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Monday, January 12, 2009
Yeowch
Which kind of guys are worst? Drinkers, smokers or gamblers? Without hesitation, i replied "Gamblers" with rage mixed with hurt in my eyes. It's something close, close to my heart as to why i can't forgive gamblers. With my own eyes, i see how my family crumbled because of gambling. There's no difference. It's the same, no matter who it is, it's the same. I detest gamblers. Not because they waste their life, their youth and their money. They lose their sanity, their love and their family. Mom said dad is hopeless, one who ruined our family by being obsessed with horse racing and stocks. Dad said mom can't be helped, one who ruined herself by drowning herself in lottery. I don't know who's worse. Both are just trying to numb themselves by unorthodox methods. I guess i'm not any better. Injecting myself with church-y stuff, trying to forget about all these, only to let myself fall deeper and getting more scars as the day pass. It's a scary memory. Seeing creditors when i'm not even in Primary school. Knowing my very own father not being able to go back to his house when i'm barely six. *shakes head* Drinkers? Smokers? Gamblers? Gamblers are the worst. PERIOD!! I'm really glad Dad has the determination to stop himself. I've seen him at home more than i had for the last eleven years. *pauses* Alright, maybe that is a bit too exaggerated. But i do indeed see him more during this semester in compared to the last. I don't need rich acquaintances. I just want a family. (: |
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