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Friday, April 30, 2010

who am i lying to

I think I'm screwed.

Cause I think I really like Hei a lot lot lot.

More than the one year plus relationship I had with Gary.

Shit. This is bad. Very bad. Very very very bad.

****

Anyways, went to find Auntie for an hour today and talked with her. And she was asking if I changed my number and if Gary called me.

I was like, he's the one who ditched me. So if there's anyone calling, it'll be me calling him.

But I won't have any chance to because I deleted his number!! Yes, I still can remember his number but that doesn't change a thing.

I digress. Okay, point being...

I'm the one being ditched. So if there's anyone calling, it's me. Right? Yes. But I've got someone whom I love way more than him, so why would I even bother to call him? Yes?

Oh shit oh shit oh shit.

Did I just say how much I love Hei?

I'm screwed!!!

But it was funny as to how I tell the Auntie who orders my lenses for me that before I got ditched, I only saw Hei twice per week. After I got ditched, I saw him twice per day.

Sigh. There's no perfect guy around just like how I can never be perfect.

Someone who's relatively cute (okay, my definition of cute is very subjective), showers me with enough C&C to make me content, R.I.C.H (yes, an acronym), wants to hang out a lot lot lot with me...

But someone whom is so difficult for me to drill a point into his head, acts like a kids at times, drives me up the wall, easily loses his patience, throws his temper silently after losing his patience at whatever random things, have so many things with easy solutions (refer back to the difficult to make my point and hammer it into his head), fucking bad habits...

Yeah. I'm still very much a materialistic person so *laughs*

You get what I mean.

Okay, I feel more normal now.

Fuck. Who am I lying to? LOL.

have to start typing rj NAO

I don't know... I'm having so many things going on lately.

School is stressful but I'm can't be bothered about it so I guess I'm pretty much screwed in terms of grades but happy in terms of the time that's passing.

Although I think I might just kill myself once my practical comes in. I have absolutely no faith in being able to do it after Studio Techniques practical last semester.

Was talking with Auntie today and both herself and Uncle was so mean and realistic. I mean, I am too but they're cleverer.

They were like saying to tell Hei to buy for me this estate here, this estate there. 2 in Orchard Road, 1 in Sentosa, blah blah blah, and I was laughing like mad.

I mean, I DIDN'T EVEN THINK THIS FAR.

I'm still the innocent one, thinking of marrying him then poisoning them Lady-G-Paparazzi style.

But honestly, I'm still very very very happy about the flicking away the barely smoked cigarette after I nodded when he asked if I hated him to smoke.

Though they doesn't take away the fact that I'm still angry with him. The reason I'm always angry with him is that he would be mad about something and he doesn't say it, but is so obvious about it and he just ignores me. I mean, IGNORES me?

Okay, whenever he ignores me, I'll ignore him back and the cycle starts. Then he'll come over and asked why am I so quiet and I'll ask him what does he want me to say. Blah blah blah. Then after some haggling and silence, he'll finally say what's bothering him and things between us will get better.

Unless, I'm really pissed and don't want to take a step back.

But yesterday was funny. He got out of cab, flicked the stick and we were standing there waiting for a cab. We were at a place where it would be impossible to wait for one. Then after two came but were off shift, I was like... "are you going to stay here for long or not? I'll bring you to the main road where it's easier to wait for cabs. If not, can we go grab a seat over there?"

And so we did. And I got 15 bites on just the back of my thighs alone.

FUCKER!!!!

But we had so much fun. We were like playing with each other. Super fun. It was so fun that I left with a smile on my face.

I wanna graduate soon. Save enough money and get a small place for myself. I want I want I want.

And possibly see how me and Hei ends up. LOL!!

I'm tired of dating so please let this be long, kay? Though honestly, Hei is still young. I don't think he'll want something for long...

Thursday, April 29, 2010

wow. too many things i would love to happen

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.
16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything – ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means she doesnt want to talk about it – so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of other girls you know
26. DON’T lie to her
27. DON’T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If shes upset, comfort her.
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible
41. Call or text her every night to wish her sweet dreams
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
46. Rub her back it feels good
47. Give her your coat if she’s cold,thats always cute
48. Write letters on her back with your finger it feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. Dont poke her hard…but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. Hold her hand in public
52. Even if she looks bad one day tell her she’s Beautiful
53. Keep conversations flowing…talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don’t ignore her or be nervous around her–everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you’ll be good to go. ;D

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

finally a blog

Alright!! Seeing there's no school tomorrow. So I better do some quick updates before I start posting random shit again.

Oh wait. THIS is some random shit too.

Oh wells. The world is pretty much a screwed up shitty place anyway. *shifty looks*

Anyways, 2 weeks of school down. It's not going as fast as I hope it is but it isn't as dreadful as how last semester was. But honestly, at least I got As last semester... I don't anymore for this semester.

I suck!!

Okay, it's because I can't be bothered anymore. Actually, I can't be bothered ever since last semester. Give me something I'm interested in and I'll be passionate about it. But sad to speak, nothing so far in my own core diploma have I find anything interesting.

I think I have some serious issues. Like seriously!

Anyways, I think Hei and I are having some issues too. I mean, we can get pissed off at each other EVERYDAY. I mean how is that even possible. At least when both of us aren't happy with each other, we really do sit down and talk about it.

Sometimes in a happy and good tone, sometimes in a super annoyed tone. Both of us have our share so yeah...

And we're seriously super fast in admitting mistakes. None of us tried to explain for ourselves or try to defend ourselves. I'm super glad to have someone who finally tries to put himself in my shoes.

Yes, I do think from his point too. And it truly did get me into a lot of trouble. But boy, I did not regret one moment of it.

Okay... maybe a little bit at the point of time.

But honestly, never give a boy too much freedom. Once he gets a taste of it, he'll demand at least that amount of freedom from you.

Giving him that amount of freedom doesn't mean he can abuse it.

Oh shit, I feel like his mom now. Fuck!!!

Okay, initially, whenever he wants to drink, he'll ask me. He won't even smoke whenever I'm around. When I started to let him drink and smoke a little, he started to cross the line, well gradually. Yeah, he even got fucking drunk in front of me. It's funny so he saved his ass on that part. But the smoking part? Atrocious. He doesn't even ask me if he can anymore. Stupid boy!

And the worst part? He used to tell me where he is going before he goes out. Then when he realizes I don't stop him from going out to any places, he doesn't tell me anymore. He just goes there and only tells me when he reaches there... or when I ask.

Stupid boy!!

Not going to tell him where I'm going to next time I'm going out too.

Sorry baby, but this is a give and take thing.

But honestly, he already saw me without makeup, at my ugliest moment and he also got punched in the face by me. Yeah, I think I punched, kicked and well... yeah...

Others were saying that 我們家暴 from the huge bruise on my thigh. And how he literally sat on my lap once...

I was talking with Steven then and Hei just got up from my lap after just kiddingishly sat on it and Steven was like saying (not the exact quote so please...) 我們都在講你那個是小黑家暴，看來真的是他家暴耶…

IDK why but I find it so funny. Maybe it's because I'm the one who ACCIDENTALLY (I insist) punched him more than anything else.

I punched him in the face (like cheek/jaw area) probably like at least twice. LOL!!!

Okay, I'm tired now. Don't wanna blog anymore. So KTHXBAI!!

Oh yeah, I'll be really angry with him tomorrow if he's still at that pub now. And if he has nowhere to go tomorrow, I'll be doubly pissed.

