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Monday, April 20, 2009

Total of 1810 words!!

I've been on Plurk and i realized one thing. Most of the peeps are either

Complaining about the weather.

Complaining about school reopening tomorrow

Complaining about BOTH the weather and school reopening.

Oh man. I'm really insecure about school reopening. I can't seem to find one thing that can actually make me look forward or be excited about the entire situation.

I just simply hate things that i can't be certain with.

Most of the times, i am actually secretly glad that i do not know anyone in my new class because i don't have to put on a happy facade or actually bother to entertain those peeps i know. But at times like this, a little part of me do hope that April/Amon/any other peeps that i know in STA can be in the same class as me.

Maybe we might have some disagreements during the problem but i'm sure we are able to handle it like adults. (read: tearing each other throats apart in order to try and prove our own points)

And i just went into our reading materials for Arts Criticism and Analysis and am glad that my module was on Friday. It wasn't a lot but i don't think i have enough confidence for anything related to school now.

Damn.

Insecure. Uncertain. Confused. Uncomfortable.

Tell me how awesome i'm feeling now.

Anyways, it's time for you to read a lengthy post now. If you think what i've written above is a lot, think again. I got days of stuff un-blog-ged.

So yes, i think my last proper entry stopped just before Friday. And what happened after then?

Nothing.

Other than bringing my lappie down to school before going over to Gary's...

I slept for 2 hours before scrambling out of bed and into the bathroom. Apparently, i was half an hour late in meeting April. Thank gosh i managed to tell her that i would be late before she left her house.

After reaching there, we went to two different tables to install our CS4 pack. The guy who was supposed to be helping me told me that the installation should be done in 3 hours.

So while grumbling, both April and i went for our brunch and managed to spend 45 minutes slowly munching, rice grain by rice grain.

And after that, we decided to try the roller coaster stimulator. We took two rounds in a go and it literally had my tummy lurching after the ride. There wasn't any thrill in it. Just tons of shaking and tossing you about violently and randomly.

Not just that. We had to wait for a good ten to fifteen minutes for them to clean the area around the stimulator as that machine doesn't work with dirt around it.

After the ride, we were sitting around in the arcade trying to stop the lurching feeling in my tummy. It was then when i saw this really cute kid.

He was so cute i almost decided to kidnap him. He actually follows my actions and smiled at me.

I'm not a pedophilia and i insist he thought i was interesting.

I really find him so cute that i literally told April that the kid might actually be in his 18s/19s and had some weird spell that turned him into 4 or 5.

Both April (and Gary when i told him about this the next day) gave me this look that i can never forget.

Anyways, after that, April got her fake lip ring and i got a new wallet.
*smiles*

And by some miracle, we manage to spend three hours doing irrational walking around CWP. Then, we went back to school and checked out laptops.

Don't ask how pissed we were.

The moment we went back, the guy told April that he just finally was able to help her install her CS4. And guess what? Mine wasn't even logged in after the system update.

*fumes*

I was there, complaining to my lappie while hoping someone would pay some attention to me (if not, i'd just look like some insane siao zhar bor) and thank gosh, someone did. As he was helping me, i purposely complained to April just for the sake to let the guy who installed for me to know how pissed i was.

And truth to be told, i felt guilty doing that to him now. It wasn't exactly his fault that he has to look after so many laptops while the system was down.

But i was still rather pissed then and was complaining to everyone. Even to Amon who's on the phone with me at that time.

Still, i insist that the random complaining does have its effects. I was the first one to be done even though April started her installation a few minutes early than me. I was done by 2 plus while April and Valerie was only done by 4.

So, after that was over to Gary's. I love his ACed room after that seemingly endless journey in the sun towards his house.

And the next day was watching 17 again with Garweeeee. I'm still not rather sure if i would consider Zac Efron as hot or not.

Plus, i had Big Mac for dinner!!! More of supper though. I love pickles. Maybe i'll buy Subway after school for dinner on Tuesday, just for the pickles. And KFC for Wednesday. MCD for Thursday. Yoshi/LJS for Friday.

