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Sunday, May 11, 2008

WARNING

The following material may contain offensive material that may or may not include indecent verbal insults to certain individuals.

Readers discretion are advised.

In other words, if you're an on fire Christian, don't read this blog entry.

OH MY FREAKING GOD!!!

I suddenly feel like i'm a ~~Christian~~ ~~shepherd~~ leader all over again.

Late night baths. Replying mails. Integrating. ~~Manipulating~~ Talking people over.
OH MY GOD!!!

Shucks. I realized that some people are quite affected when i say, "OH MY FREAKING GOD" or "OH MY FUCKING GOD".

So as to be nice, next time i shall say... ...

OH
MY

GUAN
YIN
MA

(:

Now. Will that be better?

Damn. I suddenly feel like ranting about Christians again.

It's like at times, i feel that i am quite okay with Christians. But at other times, i hate them to the core.

Will i offend a lot of people if i talk about this?

*ponders*

BAH. This is MY blog right? So i have the rights to type this out.

It's like, when i see good Christians (meaning Christian who shows a good testimony), i will like Christianity as a whole. But when i see Christians showing a bad testimony, i will get so angry (because it reminds me of the older generation of my previous church). And then, i would hate ALL Christians.

Call me stereotyping. But ain't Christians used to stereotype? They ~~stereotype~~ group people. The weaker ones and the stronger ones. On fire ones and not so on fire ones. O.o

Tell me again that Christians are different from people that's in the world. Tell me again that you don't group people. Tell me again that you see everyone equally? LIARS!!!

*points finger and laugh hysterically*

I know i will offend quite some people for these. Nevermind. I shall put a very cheem disclaimer in front later.

I don't know how many people know this. But in actual fact, i don't hate God (if there's One up there.) I just cannot understand the people who chooses to carry the cross for Him.

On second thoughts. I don't even know if there's a God up there. I don't even know if there's another higher being up there. I don't know if we look like ants to the big guy up there.

Scarly the big guy up there treats us like how we treat the ants. Or bed bugs. Or fleas.

PEOPLE. START TREATING BACTERIA AND VIRUSES WITH RESPECT!!! WE MIGHT BE THOSE IN THE BIG GUY'S EYES.

To me, i am not sure about all those stuff. Even when i was a Christian. And i feel like i was worshipping the pastors instead of God.

Anyway, i had this thought about heaven and hell. Heaven is just a nicer way of explaining death and vice versa for hell. So in other words, heaven is just hell with lots of nice fancy decoration. Taking away all the nice frilly sides, heaven is pretty much like hell.

And that's what it is if there's even a heaven and hell.

So if you want to experience hell. Just live on earth. If hell means eternal punishment, living on earth would be close to that too. Eternal punishment until you die.

Till now, i have no idea on how should i view Christianity. I had seen too many ugly Christians to let myself even trust Christians. I saw the ugly scheming side of me when i was a Christian. I only changed for the better after i backslided. You wouldn't want to know how scheming i can be when i was a Christian.

Even when you're in the realm of Christianity, it's still a dog eat dog world. Only the strongest will survive in their eyes.

Tell me again that i'm following God and not pastors and leaders. LIARS!!!

I had lost a few years being ~~a Christian~~ an adult. I didn't get to enjoy my teens life. And so i'm trying to get it back. Forgive me if i seemed childish. I just want to enjoy my teens before it's too late... again.

HELL. WHY AM I SO EMOTIONAL NOWADAYS.

Nevermind. The cheerful Ching will soon be back.

P/s: I've heard that we ain't going to eat in restaurants tomorrow. Father wants to da bao fast food and eat at reservoir there. WAHLAO. I don't feel good now. I hope Jie would recommend something better. =/