So, he better be super careful tomorrow. If not, I'll just stay at home.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

I'm getting suckier at rhyming. FUUUUUUU

When did you start entering so deeply into my heart
How I hope that this is not just an imaginary part
Together we paint a dramatic art
Hand in hand, right from the start

Hold this pumping fist gently and not let go
It had been scarred since a long time ago
How much more can it take, I don't know
Promise to protect it from this frost snow

In silence as she painfully smile
As she knows expression through tears can never be worthwhile
How I wish love can have a backup file
Or freeze my heart and turn me hostile

Hurt I am, I do not deny
A quiet part of me wishes to say goodbye
But do you know you're really sly
You hit the right spot with a bull's eye

With just a look, I forgive you
Sometimes I feel it's just like deja vu
Downing a glass of coke with cordon bleu
Into reality I plunge right straight through

We know we aren't perfect
Like wooden toys with defect
We have times where we willfully neglect
Even for prolonged times where we didn't detect

Boys and girls being played in our hand
Till the world feels so bland
As I stand in front of the music stand
Where we gave up everyone else just for our two-man band

Both of us aren't pretty
Neither are we witty
But in our own little eternal city
Where's there only joy and no pity

Looking quietly at your sleeping face
My smile so true that can never be replace
As I gentle snuggled into your embrace
And thank God for his grace

Now as my little rhyme is coming to an end
There is still so much more to comprehend
I'm hope it won't be a trend
For me and my stupid little boy... friend

kthxbai

Somehow, I got this feeling that I ain't updating my blog like how I should be.

Bear with me, I will soon be back.

But for now, KTHXBAIIII!!!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Love yourself abit more

1、如果發簡訊給一個人，他一直不回，不要再發了。

沒有這麼卑微的等待。

2、如果沒有人陪，學著一個人聽音樂看書寫點心情日記。

這是個好習慣。

3、如果一個人很難過，找個角落或者在被子裡哭一下，不需要別人同情可憐，哭過之後一樣開心生活。

4、如果一個人開始怠慢你，請你離開他。

不懂得珍惜你的人不要為之不捨，更不必繼續付出你的友情或愛情，到頭來受傷的是自己他人不會為之

難過。

5、如果可以不抽煙，別抽。

如果可以不喝酒，別喝。

這是不愛惜自己身體的表現，如果只因一些人，那麼我們別傻了，愛你的人不會讓你難過的。

6、傷心的時候找個信任的朋友訴說一下，不要一個人默默承受，這只會更添寂寞感與憂傷。

7、不開心的時候白天看看藍天晚上看看夜色，廣闊的天空自有屬於我們的愛，寧可高傲的發黴不要低調

的戀愛。

跟自己說我是最好的。

保持一份自信。

8、寧缺勿濫。

不要因為寂寞隨手抓一個戀人，這對兩人都不公平，而且太缺乏責任感。找個知己不要是戀人。

9、記住你喜歡的人的生日，包括你的家人，當然，還有自己。

生日沒有人送禮物也無所謂，你可以買精美的禮物，送給媽媽和爸爸。

10、閒下來的時候，放一段柔情音樂，翻閱幾頁好書，然後睡個懶覺，悠哉。

心情不好的時候，也可以睡一覺。

11、從現在開始，聰明一點，不要問別人想不想你？愛不愛你？若是要想你或者愛你自然會對你說，

但是從你的嘴裡說出來，別人會很驕傲和不在乎你。

12、不要太在意一些人太在乎一些事，順其自然以最佳心態面對，因為這世界就是這麼不公平往往在最

在乎的事物面前我們最沒有價值。

13、不要為了任何人任何事折磨自己。

比如不吃飯、哭泣、自閉、憂鬱，這些都是傻瓜才做的事。

當然，偶爾傻一下有必要，人生不必時時聰明。

14、任何情況下，背後不說他人是非。如果一定要你說，說好話。

多個朋友是好事，即使不是很要好的，總比因為自己說話不慎重不思考而多一個敵人好得多。

15、允許偶爾看肥皂劇，但不可成為依賴。

允許偶爾披頭散髮，但要注重場合。

允許偶爾罵髒話，但只限在老友面前或者獨自一人時，記得說過後要忘掉那些讓你難過的事。

16、學會承受痛苦自己調整心態。

有些話，適合爛在心裡，有些痛苦，適合無聲無息的忘記。

當經歷過，你成長了，自己知道就好。很多改變，不需要你自己說，別人會看得到。

17、能不和人爭吵盡量避免。

一個發怒的人是很恐怖的，會因控製不了情緒變成瘋子。

忍耐然後思索問題的根源最後平靜心態解決它。

18、不管和誰有了矛盾和彆扭，解決的時間不要超過24小時。

否則麻煩會更多。

在可以接受的範圍內，先道歉。

讓自己做做壞人不是件真的壞事。

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

multiple surveys

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. What does it say?

"縂浩回信咧嘴一笑，稍后便拿起電吉他，胡亂猛然地甩著彈著，似乎正藉著音樂發洩"

Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?

Air. And that's all I could

Before you started this survey, what were you doing?

Work. RJ.

What is the last thing you watched on TV?

百萬大歌星

Without looking, guess what time it is

0305

Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?

0310

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

The rotating blades of my fan

When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

Today morning. To school.

Did you dream last night?

Yes, I think. But I can't recall what was my dreams about.

Do you remember your dreams?

If only I was woken up abruptly

When did you last laugh?

Today

Do you remember why / at what?

PETLAH, MASHUPGAMESLOR

What is on the walls of the room you are in?

Nothing. Paint and dust, I guess.

Seen anything weird lately?

Yes, I saw myself in love. As much as I hate to admit it.

What do you think of this quiz?

Nothing.

What is the last film you saw?

Love Date

If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?

Taiwan. Or Japan. Or anywhere as long as I'm with the people I love (and yes, this includes even my sister which I don't talk to her anymore other than the few occasional times we see each other)

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

Houses for myself, family as well as investments, gadgets, clothes, bags, cosmetics, shoes, alcohol, cars (for eden and daddy) ... yeah, loads of stuff.

Tell me something about you that most people don't know.

I'm a very scary person online.

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

IDK. I don't really care about world issues but I think I will destroy the boring shows on TV.

Do you like to dance?

Officially no. But I like to dance in the shower at times when I'm mad with a tune stuck in my head.

Would you ever consider living abroad?

Yep

Does your name make any interesting anagrams?

Joycelyn. What other word can you make out of this?

Who made the last incoming call on your phone?

Xiao Hei ♥

What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?

School resources

Last time you swam in a pool?

NO idea.

Type of music you like most?

Whatever' hot.

Type of music you dislike most?

Jazz.

Are you listening to music right now?

Yep

What color is your bedroom carpet?

Brown

If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?

The size. The amount of room. The things in each room. The color of each room. To have AC in every room.

What was the last thing you bought?

Pies.

Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?

Nope

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?

Neither

Do you have a garden?

Nope. I don't.

Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?

Well, I know how they sounds like, no idea what they mean though.

What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?

Did Xiao Hei text? Yes, I'm turning obsessive. OMG, NO!!

If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?

Show Law

Who sent the last text message you received?

Xiao Hei ♥

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card at?

Cartier, Dior, Swarovski, Chanel and Ettusais

What time is bed time?

5am to 6?

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?

Nope.

How many tattoos do you have?

NIL!!

If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one?

Well, yes. But I'm never going to.

What did you do for your last birthday?

I can't remember. I should be at either at home or out.

Do you carry a donor card?

Nope.

Who was the last person you ate dinner with?

Myself.

Is the glass half empty or half full?

Neither. It's twice as big as it should have been.

What's the farthest-away place you've been?

Away from you.

When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?

No idea?

Have you ever won a trophy?

Yes.

