Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Affected
I seriously wanted to upload pictures for this blog, for i had taken a number of them on the way to school. I even went to the extent of borrowing the cable from GL before he went home. BUT i got more important issues i want to address first.


The last thing you should do is to come close to tamper with my passion.
Even thinking of hindering would prove to be destructing (more to you than me, i'm sure)
That is seriously the last thing you should do.
For this is not only evoking my anger and hatred,
But more importantly, FEAR.
Especially since it's something i had bet with everything i have, my life.
And when i start fearing about it,
I will do anything to remove my fear.
Inclusive of removing anything and EVERYthing.
Even if it means removing you entirely and completely out of my life.
Come close in destroying me,
Be prepared to be destroyed too.
You never want to know what i had went through and learnt in hogc
With the last ounce of energy,
With the last breathe i can take,
I will vow to give you back what you had graciously rained on me


Now, it's no longer about grades. It's about how close you come in tampering with my life. So no matter what grades i get, may it be good or bad, As or Ds, i can't bring myself to forgive you entirely.


I can say it very clearly. I am AFRAID.


But ever since young, we were taught that fear is wrong. So we have to be strong, even if it's just a pretense.


How many times had i felt like crying in class today?
The first, the second, and it doesn't stop there
Thrice.
For three times, tears almost flowed down
But i had to stop myself
I had to tell myself that no matter how weak i get
I can't cry
At least not in front of anyone
For that will be a form of weakness
And that is definitely not allowed
No matter how much i wanted to, i can't
Even if it is just a pretense
I have to be strong
Even if it's just a fake front
I still have to go ahead with it



And even when HH chatted with me, i can't even chat back. HH, THE JOKER LEH. Yes, i was that affected by this issue.


無聊,無知,無能!!!




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