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Monday, March 10, 2008
Backsliders
How come? How come to leaders a backslider is always a bad person?Is it that backsliders do not have emotions? Is it that backsliders are people without a heart? Is it that backsliders are people who can't feel? Is it that backsliders are NOT PEOPLE? A backslider cries more than you do when you cry in the presence of God. The hurts and pains they had endured silently, do you ever know? How could you just dismiss them with mere words? They were hurt by YOU, and do YOU even know that? Quit thinking that backsliders are bad people or bad influences. They ain't. Who are you to judge backsliders anyway? I personally think that backsliders are good people and good influences. At least, i know that backsliders have a heart. They can feel. They are true. They build genuine relationships from the bottom of their heart. They have no motives when they go and help someone. They do not have any schemes in their hearts when they went forward to make friends. At least i know that backsliders are more innocent and pure in comparison to you guys. Don't have this misconception that backsliders leave church because of boyfriends, friends or insecurities. Backsliders leave church because they are hurt. The pain they got from you is too much to bear. They crumble underneath it. They were crushed by it. If they do not leave, they might just die from it. The first time i cried out for help from you, you dismissed me by a call. By a wave of your hand. I couldn't imagine what will happen to me if April wasn't there to support me. The first time i cried before you and that was the last. You never know what's on the inside. Backsliders had never thought of destroying your church. They never want to harm any of your people. It's YOU that's having this spirit of anger, revenge and hatred. That's why YOU think that we want to ruin your church. In actual fact, that's the last thing in our heads. We turn our heads away when we see you. It hurts us just to see you for one second. The memories. The scars. Those scars that never seems to fade. Those pain that couldn't seem to subside. As long as my heart is still beating for a day, it will still remember those bleeding moments. Backsliders seem to be ever so fierce on the outside. But we ain't on the inside. We were just merely being defensive. We were just merely being afraid of you. Hit a puppy till he bled everyday. After a week, tell me if the puppy would try to act aggressive in front of you. Tell me if the puppy will try to bite you when you come past his comfort zone with you. It's the same. Call it animal instinct. Call it human instinct. Call it nature. But it's the truth. We are just merely being defensive with you around. We don't want you to come into our comfort zone. We are afraid that you will hurt us again. We're tired of nights where we cry ourselves to sleep. We're tired of mornings where we wake up with pillows soaked with tears. We do not wish to see that ever again. We know that with you people around, these situations will happen again. That's why we don't want to see you. We don't even want to SEE you. Can you feel the pain in our hearts? Can you hear our cries? Can you see our tears? Can you at least treat us as HUMANS? |
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