Are you a good cook?

Nope.

Do you know how to pump your own gas?

I don't think.

If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?

Marilyn Moroe

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?

Yep

Do you touch-type?

Yep. I do.

What's under your bed?

Nothing.

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Nope. But I do believe in interest in first sight :)

Think fast, what do you like right now?

A boy.

Where were you on Valentine's day?

CNY. Then out for a movie at my dirty Yishun Cinema

What time do you get up?

Today? 9 I think?

What was the name of your first pet?

I didn't get to name it.

Who is the second-last person to call you on your received calls list?

Daddy ♥

Is there anything going on this weekend?

Probably out. No idea. Seeing Xiao Hei' mom is here, so IDK

How are you feeling right now?

Sick.

What do you think about the most?

Myself. And a particular boy.

What time do you get up in the morning?

9am today. But I didn't want to. I really don't.

If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?

I don't think I would ever tell.

Who would you tell first?

Mom

What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?

Date Night

Do you sing in the shower?

Yep.

What do you do most when you are bored?

Go online. Or text.

What do you do for a living?

Study.

Do you love your job?

Nope.

What did you want to be when you grew up?

Nothing actually. I really don't want to work now :(

If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?

Tai tai :(

Which came first the chicken or the egg?

Chicken.

How many keys on your key ring?

2, and I have no key ring. I only have a Swarovski charm

Where would you retire to?

Taiwan

What kind of car do you drive?

I don't think I'll ever drive

What are your best physical features?

None. I used to think I like my wrists/arms. But Xiao Hei kept on pinching them and I fell fat.

What are your best characteristics?

I don't have, I think?

If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?

Taiwan. Japan.

What kind of books do you like to read?

I don't remember reading.

What is your favorite time of the day?

Any time where I don't spend studying/working.

Where did you grow up?

Singapore.

How far away from your birthplace do you live now?

Well, a 20 minute car ride

What are you reading now?

Nothing. Probably, goggle resources if you want to be technical.

Are you a morning person or a night owl?

Night.

Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

Nope

Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?

Yep. And I just did that. I feel like an idiot.

Do you have pets?

Nope

How many rings before you answer the phone?

Depends on who called.

What is your best childhood memory?

Playing with Jian Le

What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?

Sales assistant, waitress, tutor, cashier

Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?

Nope. Nope.

What is most important in life?

Love, Family, Friends, Money, Security, Xiao Hei ♥

Who/What Inspires You?

Quotes

Monday, April 19, 2010

This is very short -.-

1: April
2: Tim
3: Pei Ying
4: Jo
5: Cheng Cheng
6: Sunny

Number One:

What is the last party you attended with this person?
Party? What party?

What do you love about this person?
Everything. She's the awesome-est person I know. I mean, just the most recent thingy, I was super pissed off by Hei and she was super there for me can, LOVES!!

How did you meet this person?
At SBW library where she mistook me as Fallon

Is this person's phone number on your speed dial?
I have no numbers on my speed dial -.-

Does this person call you by a nickname?
Yeap!!

Numer Two:

Have you ever kissed this person?
Err, yeah.

What is this person's favorite store to shop?
I can't decide. But I kept on seeing him going into Dior. Though he goes into other stores as often. So I really don't know!!

Is this person taller than you?
Yes

Are you this person's number 2 friend?
No idea?

Does this person know your parents?
Yes. I be embarrassed to say.

Number 3:

What does this person drive?
Err, drive?

Have you ever danced with this person?
Nope.

How long have you known each other?
A few weeks?

Did you go to school with this person?
Nope

Have you been on vacation together?
Nope

Number 4:

Would you consider living with this person?
Nope. Cause I'll make her da bao for me everyday. HEH.

When is the last time you talked on the phone to this friend?
Err, last week. Suki trip lor.

Does this person have any siblings?
I don't think?

Where does this person work or go to school?
Work

Does this person know any of your secrets?
Yeah, some... I guess?

Number 5:

Is this person single or taken?
Single

Does this person have any pets?
Yeah, in China though. Not in SG

Is this person a rebel or a rule follower?
No idea

Rate this person's looks 1-10:
8

How old was this person when you met?
Err, I only met her this year :P

Number 6:

Where does this person live?
Oh shit. I forgot!! I went there before!! Err, near United Square, I think?

Is this person promiscuous?
Nope

Can this person sing?
No. But neither can I, so I don't judge

Have you ever broken the law with this person?
Nope

Where is this person right now?
Home.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I believe

I believe-
That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe-
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a
while and, you must forgive them for that.

I believe-
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I believe-
That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe-
That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I believe-
That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them

I believe-
That you can keep going long after you can't.

I believe-
That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I believe-
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe-
That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there
had better be something else to take its place.

I believe-
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I believe-
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe-
That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time!

I believe-
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I believe-
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I believe-
That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I believe-
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've
learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe-
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe-
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe-
That our background and circumstances may have influenced
who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe-
That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other, And just
because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I believe-
That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I believe-
That two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I believe-
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I believe-
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a
friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I believe-
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I believe-
That the people you care about most in life are the essence of life.
Tell them today how much you love them and what they mean to you.

102 things about girls...

1. Do not cheat on a girl. We girls talk, we WILL know, and we WILL find out, and we WILL dump you!

2. Be aware of all your girlfriends’ guy friends, brothers, fathers, or anything. They are protective. Every single male friend we have will kick your ass if you end up hurting her.

3. Never ever miss an opportunity to tell her that she’s beautiful. We girls love that.

4. If she slapped you hard, you probably deserved it.

5. Do not be afraid of holding her. If she’s going out with you in the first place, it’s obvious that she likes you and wants to be in your arms.

6. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend -- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts or hoodie’s, and a really pretty piece of jewelry.

7. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely. We think that’s really cute and sweet.

8. If a guy is bothering your girlfriend, it is your right to beat the shit out of him.

9. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer. It’ll make her feel secure that you love her more than the other girl.

10. Never ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.

11. Go along with her to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went with her.

12. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend. Or else.

13. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle. Let her win once in a while.

14. Memorize your girlfriend’s birthday. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life. Not gonna lie.

15. Don't drench yourself in the cologne, but smell good.

16. You don’t have to spend a million dollars on the Birthday/Christmas/Valentine gift. It doesn't have to be expensive, or cost anything but it has to be meaningful.

17. Don’t ever lie to us; we always find out.

18. Don’t say you understand when you don’t. That’s bad.

19. Remember: Girls are pretty, but yours is the Prettiest!

20. Saying something sweet might get you off the hook; but doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.

21. Size does matter, but only to hoes; not girls that want relationships.

22. No matter what you say, your ex-girlfriend is a hoe. Don’t bother trying to convince us otherwise, that is a bad idea

23. It’s good to be sensitive, to a point.

24. If you did something wrong, apologize. Even if you didn’t, do it anyway.

25. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not. (See directly above.)

26. We are self-conscious by nature; we can’t help it. Let it be.

27. We don’t shave our legs every day so just get over it.

28. Shave your face, no matter how cool you think your goatee or beard or mustache looks, we probably hate it. We like you clean shaven.

29. Show off a little, we think it’s cute.

30. You are our boyfriend, our man, our protector, whether you know it or not, you are; act like it.

31. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).

32. We love it when you hug us from behind and whisper in our ear.

33. "Fine" is NEVER an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.

34. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you. Don’t obsess over that.

35. I expect you to call me. If you don’t, you go down.

36. I'm more forgiving of you than I really should be. Don’t you dare take advantage of that.

37. When I compare my flabby tummy to a kangaroo pouch, say nothing.

38. You look hot in hooded clothing items. Always.

39. You should never tell a girl what to do. Ever.

40. Any decent man will ask a girl out to her face. I mean; if you aren’t man enough to ask us out to our face, who says youre gonna be man enough to our boyfriend at all.

