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Saturday, June 12, 2010

FTW = Fuck This World :D

Man. I just spent a few hundred bucks on online shopping. And if you must know, I don't do online shopping because I had a phobia. I got like 70 odd dollars cheated before. Like someone ran away with it. Totally disappeared.

So, that's why I don't really do online shopping, like anymore since then.

But I went onto this website and got hooked on. And I spent another few hundred dollars there. And I'm so afraid that they wouldn't confirm my order. Yes, I've already transferred the money, FYI.

So, yeah. One of the weighing things on my mind.

Another? Oh man. Please don't let me start ranting on H. Seriously.

I can't take drunkards. In my past and now. Yes, even now.

I'm slowly taking a lot which I didn't do in the past. I used to not say lovey dovey stuff at all. You would most probably see me dead first before I say "love you" to a guy and seriously mean it. Ditto that to talking about how I feel, backing down or fighting back, I used to just let things go. Like, go.

So, I've been trying hard enough but honestly, I CAN'T TAKE DRUNK PEOPLE.

And don't understand how come drunk people can't control themselves.

Well, I've gotten drunk enough before. Drunk enough to push someone away and almost looked like I'm picking a fight. Yeah, Michael looked at me and said, "How come you act like you are drunk when you didn't drink." I looked at him and grinned and he went, "OH!"

So yeah, I did get my fair share of drinking before but I don't say anything wrong. I know if I start saying anything, I would say some really ugly things out so I don't speak. I just stand in a corner, hug a random girl (that I know, please!!) and mumble, "I'm dizzy. I'm feel like I fucking want to puke". And when people knows I'm in this state, this normally just ignore me.

They know I would continue like this until I recover slightly. And if anyone talks to me, they would get ignored. If anyone touches me, they'll get pushed or punched.

Yeah, I'm not at all a nice girl once I get a good amount of alcohol in my system. But I normally refrain from doing that because I hate drinking with people I don't know. And most of the time, I'm there with people I don't know. The only time I got that drunk as said in the above was because I was sitting beside this guy who was bored and I told him I don't play, and so I drank.

So yeah, we basically drank and drank. And just continue to drink.

That's why I got that said drunk. But I was still clear of what's happening. I just felt dizzy. And I didn't puke. I insist. I just felt like it. I didn't!!

But yes, that's why I said, I have no idea why some people couldn't control their speech. As long as someone doesn't touch me physically, I would basically just ignore everyone. And even if someone talks to me, and I'm on okay terms with that person, meaning my friend, not just any person I've met twice, I would talk to that person. Normally.

Yes. I still don't get how H calls me when he's drunk and he just go ahead and sprout nonsense. I couldn't stand it. How I wish he would just shut up and not call me when he's drunk.

It's better guessing that if he's drunk or not then hear him spouting nonsense and therefore knowing he's drunk.

If he's going to call me and tell me that he's not going to come back to Singapore, then please, tell me when you're awake.

Or if you're going to tell me that you're clubbing and have girls by your side, please, I rather you don't tell me.

Because I really don't know if you're being serious or not. Because most of the time, you speak a lot of truth and have your true emotions magnified when you're drunk. I'm serious. I've observed.

So yeah, when you tell me that, I automatically goes into a red alarm zone.

Save both yourself and myself the trouble and THINK, for goodness sake, think before calling me.

Better, just send a text over would do fine. And for anything else, wait till you wake up then talk about it.

I've seen you talk when you're drunk and you know what, I'm much happier with you telling me the same things when you aren't.

Because at least I feel like I'm talking to some person who is going to tell me this seriously.

And to be honest, I would feel easier to give in and the ache for losing you when you're awake rather than you're drunk. It sucks to talk to you this way.

So signing off in a very annoyed and pissed mood,

KTHXBAIIII!!!

Fuck this world. Peace!!
(LOL!!)