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Thursday, June 12, 2008

When rock becomes pop

I'm having my supper just as i'm typing this sentence on Word document. Time check: 11.10pm.

Alright. Edit. It's 2.14pm on the NEXT DAY. I was doing everything except blogging. But to speak of it, i had forgotten what i had done yesterday.

Anyway, i still remember some things i want to blog. *gasp* INTRODUCING THE MAGICAL POWER OF HANDPHONE'S DRAFTS AND WORD DOCUMENT!!

Yes, i typed some topics in there beforehand.

Alright. Moving on.

I just read Haylie's MSN nic and i started to think. Her nic was, "Better to not love and be loved".

I had this thought before. And it was also on my personal message about a week ago. It goes like this, "I'm not worthy enough to love and be loved."

Okay. We're still teenagers alright. All these nitty gritty stuff entices us so much.

Anyway, i started to think about something very close to our lines. "It's better to find someone who loves you rather than someone whom you love."

I once thought this sentence was very true, but in the end, only to find out IT'S THE SAME.

The only way to stay happy is WITHOUT a boyfriend/girlfriend.

Anyway, i think i had told April before that i would rather choose someone who likes me than i like. She couldn't accept my logic at first but as time goes by, even myself can't seem to accept it any longer.

Because liking someone is illogical.

And most probably i chose someone who likes me but i don't like as a stead and it turns out horrible. And after choosing someone wrong for at least once, the next time you would have learnt to choose your guy/girl.

For me, i wouldn't randomly choose any guys that like me. I would have been more careful. As bad relationships can easily tire one out.

In the past, when someone likes me, i can automatically like them back. I think that's quite common though. ASK YOURSELF. I'm sure at some point of time, that would have happened at least once right?

But not anymore. You gone through it, you would have understand it.

Okay. I think i had spoke enough for today on this topic. Let's move on.

The few of us went to the Milo cheering event thing yesterday and i didn't really enjoy it. Not very fun to me, you see.

The only fun thing i could get out of the entire day is RANDOM INFATUATION!!!

That's what i'm really good at. April should know. I can walk on the streets and randomly like any guy that walks past. YES, that's me.

NAH. Kidding.

But my infatuation can get really random sometimes. Ask April, Haylie or Frez. They should know REAL well.

And i insist, i did not use the advantage of being a girl at Justin. I swear i didn't. *winks*

Okay. Cheering was mundane and got to be videoed down. We stuck with our own class and so that's okay. There's a lot of ants coming out from Ben's bag. We saw at least two or three of them crawling out. Dinner was KFC. Bugis was not fun. Suntec's Tekken 5 has no Li Li, so it's boring. Toys R Us makes us jealous of kids nowadays. And legs ached after i reached home.

So in short, yesterday was NO fun. Alright, except for the random infatuation.

And Zhi Jie wasn't as fun in real life compared to MSN. BOO.

Anyway, while Frez and i were going ga-ga over drums and electric guitar at Suntec, i heard "I simply live for you" playing in the shop beside the music store.

AND I KNOW THE LYRICS. I STILL REMEMBERED.

I could sing along to it. I'm FREAKED OUT.

Anyway, some random pictures before i continue with my wordy blog.

I didn't have enough sleep. That's why i need to catch a nap. And that reminds me of the bus i took to take the MRT. The bus uncle was driving at a speed of around 20km/h. OMIGOSH. It's a miracle that i wasn't late.

Me and Haylie. With GL as our background. TEEHEE.

Me. Haylie. Frez

The four ~~musketeers~~ bengs. AKA the golden hair gang. Right, the golden hair gang was a row in front of them. EH, NO LEH. AIYOZ, I DON'T KNOW WHERE THE GOLDEN HAIR GANG IS LIAO LAH. *winks*

Me with a bright red block on my face. Red eh. Matchy matchy with my top eh? NAH. I just want to show you how auntie i can look like at home. YES, i clipped my hair when i'm at home.

Alright, we can move on now. Enough scaring with the pictures.

I enjoy being in the center of attention. WAIT. I don't even know i'm in the center of attention. Most probably i was out in full goth before, so i didn't really care when i'm in half goth.

But i don't feel enough eyes on me yesterday. So stare at me more, stare at me more. *laughs*

Okay, i admit. To other people's situations, i can be sensitive enough. Not very, but i at least can know. But for myself, i could be as dense as ... ... a dense thing. =P. I couldn't sense anything if it were to concern me. And that's bad, i think.

Oh well. I had lived 17 years with it. So i'm fine with it.

*slaps myself* STOP writing about lovey dovey stuff. Not everyone likes it.

OKAY. Moving on to MUSIC.

Just to add on first, in case i forget later on. I had forgotten all the beats in our performance. And our senior is looking at it tomorrow. DOOMSDAY IS HERE PEOPLE, DOOMSDAY IS HERE!!

Alright, music.

I was listening to two main Visual Kei Jrock lately. 12012 and Versailles. And comparing these two bands, i think Visual Kei would slowly die out. 12012 started out like Versailles. Indie and underground. Dressed visually. Four hours of makeup and hair just for a performance under an hour.(Okay, that's Versailles). But as they signed on to companies, they toned down, trying to fit in to the mainstream.

12012's music is not rock to me anymore. It's leaning more and more towards pop now. Where's the boy that is dying and doesn't care about it anymore? Wataru, show us your magic.

I'm afraid. Afraid that Versailles over the years would have changed too. More and more mainstream. Though they were all like the best of the best (to me), and even one from the pioneer band that had brought Visual Kei into light. I forgot the name. L-- something if i'm not wrong. The L-- something had disbanded already and the guy was Versailles VOCALS.

I don't think they would change much, right?

If they do, i don't think Visual Kei had anymore stand in Jrock already, if they keep on going more and more into mainstream. YOU'RE VISUAL KEI. VISUAL KEI!!!

GAHS. I'm so irritated by the fact that more and more rock bands are leaning towards pop. Not that i hate pop, but i just don't like it.

I don't want songs that are created for what the people want. I want songs that are created because the song wanted it to be created in that way.

BAH.

Anyway, i didn't really want to talk about this. But it's in my phone's draft. There must be a reason as to why i typed that down yesterday on the way home. (I'm closing soon. Just a few paragraphs more.)

You know, i like drummers. But you don't have to be a drummer for me to like you. I like this particular thing, but you don't have to like the same thing in order for me to like you.

If i do, then this 'like' would be a very tiring situation for the two of us. Because liking something should come from your heart. You can't make yourself like something. You can act it out, but there will be no passion behind it. And this act couldn't go on for long if it wasn't true.

In the end, it'll only be a sad ending for everyone. A tired and sad ending.

Not knowing and never happening before are two things. You don't know i like you never means that i never liked you.

Time check: 2.59pm.

The must be one of the longest post i had taken to write a blog. From 11.10pm to 2.59pm. Okay fine, i wasn't consistently in front of the com during those hours.

P/s: Call my handphone instead of my house phone. I was unpleasantly woke up by my house phone and when i picked it up, the other party hung up. SHEESH. I was having a very sweet dream initially. And now i can't remember the dream. DAMN.

Time check again: 3.11pm.