41. Girls are very impressed when you ask them for advice. Unless its about another girl.

42. I'm unimpressed with a man who doesn't take the lead.

43. When in doubt, go with the shirt that matches your eye color.

44. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing things, wearing a white T-shirt and jeans, driving, eating a peach, holding a baby.

45. Girls need to hear how you feel about them. Often. Tell her now.

46. A girl wants to be the best thing that ever happened to you--and for you to recognize this and tell her.

47. If she’s not feeling loved, she will start looking....

48. We like it when you tell us what you're thinking, even if you don't know yourself. It’s cute.

49. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read...

50. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.

51. We can fall in love with you without really knowing you, if you are an ass, we will find out, and we will get over it. Fast. Don't ruin it.

52. You like her, make a move. Don’t just sit there, you will fail, and you won’t get her.

53. Guys who play sports are hot. They build muscle, and no matter what we will be at all of your games.

54. When you compliment us, we aren't sure how to accept the compliment without leading you on or reject the compliment without hurting you. So just bear with us here.

55. WE HATE BEING LED ON! If you think it's bad being led on by a girl, try being led on by a guy.

56. We like it when guys are willing to have an actual relationship, not just a one-night stand. Most girls don't like pimps or players, just guys who like ONE girl only.

57. But don't be obssessive. Major turn-off.

58. Call sometimes, just to say hi, not for a certain reason. When we see your number on caller ID, our heart always skips a beat. Try calling just to say good night, or good morning, its soo adorable!

59. BE HONEST!

60. Don't ONLY tell us what we want to hear. We HATE that.

61. At sleepovers, if you wonder what we talk about, quit worrying. It really is only you.

62. If you catch us staring, it is most likely because we're spacing out, not because we really stare at you. Unless we smile when you notice. Then you either look really hot, or we like you.

63. We like it when you hold us when we're crying. It's good to feel loved and safe.

64. Don't go to our friends to talk about us. Come straight to us.

65. Don't tell us you love us unless you are positive you mean it. If we don't say it back, it's just that we really want to mean it when we say it. Don't say it right away, then it shows lack of commitment.

66. We like our hands to be held and our waists to be touched.

67. We like you to kiss our hand and cheeks and forehead (esp. forehead!!), not just shove your tongue down our throats. We do like to breathe.

68. We like it when you're tender, but don't lose your masculinity.

69. Do chivalrous things when we least expect it (ex. holding doors for us).

70. As surprising as it may be, while guys might actually look at personality, the first thing girls look at tends to be looks. We're not going to see you and think, 'I wonder what his personality is like!' Terrible, but true.

71. If we love you, and youre hurt on the basketball court, rolling on the floor in pain; we’re hurting more just watching you.

72. We LOVE it when you get nervous around us. It's adorable! Don't think you have to be Mr. Cool Guy all the time.

73. Don't play hard to get. We’ll get bored and move on.

74. If you don't call us, then we will spend hours thinking about why you never called, and we will waste a lot of time thinking about it, eventually coming to the conclusion that we don't like you anymore.

75. We lost interest quickly if you lead us on but never take action.

76. We might seem to flirt a lot, but a girl always thinks about the one guy she really likes right before she falls asleep.

77. When a girl likes a guy, she subconsciously gives him a song that makes her think of him every time she hears it.

78. If guys do the same as girls do in #77, tell her what song reminds you of her.

79. Randomly compliment girls in conversations. If you're talking about sports, be like "Oh, by the way, that shirt really made your eyes look green today." It totally throws us off, and we love it.

80. Ask us about how we're doing once in a while, and at least pretend to be interested.

81. If we're not talking to you, we secretly want you to talk to us first.

82. Play with our hair without being like a gay hairstylist.

83. We get really happy when you show any sign of interest. Don't just do it and then never do it again. Bad bad bad…

84. Keep up the conversation on IM and phones and in person! Don't be awkward. That’s bad.

85. We will always feel bad if we don't like you back. Not all girls are bitches, no matter what you may think. We hate to reject you.

86. ok, so some girls are bitches and they like rejecting boys, but the people who wrote this group are not. better?

87. If we say "Let's just be friends", we really mean it. Don't keep trying to pursue us, and don't say ok and then ignore us. That's just mean and horrible.

88. It's adorable when a best guy friend who a girl has thought about liking confesses he likes her.

89. If you’re single, find the one girl who’s always there on the sidelines at your football game, or at each of your concerts, all your baseball games. She loves you. Her excuse may be that she’s there for her brother, but she’s really there for you.

90. After you find that girl, smile at her once in a while, it’ll mean the world to her.

91. Get to know her, you’ll make her year first of all, and maybe, just maybe, you’ll end up liking her.

92. Not all blondes are bitches. Some are cool.

93. Not all blondes are sluts. Some have morals.

94. In your mind, give every girl a chance. Each one deserves at least one.

95. Girls fantasize too, its just not always about sex.

96. We girls give you guys code names so that you don’t know that we’re talking about you. :]

97. If you’re jealous, it may suck for you, but we think it’s attractive if you really care that much.

98. If a girl blushes when you talk to her, she either likes you or she's embarrassed by what you're saying.

99. Girls don’t really write your name on a piece of paper a million times if they like you, that’s a myth…… sometimes

100. If a girl really likes you, just seeing you will make her day.

101. Even if you aren’t all that cute, and we like you, we think you’re hot. Don’t take advantage of that, take pride in that.

102. Every time you smile at us, it may mean only a little to you, but it means the world to us. Don't take the little things for granted.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Because I can

Take this survey

What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
- Oh please!! Please not this text be from Sam. *looks at phone* Damn!

What did you do last night?
- SMSed, blogged, slept. Oh, more of morning though :)

What is the most important part of your life?
- I can't decide between serenity or fun, melancholy or joy, relationships or pain, love or lies. Argh, who am I kidding? FUCK I CAN!! I love fun, joy, relationships (friends, love and family) and well yeah, love.

What would you rather be doing right now?
- Outside.

What did you last cry over?
- A breakup

What is your next day off and how are you going to spend it?
- Well, that's would be the weekend and I have no idea :(

What always makes you feel better when you are upset?
- When someone is there for me and truly do cares about me and why am I being upset

What is the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
- Faithfulness.

What are you worried about?
- Everything actually. But mostly my future now.

9 Have You Evers:

9. Have you ever liked someone else while you had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
- Not that kind of like as in a I-WANT-HIM-AS-MY-BOYFRIEND kind of like

8. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- Yep

7. Have you ever been out of the country?
- Yep :)

6. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
- Yes, I don't deny *chew lips*

5. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
- Who haven't?

4. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
- Nope. Thank god!!

3. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
- Yep!!

2. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
- Yeah.

