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Harder and harder

There are so many things going on that it's getting harder to stay afloat all these.

But i shall continue to smile and pretend nothing is wrong because this is how life should be.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Chivarly and eyecandy

Chivalry are so getting to be so rare nowadays that it's really nice to see a gentleman once in a while.

And by chivalry or gentleman, i mean guys who treats a girl nicely without expecting anything in return.

I mean, even if there isn't any chivalry or gentleman-ly-ness inside a guy, the least he could do is to be at least considerate towards a girl.

I honestly hate people apologizing to me when they don't mean it. If you know you're in the wrong or at least think you are, then apologize like you fucking mean it. If not, don't even bother.

The thing that greatly annoys me aren't the fact that they do something bad towards me. Personally, if you have something against me, then do it in my face and i'll respect (and hate you) for that. But if you do something bad towards me and know it's not right but think that it ain't your fault...

Now THAT annoys me.

Chivalry, to me, doesn't only applies to paying or treating a girl.

It can also be sending her home, sending her nice texts, be concerned about her, not trying to hurt her (physically or emotionally), protective... or generally being nice towards her.

Boyfriends or not, chivalry should be alive in most guys.

But then again, most girls aren't very lady-like now anyways. So can't really expect so much from guys too, huh? Life can sometimes be so unfair yet fair at times. Paradox much?

It's true that there should be a limit to everything. And that includes jokes and fun.

I have no doubt that we were playing around but some things just aren't meant to be played. Like dragging me when i'm on the ground or pulling my chair away from me and not inform or at least hold out a hand behind my back to support me if i really fall are just some limits that are exceeded.

I have friends who lift my legs way up and drag me out of the class by my legs (on the wheeled computer chair) or pushing me to the washroom (because i'm lazy to walk there) with that chair...

Trust me. I held on to the chair handles with everything i got, but nothing ever happens to me. They know the limit that they can go and i'm sure glad for that.

I don't like to think that my life is endangered just because of a stupid grey computer chair.

But seriously, why aren't there fun people in this semester class?

Ironically, the only fun people are those from other courses. Are Sonic Arts students that boring?

Well, to be honest, maybe. I am quite a boring person too. Well, at least to the other DSA people. Well, they don't have interesting things to talk about, so i'm not the only one that should be blamed.

To date, i think only a few of them are funny or nice to talk with.

Daryl, Fifi and Elwin... let me think if i can think of anymore people...

NO.

Life in this semester is sad. Okay, life in general lately suck donkey balls.

I am really not looking forward in helping Daniel for the voiceover thingy. Not gonna be bothered to contact him unless he contacts me.

$150 for 1000 clips is INSANE.

I have no responsibility in this case because nothing is on black and white. So HAH!!

But yes, there is nothing in school that i'm looking forward to. Classmates suck. Lessons suck. Facilitators suck. Assignments suck. Man, what life.

And maybe i should list down all my eye-candy in school just in case Gary decides that i'm having too many of them.

-pauses-

Oh my. I just realized i actually don't have more than one. I mean, i have millions of eye-candy candidates, but i would eye-candy one guy at one time.

Man, i am even faithful(?) towards my eye-candy?

This is shockingly disturbing. I mean, i don't even eye-candy both Wataru and Tooru at one go. It's either Wataru OR Tooru. Wow. Never saw myself in this light.

But ironically, all the facilitators i'm eye-candying are always DSA facilitators. Maybe i should venture out of my diploma once a while.

First, it was Sam. But because of the fact that he's not facilitating my class anymore, meaning i don't really see him around anymore, my eye-candying target changed. It's officially Ng Ting Xiang(?) now. I never bothered to check the correct spelling for his name.

I didn't really find him cute but wanted him to be my G90X adviser cause i felt like he would be an awesome adviser.

But the only time when i seriously find him cute was the time when April decided to comment on his geeky specs. I couldn't see his eyes and therefore moved on to his hair. Not too bad, i would say. Hair was styled pretty nicely too. But this still ain't the thing that i found him cute.

