Anyway, i've just finished reading [A Child Called 'It']. A lot of people is telling me how gross it is when The Mother tormented David. True, it IS very traumatizing for the author itself, but for me, i didn't really feel anything. But i couldn't deny the fact that i was touched by David's Hero. The policeman. One sentence he said touched me. "It's kids like you that make me want to be a policeman." A simple yet moving line. I don't know why but i just feel this warm fuzzy sense in my tummy after i hear it.


Different people have different views and perspective before, during and after reading this book. I'm not sure about others, but personally, before i read this book, i heard about the gross part and was afraid to try it. During the book, i wasn't fazed by the things The Mother did, but WHY did The Mother did it. I had this burning question like the author. Why. I came out with a lot of possibilities but still didn't feel like either one would fit in there.


The most logical and common thought would be that The Mother is psychologically unstable (obvious!) but what caused The Mother to react in that way. I placed a very big factor on David's dad. Because throughout the whole book, the father being a man. Being an adult man, didn't fight very much for his son. Yes, he did tried. He quarreled with The Mother and tried to sneak some food for David but that's all. After that he spent his life as a homeless drunkard.


Or what did David do to make him look like a 'bad boy' in The Mother's eye. Or did David did something that The Mother did too in her childhood, and was punished the same way?


Anyway, i guess i could only continue to guess until i find the squel to this book. But at least i know that David (or Dave) is living happily with his family is good enough. It's even better to know that he's able to climb out of his own dark past and give his family a better treatment.


But after the whole book, two things that dawned on me was how fortunate i am. David went through so much before hiding himself in his own protective shell. But whereas, little trials and tribulations (from little people) and the little things that pierced me in church, brought me down. I became protective and defensive because of that. I hardened my heart towards Christians because of that. I felt that i was so little thinking about it. But still, i wouldn't change my stand towards Christians. IF CHRISTIANS CAN CURSE AND LIVE THEIR LIVES LIKE HOW ANY NORMAL PEOPLE CAN, WHY CALL THEMSELVES CHRISTIANS?


Anyway, the second thing that that enveloped me after the book is how determined David is to let himself survive. How mentally strong he is that led him to be able to win this game. He planned ahead. He think ahead. He tries to keep himself ahead. He's very much prepared to be a winner. He had. The Mother forced him to be a player in her game. Instead of being played, David plays the game too. That's one thing i respect about him. His will.


Sheesh, i've ranted about the book for a long long time. But this is just to prove to April that i am trying very hard to get my communication back on track. Enough of speaking in Singlish. *grins*