1. Have you ever got a speeding ticket?
- Nope and never would I.

8 Whos:

8. Who was the last person you saw?
- April

7. Who was the last person you kissed?
- 陳建翔

6. Who was the last person you texted?
- 小黑

5. Who was the last person to call you?
- Daddy

4. Who is the last person you freaked out on?
- This I don't know.

3. Who did you last hug?
- Tim

2. Who did you go with to your 1st school dance?
- Girl-friends.

1. Who is your best friend?
- April

7 Whens:

7. When was your last shower?
- 30 minutes ago

6. When did you last see your mom or dad?
- An hour ago.

5. When was the last time you danced?
- Err, yesterday.

4. When did you get married, or when do you want to?
- 4/5 years later, probably?

3. When was the last time you cried?
- A month ago?

2. When did you last go to the movies and with whom?
- A week ago? 小豬

1. When did you last take a vacation and where?
- Ages ago. Malaysia.

6 Wheres:

6. Where do your grandparents live?
- Maternal grandmom - Yishun; the rest of my grandparents, CCK

5. Where did you last hang out?
- AMK

4. Where is your favorite place to be?
- Anywhere where it's fun and has a warm hand with me

3. Where did you sleep last night?
- Home

2. Where would you like to move?
- Well, anywhere as long as I have $

1. Where were you when Princess Diana died?
- No idea. I'm sorry.

5 Do/Does:

5. Do you like someone right now?
- Yep

4. Do you like your vehicle?
- Well, my vehicle? Define vehicle.

3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
- Nope. Never.

2. Do you have nightmares?
- Not really.

1. Does the future scare you?
- YES

4 Whys:

4. Why are you best friends with your best friend?
- Because she is.

3. Why did you get a MySpace?
- Because Fareez has one. I think?

2. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
- Because it's supposed to be lucky for me? I think.

1. Why are you doing this survey?
- I'm bored.

3 Ifs:

3. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
- Elemental Control

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
- Yep!

1. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring one thing what would it be?
- Some communication device that could bring me out of that island.

2 Would You Evers:

2. Would you ever get back together with your ex?
- NO!! No way!! Eww!

1. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
- I'm sorry, NO.

1 Last Question:

1. Are you happy with your life right now?
- Yep. This I can answer: YEP!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

PUKEPUKEPUKEBOOM

Feel.So.Fucking.Sick.NOW!!

I think LAN shops have this thing on me now. I can barely play an hour without feeling my brain trying to squeeze itself out from the pores of my head.

...

Yes, that's some weird feeling I know. Don't judge me too harshly.

Cause I really do feel fucking bad now.

Went to meet Sam just now to talk about FYP. Sounds fun but sounds tedious at the same time. But artiste management? That sounds fucking cool!!!

But am going to focus on the major labels and business plans first. Cause researching is more for me than the creative side.

Yeah, I'm pretty much a failure as a sound/art student.

Anyways, class starts tomorrow. No idea if it's a good thing or not. At least it's a 2 day class thing before the weekend.

Then Friday and it's WHEEEEE time. Yay!!

Yeah. I still feel like puking. Shall not stare at my screen for a while now.

KTHXBAI!!

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Don't mess with me... online

Have been such a long time since I've properly stalked anyone anywhere. Real life or virtual.

*coughs*

But yeah, found his FB and Wretch account. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I blurred out the FB pages of the people whom I've linked from one to another and the wretch account that I found out from FB... Just in case someone knows who I'm stalking...

Don't ask who. I won't tell!! :)

And really...

I kept on pooping today. I've no idea why.

LOL!!!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Friends

HAHA!! I think the manager of box can really 炒熱氣氛…

He always kidded around saying I'm his girlf and is only letting me to 黑 temporarily, so when he said that yesterday with his hand stretched, I was like LOL!! Really ah? Then I held his hand. Normally, I'll just wrap my hands around his arm, like how the father walked the bride down the aisle way kind of way but cause I was sitting down, that's why I was like holding his hand.

Then he was super funny!! He was like, OMG!! CANNOT WASH HIS HAND ANYMORE. QUICK, GIVE HIM SOMETHING TO WRAP THE HAND!! And he was like using his tie to wrap it up.

I was like LOLing then 黑 was like, "You are holding some other guy's hand in front of me eh?"

OOPSIEDAISY!! I was like, sorry ehhhh. Just kidding whhhhhhat.

Then he kissed and the manager said, NOW HIS TURN. I was like, okay, I help you hold 黑's head. Then 小Tony (the other one is not 大Tony ironically, it's 肥. OUCH!!) was like, NO! Now's my turn and wanted to kiss 黑.

WHOO!!

Gay love. WHOOOOO!!!

And 大麥 was like asking me, why aren't I working anymore and I was saying, school's starting eh.

Then 黑 was like asking how did he knew that I worked there before.

大麥 was like saying, the other time he was there pooling with 黑，黑 kept on talking with me and he was like, 不知道要怎樣說是黑's turn. Then 黑 would suddenly turn around and say 到我了哦？and go pool.

TSK!! I really can't blog a proper entry without using both English and Chinese. Tsk tsk!!

But yeah. I thought that the friends around 黑 are people who always fool around, drink, smoke, blah blah blah, those 酒肉朋友, bad influences... but then, I think I'm foolishly wrong.

I mean, there's Tony. The 肥 one. He was like telling us to go home because it was late and 黑 had school tomorrow too. And it was barely 12 then. 11 plus, I think?

And then there's Sunny. Who asked both 黑 and my side on how this relationship is going. Concerned about him, me and this relationship and how it would end up.

大麥 is also another one. He was telling us to not quarrel, to not breakup (when we were kidding about breaking up), and telling me to take care of 黑. He said it in such a serious tone that I was asking why did he said it like that and he was saying that it's a very 嚴肅的話題.

黑 is very lucky to have such friends around him. Really. It's not easy finding friends who truly care about him. WOW!!!

Loves to such friends, REALLY!!!

2nd morning in the row

830AM. Just finished instant noodles and got myself a cup of tea (no more milo) along with biscuits. Am so damn hungry today. Didn't ate much.

Got home at unearthly hours for two nights straight. No longer healthy, tsk, no longer healthy. Neither are parents happy about it... But you know the feeling of just wanting to be with this guy and you really don't wanna leave? Yeah, that's why.

Anyways, went out around evening/night-ish and initially wanted to go to Vivo. But it was so fucking late and I was asking what the hell could we do there. So went to Sentosa instead.

Walked around the beach for awhile and thank god it wasn't sweat-worthy hot.

Stopped at the watersurfing area and was in awe with one of the guys there. He was so fucking good!! Both 黑 and I were standing there for some good time just watching them.

Then we left and went around searching for Cafe De Mars. It's an AWESOME place, I'm telling ya.

I got a white chocolate martini (act not) and 黑 initially wanted another drink and I was telling him, there's chocolate martinis and then he changed his drink to chocolate mint. And he had a beef burger too.

He had the phobia of burgers now ever since yesterday. So he ate all the fries instead.

Then we were just sat then laid on the bed while talking. And I found a weak spot of his. I was tickling him for only a short while but when he got his chance to tickle me, he didn't stop. FOUR long tickles in a row. I swear I almost died from laughing.

Side note. OMG!! I just finished an entire pack of Kong Guang cookies and a cup of tea and I'm not even done with my entry. And it's not even a photo entry. GOD!! And well, second cup of tea. LOVES!!!

Okay, back to entry.

So yeah, we had fun playing with each other, lying in each other arms, kisses as well as a deep talk. I love his hugs though. Complete loves.

Left Sentosa about 2 plus and I wanted to go home. But 黑 didn't really wanted to let me go home and I want to see him a bit more too so went to Kbox after quite some persuasion and reassurance from 黑.

Da Mai (Michael) was so cute. Both personality and looks wise.

黑：就分手啊
我：就分啊
大麥：不要啦~ 不要分啦
黑：爲什麽是你說？
大麥：因爲3個人也不錯

Stayed in there till 6am. The people in there are mad. Mad funny. Had so many different things to laugh about.

And having 黑 hugging me felt super comfy too. So I'm not complaining.

One thing I feel a mixture of awwwww-ism and annoyance is that whenever 黑 gets offered a stick/drink/party by his friend,s he'll always refuse it when I'm there. But then he'll always get 嗆 by his friends so I'll always give in. I really don't think I'm helping him this way, right?