It was after April's comment of his geeky specs and him leaving the room and coming back without it makes me think that he is very VERY cute.

I mean, actions more than looks huh. Though in his defense, he doesn't look half that bad either.

But honestly, Andrew is becoming a very good potential candidate for my eye-candy other than the fact that:

April is already eye-candying him and i don't like to share
He might already think that i'm a boring company and i don't like my eye-candy to look at me in a bad light

Man, this is a really long and random update. Am talking about inadequate-ness with Gary online now. Shall focus there instead.

BYEEEEEEEE.

And to mimic gossip girls,

XOXO.

HAH!! That felt really idiotic.

And wow. Just when i decided to pay my full attention on MSNing with Gary and stop blogging, he decided that he wants to go offline. Though it's technically not his bad, cause it's already 3am now.

But seriously, maybe i should really stop my wordy rants now and shower. It's like fucking 3 now. Man, i hate showering at night.

It's cold and unfeeling and well... cold.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

the ant which drooled

I got to take the train with Andrew today. It was not fun but it was interesting.

Just realized i'm not someone who talks a lot with people i don't really know. Throughout the entire train ride from Woodlands to Toa Payoh, most of the words i said was "Oh, i see", "Ahhh" and "Sounds cool". The minute he tried to start a conversation, i effectively closed it using the second sentence.

Not funny uh. Ain't my fault.

But he's a nice facilitator. Cause when none of us have anything to talk about and awkward silence hung between us for ten seconds, he would try to start another new topic.

I think he technically started more than twenty topics in between us. It started off with normal conversation like UTs, class, school, workshops, abelton live to how his parents met, him only coming back to Singapore at the age of 10, his older brother and his brother's job, his school, his Bali trip in December...

And millions of other things that i can't remember what he said.

I was even telling April how close we were physically then. I think she might have hated me.

But yes, i can never touch Andrew. Cause Andrew is technically April's guy.

I get easily attracted to guys who look good.

As easy as how i like guys who are nice to me.

Friday, November 13, 2009

thinking

I thought you saw it.

Well, you thought wrong.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

poop entry

I initially intended this to be a tweet post but i realized by the time i'm done, it'll be a little tweet spam. Not that i mind, but it's just that, being such a nice and considerate person as i am, tweet spam is annoying for others.

And just because i'm so happy now, i'm going to be nice and not tweet-spam.

If you realized my previous tweet just before this entry (hint: if you don't know, look at the time of this entry and the tweet), you would realized it was

*insert sad face*

I actually wanted to insert more sad faces before i go into my HO game but something happy just happened.

Wanna guess?

Okay, i doubt you would have a correct answer.

In which case, the answer is:

I POOPED!!!

Okay, don't judge me and say it's gross. It's a human process. You do the same thing as me. If not, it's high time for you to be a little concern about yourself.

Normally, i would have hated pooping because... i just hate pooping.

But today's different. Today's the easy-kind-of-poop-day. Don't worry, i'm not going into any further details than this.

So yes, having easy poop days make me happy. It fills my world with rainbows, sunshine and unicorns.

Okay, maybe it's also a high time for me to be a little concern about myself.

I mean, rainbows, sunshine and unicorns?

What in the world?

Thursday, November 5, 2009

stupid PD

I'm supposed to be typing my report right now but i seriously am at this point of time where i really don't know how to continue.

Seriously!! How would i know what is the purpose. What is the commercial value. How am i going to present it.

The purpose? Because it is required of me to include it. The commercial value? If the mass likes it then it has the value. If they don't, then there is no value. And how am i going to present it? Online and CD. What else?

I have blatant bullshit ideas like this but it doesn't work that way. Chaobyebye. So lost now.

And now, i have one more reason to hate Max. I mean, he is a funny guy and all and that's why i'm trying my best to like him but he's just too annoying. I really do hate him. And well, it's not because of his religion this time.

Plus, his report is ACCEPTED by Lava. That's why i hate him even more. Not to mention, he went HAH in my face because of it.

But at least i have people on Lava's side who haven't even submitted it yet so things aren't too bad for me yet.

