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Sunday, April 13, 2008

Break up

Yes, i'm unattached now. A relationship that lasted from 26th January to 13th April.

I thought i would be sad, but surprisingly i was feeling quite neutral. I thought i will have the feeling of 'cling-ness' on ~~boyfriend~~ ex-boyfriend. I thought that i would be used to have him around my side. But alas.

And i remembered the first time when he didn't contact me for 3 days straight, i felt very weird and uneasy. I was so used to him calling me everyday that when he didn't contact me for 3 days, i felt so awkward.

But nowadays, when ex-boyfriend didn't contact me for 2 weeks straight, i didn't even feel weird. It could be that 3 days incident made me not have this sense of depending-ness on him anymore.

I was really glad that ex-boyfriend didn't contact me for this long period of time. If he did, i might not be able to handle this breakup so nonchalantly. I might not even be able to make a joke out of it.

The first message he sent me today, "Do you still love me?" I didn't reply. I was busy with father's income tax. Thea and ex-boyfriend both sent me a message at the same period of time. And to prove that i wasn't biased, i didn't reply either of their message.

The second message came soon after from ex-boyfriend saying, "Thanks for the time we were together. It's not that you are wrong or i am right. (I almost, note ALMOST, replied him this, "So does this mean that i'm right and you're wrong? *coughs* I digress. And no, i didn't reply him that.) But you will find a man that is much more better than me. Take care, hope we still be the closest friend."

And yes, i still haven't reply him his message. Will reply him tomorrow morning, i guess. Since i'm darn tired now. All the more since i'm also consoling April who broke up yesterday.

Is it that it's the season for breakups now? *scratches chin*

Anyway, i was talking to one of my online friends just now. I was also telling him that i just broke up.

Me: Oei, very saddening leh. I just broke up. Console me leh.
Him: Serious?
Me: Fei hua
Him: So is you break up with him or he break up with you
Me: Him lor. I so angry, i should say it first de lor. Now let him say first, so unfair
Him: ROFL, later you who say first, he ask you why, then how you answer?
Me: Yea hor. So should i go and ask him why?
Him: Then suay suay he blame you
Me: SEH, then i'm at the losing end sia. SHEESH. Not fair.
Him: ROFL
Me: Don't care le. Console me, if not i jio you
Him: *stun*
Me: Console lah. Cause very sian leh.
Him: *console*
Me: ......
Me: ---------------------silence----------------------------
Me: I JUST BROKE UP LEH.
Him: So you want me to jio you?
Me: Dun wan. I rather Tooru jio me
Me: You go VK lor, then dun need you to jio me, i confirm will go jio you
Him: You think i can go vk meh?
Me: Seriously speaking ar? Cannot.
Him: PHEW
Me: Heng sia

Urms, i digress once again. Anyway, the main point i wanted to bring across was the "why". I didn't really want to ask him 'why' because i see no purpose in doing that. But i know a lot of couples would ask this question. No idea as to why though.

Anyway, i'm very grateful to the fact that i am not crying over the fact that i just got a broke up. Either that or it could be that the impact hasn't sunk into me yet. But still, i guess the long period of time we didn't contact each other helped me to not get so used to him. Thus minimizing the pain i had for this breakup.

Alright, since i'm officially unattached now. I can make all those relationship jokes once again. I CAN NOW LOUDLY PROCLAIM THAT I LIKE TOORU, WATARU, XUAN, BENJAMIN(TOH) AND CALEB. *grins*