Then 大麥 did ask me to take care of 我們傢的小黑.

Left Cine around 630am and took a cab home. Daddy called me personally and 黑 felt so guilty after that. And it was real guilty I could feel and see. Wow to guys like this.

你是我對過最好的女生
但是我不是你對過最好的男生

我：那我要簽死亡證明書我才敢過去
黑：那簽在結婚証書上

Okay, it's almost 10am now. Have been awake for crazy amount of time now. Really tired. Gonna finish my tea and sleep now. Kthxbai!!!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

long long day

God, it's almost 7 and I'm still here in my wet hair, typing an entry. I have been almost awake for 24 hours with only 3 hours of sleep the day before.

Hardcore babay!!

So yeah, went out with 黑 today to Plaza Singapura. He called it Singapore Plaza and the cab driver went HUH!! I laughed and said PS.

Went there, walked from the first floor to the top then decided to head over to Cathay. He wanted to shop and saw no new stocks. He suggested to watch a movie but there are really not much good movies lately.

Wanted to go to Illuma and saw NK at the entrance of Cathay.

Went over to punch him and he spoke in such a funny accent "You know you punch me very the pain". I was still laughing to myself when I reached POMO.

Didn't saw any cashier I knew then went over to take a cab over to Illuma.

Took one of the longest escalator I had ever saw and it was so scary when 黑 almost made me fall.

Went up to the Filmgarde and saw no better movies showing. Decided to have dinner instead.

Ate at Empire something and had Baked Macaroni. I loved baked stuff lately. YUM!! And 黑 foolishly ordered a medium hamburger with fries (which is a fucking huge portion, I'm telling ya) and some prawn/seafood pasta.

I was like GOD BLESS YA!! YOU NEED IT IN ORDER TO FINISH IT! Then he had a HUGE rootbeer float too. Stupid boy.

When asking for the bill, two waitresses actually asked if there is anything wrong with the pasta. I was giggling.

Meal came up to $57.

Yesterday's Korean food was about the same too, or a little more, I presume. Damn, I'm guilty of spending his money already. DAMN!!

So after the meal, went to Cine for we had no fucking idea what to do.

Saw a really farmiliar face near the entrance towards Cine. Thought it was a regular until he was like waving at me. I waved back then realized it was Si Wei. Felt so awkward and dragged 黑 towards the lift.

黑 was asking who he was and I told him. Then sneaked a look towards him again and saw him looking at my direction. Hid and asked if it was awkward. 黑 agreed.

Anyways, then we got up there and saw PY and she wanted to talk to me about quite some stuff. Got into the smoking room with her and I think I wanted to die. I couldn't breathe.

Then she asked me to help her buy something and dragged 黑 to look for it with me.

Looked around but didn't get one for her cause there wasn't one which matched her description. Asked her to come down and she got one there.

Went back up and gathered all our stuff. Oh!! Did I mention, 黑 got a new Dior wallet today. Yep, bye bye plans for getting him a new one. I was looking through websites of those brands and actually did planned on getting him a Gucci one, but well, he got one and I'm not getting him another.

Oh yeah, so we gathered our stuff and saw the super from box. 黑 jumped onto his back and the super just smashed him into the wall. Fucking funny. I mean, fucking painful... for 黑, funny for me... and shocking for everyone else.

So, after that was home. But he asked me if I wanted to go prawning with his friends and I said why not. So off to prawning we go.

Stayed there for about 4 hours until 5.30am. Hardcore as I said at the start of the entry. Hardcore.

There were funny things as well as things that pissed me off... very badly. Will talk about it some other time.

7.00AM exactly. KTHXBAI!

Friday, April 9, 2010

習慣就好

When this piece of music ceased to play
When the world seemed so gray
Where I wish everything in this world could go away
How did you still manage to come into my world and tell me it's okay

Looking into my eyes, you smiled
Leaving my thoughts running wild

How did you come into my life
Calling me your wife
Adding this little spice
And pulling out the knife
While everything seemed so nice
I still wonder if this has a price

Thank you for everything you showered on me for these few days
If there is a price I would gladly pay
I'll treasure this so please stay
As you promised to never go away

photohunt

I can't believe I'm back in photohunt. I think I spent at least $10++ on that one machine alone.

Playing photohunt with Jo was so super fun!! She found out the trick of using the little pinky when the screen refuses to let us select the wrong portion.

But photohunt-ing with Tony and XH is the funniest. When XH found this spot that was wrong, he kept on pressing it even though it senses it as a wrong touch.

So the time kept on decreasing as he insisted on getting it right. Both Tony and myself were screaming at him to not do it, then the time was up as he wasted too much clicks on that one spot.

So Tony and I were screaming at him and he was like O.O !&^%$#!%&^!!!!

IDK, but I find it ridiculously funny. LOL!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

argh

I have one question...

HOW DID HIS MOM KNOW ABOUT ME?

... I know he told his dad, but... ...

I just have this thing with parents.

OMG!!!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

shopping loots

$300 gone in just one day.

At least it's not on just one piece. *throws dirty look*

Got a new concealer and a liquid foundation from Ettusais. $87 gone just like that.

Got another lipstick from MAC and $29 flew away.

Went to M[phosis cause April wanted to buy something from there and saw a shirt. Didn't like it a lot but wanted to buy something so got a random shirt at $30. Waited for April there and saw a bag I liked, $35ish, I think? Size is just good for my wallet, phone, foundation and 黑's wallet. That boy always like to put his wallet with me. No matter am I working or not.

And then accompanied April to Kino and had MCD after that.

Then went to F21 with NO loots. Went to some store in 313 and got a top... in XL for just $20. I love getting huge clothes so I could wear it as a dress rather than a top. Cause I hate long dresses, long tops as dresses are just the right length for me. But it could be a little too slutty as what I think April hinted. She said, "No short you won't wear ah?"

Went to Cotton On next and got a boring cardigan and $15 another boring jacket at $30 and a jumper at $30.

Okay lah. Not really $300. Around $275. But if you add in transport fee and food, it should be just about $300.

And did I say I saw Ken at level 4 today. Let April 說中. EEEEEEE!!!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

zzzzz

L is for the way you look at me...

The kind of person youre first attracted to.
Those that are interested in me. Yeah, those who appreciates me.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope. Love's blind, remember?

How do you show someone you are interested?
I would be duper shy around that guy. And ask around my friends, I'll tell everyone around me that I'm interested in a guy if I am.

Is there such thing as a perfect relationship?
Nope. Fuck this shit. There's nothing like this.

How do you know when someone thinks youre attractive?
I don't... cause I don't ever think I am.

How do you know its right?
And again, I don't. If I know, I would have not been hurt so many times.

Could you date someone who has been only your friend for a long time?
I don't know. I never try doing that.

What do you wear to attract the opposite sex?
Heels. Okay, I think that's me. I wear heels 24/7

What makes someone sexy?
Confidence. And a pretty face. Maybe huge boobs.

Are you uncomfortable staring in to someones eyes who likes you?
Yep. I be shy.

Do you come across as confident, sexy, friendly, subtle, or innocent?
Subtle.

When someone catches your eye, do you try to make eye contact or avoid it?
Avoid it.

Your favorite colors of eyes in the opposite sex:
Black, brown, green, grey, red, ... yeah, all the fakers in the world unite.

What makes you sexy?
Skirts/shorts with heels. IDK why. LOL!

O is for the only one I see...

Describe your signifcant other or crush.
Which one are you asking for. Significant other or crush? *shifty glance* har-har, i be kidding. He's cute, rich, a little dumb but nice towards me.