Honestly, things would be so much easier if it was Sam or Andrew who's my supervisor. I think they will accept it really easily. Unlike Lava. Super difficult.

Did i mention how cute Sam was today?

We were having lunch and after we're done, April was helping me to take the tray to the clearing station (because i can't balance soup bowls) and i was carrying her laptop. Then she suddenly gasped and i turned. I saw Andrew and grinned at her. And as i turn around again, it was my turn to gasp. I saw Sam. April LOL at me.

April waved hi at Andrew but he ignored her but i was luckier, i smiled and said hi to Sam and he responded. Sam is so much more friendlier. :P

Then i tried to make some small talk while poor April is holding onto the tray and me, hanging onto our heavy laptops.

Me: New hairstyle huh?
Sam: Yea. It grew longer and i just wax it. *lowers head* I just dipped my whole head into wax.
Me: Go cut lah. Your previous hair looks better.
Sam: Really?
Me: Yea lah. The one you had that time. The shorter one.
Sam: My hairstylist went back to Malaysia already. No one to cut for me.
Me: Then i help you lah.
Sam: You know how to cut?
Me: *nods*
Sam: Like really cut? You work? *hands as scissors*
Me: *smiles sheepishly*
Sam: Later you cut until like him *points at Andrew* i don't want
Me: Haha.

And i think i ended the conversation about here.

After April placed the tray, we went down the platform and waved bye at Sam. He responded immediately. But when April waved bye at Andrew, he was like staring at her. I raised my eyebrows and waved towards Andrew too and i think it was then when he finally realized we were saying bye at him. Yep, he had latency (as he said, he's a audio man and i said it in an audio way) of about 5 seconds.

April said Sam looks pretty okay when he smiles. But somehow, i don't like him smiling. I prefer his personality. He's fun and well, gives good grades. That's what i like about him. And also, he's protective of us. Like, he would treat us a little better because we were his class.

I'm a major softie for guys like this. I mean, who doesn't like a guy who can protect her huh?

Too bad he's not my faci anymore.

Anyways, then April and i went and played Chinese Chess. I'm telling you, we're jumping for eighteen to eighty.

And we played like two rounds in about two hours and it doesn't feel that long at all. Yes, eighty, i'm sure.

It was funny cause we were sitting in the library playing it. And there were this group of people passing by our table and they saw our game and was saying

Woah! This one even more powerful sia.

I LOL on the spot.

But seriously, games like this is not healthy. I literally had a pounding headache after playing it with her.

And after my eyeliner day today, i think i'm not going to school with eyeliner anymore. Just concealer and foundation.

It's such a scary thought thinking i'm actually willing to go out without eyeliner.

But i have reasons.

People said i actually look better without heavy makeup and eyeliner
They said i looked younger
It feels better without heavy eyeliner
I don't have to clean off the eyeliner at the end of the day

Just 4 reasons off the top of my mind.

I forgot why but the other day, while we were eating with the guys at TRCC, either April or Mon said that i can't club yet because i ain't eighteen and a few guys at the other end of the 'fellowship table' went HUH!!

HA. I'll be 18 in just a month time. Wait for me!!!

But seriously, i'm dreading 18. Or actually, i'm dreading growing up right now.

ARGHS!!!!

P/s: I suddenly recalled Gary saying something about 'bad boy' just now. Personally, i think it's super gay. And why? Because kuku said he wanted to go 'bad-boy-style' before, 'to attract more ladies' and as i quote.

Yes, he said that after we broke up and before i got officially super annoyed till i can't take him anymore.

He did went that style and honestly, it looks really really gay. And probably that's why i never described anyone as 'bad boy'. Maybe fucked up attitude or bad ass cool, but never 'bad boy'. Eww, fucking gross.

And honestly, i think a lot of people have the kuku's face. First was Ruiqi in our class. Then it was that guy on 169. April was talking to Dave but yet her eyes were staring at that guy all the time. I think i laughed.

Oh shit. I forgot about my report. Should get around typing it now.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.

