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Sunday, June 14, 2009

long wordy boring entry

Especially at nights like this, when i'm all alone in the dark, quiet house, alone in the shower. Especially at times like this, fear comes stronger than before.

Not because that i was afraid of the unknown in the dark but rather due to the fact in which i know that i'm alone, that i let my guard down, that i allow my thoughts to wander, that i let myself succumb to distress, insecurities and uncertainties.

And at times like this, i realized that i'm still a human. I'm still weak and defenseless.
That i'm just a human.

Ah wells. Maybe i should just keep the little vulnerable thoughts to myself and rant about other things instead.

First up,

MY INTERNAL BODY CLOCK IS RUINED!!!

I had been sleeping really really late (or early, technically speaking) for the past two weeks and i haven't tried to adjust it back for class which is starting in A DAY.

(And having Gary to laugh at me in my face that he is just starting his holidays is not helping... at ALL.)

Oh man. I can already foresee myself trudging to school on Monday without any sleep. For i normally sleep at the time when i'm supposed to wake up for school. Not that i never functioned properly (and not that badly actually) without any sleep in school but that was during Year 1, where classes are supposedly easier. I have serious doubt that i would be able to fare marginally well if i go to class without any sleep from this semester onwards.

And not only is school starting in a day, History UT is coming in TWO. And i haven't downloaded all my 6Ps (not that i have all of them in the first place), much less revise. And i have to memorize three time periods in just one day?

Not that it's impossible, but it's not as simple as it is. For the art time period and the music time period of the same name might be from different years. Oh good lord, DAMMIT!!

Ah wells. Moving on to happier stuff.

I CLAIMED GARY'S PSP AS MINE!!!
(for now)

Until he asks it back, it shall just keep quiet and pretend that it's mine.
*big smile*

Now i'm hoping that he gets 2 DS, 2 laptops, 2 TVs, 2 ipods, 2 of EVERYTHING!!!

Okay, maybe that's a little too farfetched. But can you imagine it? Gary lending me his PSP... and i get to keep it!!! (realize how i refuse to put 'for now' at the end of the last sentence? My own little private fantasy world rocks!!!)

And double dammit, i just realized i have another Anaylsis & Critic UT on Friday. I'm doomed. So doomed.

I need 6Ps. NOW!!!

But honestly, life sometimes really suck. Yes, holidays thing are one (apparently i'm jealous of Gary able to sleep in for the next two weeks despite the fact that i were in my holidays for the past fourteen days) and UTs are definitely close behind.

But none as sucky as having to go to class for 45 minutes just for the UT. I have no idea why can't my rest day be on Wednesday *glances mournfully at April*. And after National Day, my rest day would be on Thursday instead of Tuesday. Isn't that random?

And after Tuesday UT, i'm supposed to go have dinner with parents, zeh, cousins, grandmomo and god-knows-who-else. The best thing is, i don't even know where and when. And if Mom actually expects me to organize this, she can be prepared to face some irresponsible shit from me.

Anyways, i'm supposed to talk about happier stuff, right? So yes, back to Gary's PSP.
*rubs hand gleefully together*

I had been playing Crisis Core since last night and somehow Zack and Genesis doesn't look half that bad.

Yes yes, i play games based on how hot/cute/visually appealing the charactors are, do you have any serious problems with that?

*smiles sweetly - Jane's style*

Most people wouldn't find me a fan of any games (think of me ditching Cabal, Light VS Dark -blah blah blah- within two days) and many would be taken aback (pleasantly or not is not up to me to judge) that i actually stayed with Crisis for more than 24 hours.

I normally would play, sleep, wake up and don't feel like playing it anymore.

But i still want my echochrome. Or another game that's similar to it that could be played on lappie. So i can actually play it during class/3rd meeting without letting the faci find out that i'm actually only nodding and pretending to listen while i was actually playing a random game.

And yes, even Maple. I stopped going into the game ever since Gary killed me in it, so as to speak. But no, i wasn't killed by a snail. I'm still not that bad yet.

It was just because he called me while i was hitting some cutesy mobs that's at a higher level than me (i'm a mage, i can hit mobs that are higher than me and survive, as long as i'm a mile away) and i picked up his call and i just say 'hi' and i died.

Yes, that's it.

The end of my cutsey character, Lynniii3.

Oh yes, i mentioned that Kuku gave me an A a few entries ago but i haven't talk about the comment he gave me.

He said

" that's a rather good explanation of a simple choice. You have a rather mature view of things, which is a great asset for your art."

- as quoted.

YAY!! But anyways, i was quite interested in our RJ question of that day too.

Reflection Journal Question:
You are given your own name card with just the word "ME" written on it. As part of an exhibition titled "Who Am I", describe where you would place this card on a large, white, empty gallery wall. Explain your reason for placing it there.

So yes, what would your choice be? Please tell me why. I'm just interested.

*batter eyelids and smile*

AND OMG. People aren't sleeping at 420 in the morning. MSN popups!!

Owh. Sleepover at Nick's house. Why do i want to go to his house when my house is like so much nearer to the school. But honestly, i wonder who would go and would it be fun over there.

And man. Nate is such a bastard.

nk freedom says (4:22 AM):
u invite lo

NATE(@)| get high and kiss the sky says (4:23 AM):
serious ah
then u wld see the world record for the fastest time ppl exit frm a msn convo

Anyways, sorry for such a wordy post. I better go off and Crisis a bit more.

TATAS!!!