When are you the most happy in a relationship?
Yeah. I do think.

Do you believe in soul mates? Have you found yours?
Maybe and maybe.

How many people have broken your heart?
The number of times I've been in love before.

Would you ever cheat or have you ever cheated?
I'll never cheat but I've been cheated on.

Have you ever loved someone who didnt love you back?
Yep

Have you ever given someone your entire heart?
Yep. It kinda suck and I'm never going to do that again.

What kind of things do you do to show someone you are theirs?
I really don't know how to except for holding hands, hugs, kisses and rings on the 4th finger on my left

Is there ever a happily ever after?
I don't think

Do you want to grow old with someone or be single?
Grow old with someone

Are you a hopeless romantic?
Not really.

Whats the most romantic thing anyones ever done for you?
Spending time with me even when he has no time. Spending more time with me when he has time. EVERY FUCKING DAY. wow.

What are you like when youre in love?
A very different person.

Describe your dream person.
Someone who loves me, rich, caring, never cheats on me, don't smoke/drink/gamble (yeah, 黑 failed here though he tries to cover it up but i can actually smell his breath after a smoke *roll eyes*), dotes on me... well, it can continue forever.

V is very, very extraordinary...

What has been the weirdest date youve ever been on?
Going to Chong Pang

And the very best?
Rides to and fro, shopping, movies then to a pub

Whats the most money a boyfriend or girlfriend has spent on you?
IDK. A few hundreds, I suppose?

And the most youve spent on them?
A few hundreds too.

Which one of your relationships was the shortest?
My first one.

Which was the longest?
The third one.

Are you friends with any of your exes?
Nope.

Do you wish you were back together with any of your exes?
NO!!

Do you ever have dreams about your exes?
Yeah. I did.

If you want to get married, what age?
IDK. Seeing how things go, maybe 21? Cause my zeh got married at 27 and I think it's a bit too late for marriage then.

Are you open or closed because of past hurt?
Closed

What is your philosophy on love?
Money's da king.

Who would you die for?
Myself

Who do you secretly yearn for?
黑

E is even more than anyone that you adore...

The reason you love your signficant other or crush.
He's super nice to me.

Would you change yourself for someone you loved?
Yep

Would you give up a dream for someone you loved?
Yep

Would you quit a job for someone you loved?
Well, I really don't want to but I did.

The thing you love about relationships:
Someone to be there for you

The thing you love about being single:
Freedom.

The person whos on your mind right now:
豬頭

:((

Sigh.

I always feel insecure when things like this happen.

Tsk!!

Monday, April 5, 2010

I roll my eyes

A lot of people hates hearing the truth from me but I'm a honestly painful person and so I don't lie.

I'm sorry but that is the truth and nothing you can say can change the fact.

It's so much easier hating him after knowing what the fuck has he done :))

tick tock tick

Tell me what should I do.

It's shitty whenever I ask myself this question.

Because this is the time where I hover between the line of putting in my true feelings or not.

I really don't wanna put any in because I don't foresee this relationship going anywhere, but I'm really tired of shutting him out.

I don't want to shortchange myself neither do I work to be hurt.

The clock of confusion is starting to tick... again
Tell me God, what should I do?

i'm EXHAUSTED

Have your parents ever caught you drinking?
Not really :)

Do you love the last boy/girl you were talking to?
Yep

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yeah.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Munching :D

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
黑

Last restaurant you went to?
Can't remember. But cha can ting can a not?

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
黑

Did you have an exciting last weekend?
Not too bad. Spent it with 黑

Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yep

What do you spend most of your money on?
Food :(

Where were you at 1AM sunday morning?
At some pub.

Ever kissed someone over 30?
Nope

Is there a secret you've never told your parents?
Yep

Do you like yourself?
Nope

Have you ever dyed your hair?
Yep

Are you wearing a necklace?
Yep

Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
黑

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
Yeah, I think so.

Are you an emotional person?
Quite

What's something that can always make you feel better?
Nothing. Even the high咖 can get depressed just because I was depressed.

Did your parents spoil you as a child?
Yeah.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?
Yeah, somewhere inside the computer, I guess

How's your heart lately?
Not too bad

Are you a cuddler?
Depends :D

Will this weekend be a good one?
It's quite a good one :D

What do you want right now?
Sleep

Who can always cheer you up?
IDK.

Have you ever gone nude/streaked in public?
Nope

Who hugged you last?
黑

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yeah

Are you a kissable person?
Quite. Depends.

Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
I think.

What is your relationship status?
In one. But I'm denying.

Who was the last person to come to your house?
Can't remember

Look behind you, what do you see?
Sofa

How many rooms does your house have?
5

Have you ever worked in a food place?
Yeah

What would you name your future daughter?
No idea.

Who and where was the last concert you went to?
Can't remember

What did you eat for lunch today?
Black pepper fried rice

Whats on your schedule for tomorrow?
Sleep

The last song you heard?
我是好人，也是個壞人

What do you think of love?
Nothing.

When is the last time you went to a party?
Yesterday

When is the next time you'll hit up a club?
I hope not one in a long long time

Do you still talk to any of your ex's?
Nope

If you had to eat 1 thing for the rest of your life, what?
Fries

Have you dated anyone on your top 4?
Hmm, nope

Has your number 2 on your friends ever made you cry?
Who's number 2?

How do you feel about abortions?
Good and bad

Do you eat junk food everyday?
Yeah.

How often do you drive?
Like never?

Where did you last drive to?
Been driven?

Describe your bestfriend?
Awesome

Who was the last person to touch you?
黑

How did you and your number 1 become friends?
We met and she thought I was Fallon

How late did you stay up last night and why?
6am. Was chatting

What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
Relationship.

Do you like someone?
Yeah

Have you ever been hit by the opposite sex?
Nope

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with an S?
Nope

How's your life lately?
Good

Do you know anyone that is currently locked up?
Yeah.

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Yeah

What do you think about the current gas prices?
Mad

Would you sex tape with you in it for 3 million dollars?
Maybe?

Have you ever been so drunk that you blacked out?
Nope

Do you think that you’re a good person?
Maybe

Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
Yeah

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
Relationship

Have you ever flirted with a friends crush?
Yep

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Nope

Ever ordered from an infomercial?
Nope

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope

Have you ever requested a song on the radio?
Yep

Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
Nope

When is the last time you took a nap?
Ages!!

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Forgot.

To text you?
黑

To send a friend request?
No idea.

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine

Have you kissed anyone in the last week?
Yep

Do you miss anyone?
Yeah

What does your 8th text message say and who was it from?
更愛你；黑

What are you listening to?
周日8點檔

Is there one place you'd like to visit?
Yeah

Have you held hands with anyone today?
Yeah

Do you like winter time?
Quite

Do you own uggs?
Nope

Do you regret anything?
Yeah

What are you excited about?
Nothing

Plans for today?
Sleep

Seven days from now will you be in a relationship?
I hope? LOL. Maybe, maybe not?

What are you doing tomorrow?
Sleeping

How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
2

Where is your number one person on your friends list?
At home, I think?

Do you want to dance?
Nope

Who do you not get along with?
People

Last movie you watched?
The Men Who Stared At Goats... though I think Clash Of The Titans is a newer movie.

What are your plans for the weekend?
The coming weekend? Out and sleep.

What do you notice first about a guy?
Looks

Something interesting happen lately?
Yep

Where is the person you like right now?
Over at Sunny's

Last time you took a shower?
This morning

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Sleeping

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Typing

When was the last time you talked to your most recent ex?
No idea. Ages ago.