I planned my meals and wanted to plan my wardrobe. It was then i realized, all my clothes are in the laundry basket, unwashed yet!!!

And then, there was today. I woke up at 7 plus, thinking it was almost 10 and decided not to go back to sleep. When i finally realized it was merely 7, i grumbled and tried to fall back to sleep. Not promptly, but at least i got some more sleep...

... until 9 plus 10. I've not idea why, but Mom suddenly came into my room and jokingly punched my face.

Punched.me.in.my.FACE.

Nah. She must be joking, i'm sure. It doesn't even hurt. Though there is a weird patch on my cheek that slightly resembles a bruise.

Just kidding. Mom's a gentle (just albeit fierce and random) and wonderful lady.

Very apparently, i can't say bad stuff about Mom because i still want my allowance... pretty badly.

So yes, with very unsatisfied amount of sleep, i went over to Gary's. He was still wrapped up in his warm blankets under the AC when i reached.

*squints*

C'mon babeh. Pass me my feathers, clothes peg, durians, spiders and maybe a loudspeaker or two. If i don't get enough sleep, he won't either.

*grins*

Nah, i'm not that mean... yet.

I didn't even get the chance to bother him today. I was just happily lazing on his couch, booting up my lappie when he woke up. I didn't even prod his sides yet.

*growls*
There goes my chance.

But anyways, i snoozed quite a couple of times over there so i'm pretty much contented about the amount of sleep i had today.

And yes, did i mention? I was literally WOWing over Vi Vi's art assignment the first thing i saw when i reached their house. Trust me, it looks awesome!!!

So yes, here i am. After typing 1220 words (i copied & pasted into Word document), i'm feeling a little kinder and decided to ~~torment~~ 'treat' your eyes to hideous picture of me!!!

*cues evil laughter*

I've totally no idea what caption to put for this.

I'm smiling. You should be scared. ^^

Why is he snapping pictures while i'm rearranging my fringe?

AHHHHS. The palm of... Gary?!!!

I had no idea this was me if i didn't pay attention to my jacket and necklace.

I was sweating a lot in that jacket. Please don't mind my half melted foundation, aites?

I'm not going to send Gary the photos (unless he tells me what he was thinking about on the bus).
For i would really come out with the worst case scenario for him.
Heh hehs. And er, this photo is up here just for him to grab.
Told ya, i wasn't that mean. Believe me now?
:D

This is revenge for the center parting he did for my fringe. Would take it off once he notices it.
:D

Errs. Center parting plus fringe behind ear.
*big smile*
Would take it off once he notices this.

And i was bored in the roller coaster stimulator. So i started to take pictures. I miss my black-ish hair. It's fading at an alarming rate now.

And after this picture, i was immediately flung into the air. April didn't gave me any warning before she started the stimulator.

And i forgot to post this picture up. Was at the bathroom of the hotel place we went the other day at Clark Quay.

And another random photo i forget that i had stolen from Gary.

I'm thinking about a lot of things now and i'm more confused then ever. And the song i'm listening to isn't making it any better.

有時，口頭的遺忘是心中渴望能得到
有時，口頭的遺忘是心中奢望能忘記
有時，口頭的遺忘是心中建得保護色
有時，口頭的遺忘是心中還無法理解

我知道，我知道現實並沒有那麽仁慈…
我知道，我知道不是說可以想要忘記，就能忘記…
我知道，我知道忘記的總是比記得的還要來得多，可是卻又不能完全忘記…
我知道，我知道並不是我們可以想要忘記，而是只能選擇忘記，只能選擇假裝忘記… …

我真的很快樂，真的很快樂。

你知道快樂是什麽嗎？

快樂就是掩飾自己的悲傷對每個人微笑。

可是無論多麽的努力像每個人微笑，還是裝不住僞裝背後的憂傷。

我不是不能夠相信別人，
而是不敢再相信任何人。

到了最後，才發現原來自己還是個懦夫。
還是會怕痛… …