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Friday, May 1, 2009
Thanks man!!
Man. I so blame April for making me cry. Why is she the one breaking down the walls i'm trying so hard to build around myself again. Why did she come in, break down all my defenses and make me cry. I refuse to let myself cry. I refuse to let tears roll down my cheeks. To the extent where i can't even remember when was the last time i cried. But she did it again. She did it again. The tears of ultimate warmth, happiness and gratitude. She never told me this, but from her actions i can tell... ... if i die any one day, there will at least be someone crying over my death. Oh man. I'm crying all over again. Silently, without any of us realizing, she had become such an important person in my life. She's the only one, where i can complain everything to her, be so exasperated till i can't stop spouting expletives in front of her. I don't know why, but every single time, even if she doesn't know why am i so pissed/depressed/annoyed/whatsoever... she'd just appear, without asking what's wrong and holding me up. I didn't know how can someone know me so well. Know my level of pride so well. Know that i would never show how much pain i have inside me, never show that i'm actually crumbling on the inside while standing upright on the outside. She knew how much pride i have and that's why she would silently come beside me, support me, letting me lean my weight on her, letting me rest while continuing to pretending that everything is alright to the outside world. Oh gosh. I don't even know what i'm writing right now. I just can't wipe this honey-sweet tears and silent smile of gratitude off my face. Man, i really don't know what i'm writing about now. Will blog again when i get a hold of my emotions.  Thanks for everything. |
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