And when it subsides you have to make a decision.

You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is.

Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.

Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

-St. Augustine

"It's so easy, To think about Love, To Talk about Love, To wish for Love, But it's not always easy, To recognize Love,

Even when we hold it....

In our hands."

- Jaka

"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."

-Sam Keen

If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.

- Anonymous

Love is as much of an object as an obsession, everybody wants it, everybody seeks it, but few ever achieve it, those who do will cherish it, be lost in it, and among all, never... never forget it.

- Curtis Judalet

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Both Light and L were busy 'investigating' the Kira incident in the workplace and L suddenly speaks...

L: Hey Kira.
Light: Huh? What?
L: *grins*
Light: Shit.

Isn't this an easier way rather go around investigating. Light's human too. Humans makes mistakes :)

Monday, November 2, 2009

Maybe, probably

I realized the reason as to why i would love to have overprotective brothers when i saw it over on TV. Probably it's because i do yearn for company quietly on the inside, something that i am used to not having any but a secret desire that i always want.

Maybe i truly want someone to understand me. Someone to have fun with me. Someone i enjoy chilling around with. Maybe i don't need that but i want that.

Or maybe i should just entirely forget about this.

Yes, i don't need it at all.

KNNBCCB

Honestly, i have nothing against people liking other people's emo/depressed statuses over FB, but somehow, i just don't like it when people likes Gary's depressed statuses.

Okay, maybe the main point isn't that. The main point isn't about the statuses. I just don't like Gary being depressed. I mean, i don't like anyone i care about being depressed in the first place.

I mean, i don't even like myself being depressed. But i guess it's human to feel depressed. So i'm not blaming Gary for being depressed. And i'm also not blaming the people who's liking his statuses.

*mind boggles as eyes pops out of sockets*

Okay, this whole thing is confusing. I just feel sad when people i care about are sad.

Just like i feel worried when Mommy's worried. I feel bad when Daddy looks so sick. I like the things Zeh Zeh likes.

Okay, back to topic. I actually wanted to write an entry and ping/innit it this morning. It had been bothering me a few days and i've finally decided to blame it on the education system. And it has something to do with me being constantly sick. And when i mean sick, i mean SICK. Not those puny fevers of 38.5 degrees. Of real-man fever of 40.5 degrees (even up to 41 or 42 once or twice in the past few months. Scary shit man!!).

I'm not going to talk about the overly-talk about issue of Influenza A since that only happened in our school, but i'm going to talk about stuff i've heard not only in our schools but in others too.

I think i should come up with a disclaimer but i've decided that my blog doesn't have enough readers to land me in hot soup.

So yes, sometimes i'm thinking, if school technically only has 4/4.5 hours strength of lesson, then why not make us come at 12 or 1pm and end the lesson at 5pm. Rather than making us come at 8.30/9am and let us go at 4.30pm.

Giving us tons of study breaks doesn't equate to studying at all. Quality over quantity. Positive?

And if the study breaks are indeed for studying and if we really do, in which we only seriously do so for about an hour or so before mucking around, then add in an hour into that 4/4.5 hours. I'll very much rather have my lesson end at 6 if it starts at 12 or 1pm.

By having lessons starting albeit later, it gives me ample time to wake up and maybe study before hand if the school kindly released the problem/lecture notes to us earlier through the internet in the comfort of my home rather than some hard or having the nagging worry in my head if i am sitting on the same chair as some guy who farted into it before i sat on it.

Okay, there could be tons of other things i can come up with but just not now. Because i got to sleep cause there's school at 9 tomorrow.

Yes, i'm going back to school despite the fact that i'm still on MC. See the irony. Cause for every day i'm not in school, i get an X for the day. Meaning it contributes as a ZERO to my overall grade.

KNNBCCB. Not in school that don't count that day lah.

Sorry, had been speaking too much in Singlish lately. It's albeit difficult for me to change back into normal (note: normal and not better-than-average) English.

I think i just spoke in Singlish to Gary just now. Cause he corrected my English. *chew lips* This is bad. Real bad. I mean, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!!!!