Have you ever been around someone who was high?
Yeah

Do you like where you live?
Yeah

Last thing you purchased?
Lashes

Have you kissed your number one on your top?
Nope

Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are?
Home. And okayish.

Explain why you last threw up?
I was sick.

Where did your last hug take place?
Taxi

Who was the last person to hold your hand?
黑

Are you a jealous person?
Okayish

Did you have a good birthday this year?
Can't remember.

Are you tired right now?
Yeah

What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
No preferences

Do you chew on your straws?
Yep

Who was the last person you rode in the car with that was under 21?
黑

Three days from now will you be in a relationship?
I hope so?

Do you have curly hair?
Yep

Who was at your house last?
Mom's

Do you lead people on?
Not really.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you didn't do?
Maybe?

Have you kissed anyone today?
Yep

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Yep

Last person you cried over?
Him.

Do you cry easily?
Not anymore.

Do you have any brothers?
Nope

What do you think of them?
Awesome.

Where did you go today?
Work, then to Sunny's

What should you be doing right now?
Showering

Are you a heavy sleeper?
Depends

When was the last time you hand washed the dishes?
No idea.

Name everyone that made you smile today?
黑, 大姐, people at Kpool, Sunny, Tang Wei, Da Mai, Little Tony... and the others whom I forgot their names

Who was the last person to put their arm around you?
黑

Three feelings at the moment?
Tired, happy, TIRED

What are you listening to right now?
周日8點檔

The highlight of your week?
Err, can't remember.

Who were the last people you ate with?
Sunny and people

What really makes you mad?
Myself, and annoying people

Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
Nope

What are your plans for tonight?
Sleep

What does the seventeenth text message in your inbox say?
誰叫你讓我那麽愛

What's the last piercing you got?
No piercing

Ever toilet papered someone’s house?
Nope

Do you want to be married right now?
Not really.

What were you doing at 4am this morning?
Showering

What do you usually do first in the morning?
Wake up

Do you have college plans?
Nope

Are you mad at anyone right now?
Not really.

How many different beverages have you had today?
One. Many cans of green tea

What did you do today?
Work.. then play

What is your favorite flavor of jelly?
Green... or purple

Do you want children?
Nope

What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
Nails... or at Kpool. Can't remember

You're in the hospital, who on your TOP friends would come to visit you?
No idea :(

If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
Okay?

Do people underestimate you?
Maybe

Are you named after a grandparent?
Nope

What's something you're scared of?
Uncertainty

Name some of the people you love?
Hm. Mom, dad, jie...

What's your favorite color?
Black

Ever been kissed under fireworks?
Yep

Do you wish someone would call you?
Yep

Is there someone you wanna date right now?
Yeah.

Are you usually the heart breaker or the heart broken?
Broken

Is there a meaning behind your profile song?
Nope

Do you have a best friend?
Yeah

Do you belive that what comes around goes around?
Yep

Who was the last person you were mad at?
Chubby

What is the last song to make you cry?
Can't remember

Is your best friend pretty?
Yep

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Maybe

What do you miss?
Warmth

Do you give out second chances too easily?
Yeah. But I hate it because it'll happen again

Ever felt that no one relates to you?
Yeah

Had plans and broke them?
Yep

When was the last time you saw your grandparents?
CNY

Who are you jealous of?
No one?

Sunday, April 4, 2010

26 facts and 13 secrets

41 FACTS:

Today
1. Talk to a boy or girl you like?: Yep!
2. Learn anything new? Yeah~ Kind of
3. Talk to an expert? What kind of expert?
4. Miss someone? Yes :(

FACTS: Last Person Who
5. Laid in your bed other than you? Mom
6. Made you cry? Him
7. You went to the movies with? Xiao Hei
8. Went to the mall with you? Xiao Hei
9. You showered with? Myself.
10. Said they loved you? Xiao Hei & Mommy

FACTS: General stuff
11. Wheres your favorite hangout? Home!
12. What are you most scared of this second? The cig smell on me and the truth
13. Does anyone like you? I hope?
14. Have you ever farted? DUH?
15. Are you lonely right now? Nope
16. Song stuck in your head right now? Ai Mei Na Me Jian Dan
17. Been on t.v or radio? Not really.
18. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap? Yeah.
19. What color shirt do you have on now? Red
20. Name three things that you do every day? Text, sleep and eat
21. Whats your favorite show? Kang Xi Lai Le
22. Who got you to join Myspace? Fareez
23. Wish someone was next to you this morning when you woke up? Not really. I look horrendous in the morning.
24. What web site do you visit the most? Facebook.com
25. Do you have plants in your room? Nope
26. Who was the last person to hug you? Xiao Hei

13 SECRETS
1. WHAT IS YOUR DISPLAY NAME ABOUT? A Little Ice? Allen's way of saying he's a little cold
2. WHERE WAS YOUR DISPLAY PICTURE TAKEN? Work place
3. WHATS YOUR HEADLINE MEAN? What headline?
4. WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD? Pained.
5. WHATS YOUR MOST VALUED POSSESSION? My blanket ("V")
6. HOW ARE THINGS IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP? Good for now :D
7. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WOULD YOU? Nope
8. IF YOU COULD BE AN ANIMAL FOR A DAY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE? Puppy.
9. EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE? Maybe?
10.WHO IS YOUR MOST RECENT EX? Him.
11. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A LARGE AUDIENCE? Not really.
12. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Face
13. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY ORDER FROM STARBUCKS? Hot mocha

Saturday, April 3, 2010

clash of the titans

Been such a long day. Texted April & Xiao Hei (Yeah WTF. No point hiding lor. That stupid boy went to tell everyone who asked him. GRR) in the morning. TEN PLUS IN THE MORNING CAN!!

OMG!! To think I just slept at 5am the previous night.

And Hei still could reply me. HAHA!! And Hei has the same surname as Jo. That's the only thing I remember. I think I suck at remembering Chinese names.

So texted him all the way till 12 where I have to get up to shower.

Sat at the living room for a while and Mom came over and talked to me.

I KNEW SHE WAS SUSPICIOUS OF HEI WHEN SHE SAW US HAVING SUPPER TOGETHER!!

I knew it!!

Anyways, went to work and was such a busy day. Texted Ken and asked if he put anyone at 7 to 3am.

He said no and I was like WTFFFFF!!!

Then he called and I didn't even asked for Jo's opinion, I just told Ken to let Jo work a bit more.

Last day working with Jo. I be super sad.

Worked till 11:20 and went off to watch a movie with Xiao Hei and his TW friends.

Went into the movie theater without knowing which movie it is. Super odd.

At least there are one good thing about the movie. It ends when I hope it does. There are just some movies that just goes on and on when it should end.

Asked if I wanted to go Arena after that and NOPE. At least not when I look so horrendous.

So went for supper and home it is.

Okay. I'm bored now so I shan't blog anymore.

MANICURE TOMORROW!!!

And oh!! I only have $27 left in my bank. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET MY PAY COME IN BY MONDAY.

Cause I wanna shop with April!!!

Friday, April 2, 2010

我哈台啊

One more person...

Just ONE more person who asks me about XH,

I'll... I'll...

I'll roll my eyes and smile while saying I don't know in a very annoying tone because I don't have any other better comeback.

Well, no one is allowed to ask me about Yoyo too.

LOL!!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Hold my hand

Hold my hand and never let go.

I really do wonder how many times have I said this in total.

LOSER FACEBOOK CHAT

Nicholas

now girls all got money can le

my ex

she left me fgor anotherguy

who has a bigger dick

Joycelyn

im not talking with you anymore

kthxbai

Nicholas

bye bitch

Joycelyn

lol

bye loser with small dick