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Friday, August 29, 2008
Insecurity
Gosh. I'm feeling so dead insecure right now.I had the weirdest dream ever. EVER. First, i dreamt that i was living in a dead weird hostel with Haylie and another guy and there's so much strange things happening. Not ghostly encounters, but it was strange things happening with all the surroundings and the people. I know i might not be blabbering sense right now but please bear with me. For i'm still in a very confused state of mind. I also remember hitting against the wooden hostel door to be let in because there were some danger outside and i had mud on me. Mud were flying everywhere and i was knocking on the wooden door wanting to be let in. I need a safe place. But the wooden door was too thick. The people inside couldn't hear my knocks. I had to change my plan. I risked dying by crossing over to another side of my hostel to knock on the glass panel. Finally, someone heard it and asked me to go over to the door where he would open it for me. Once inside, i just want to take a long warm shower but i realize that the shower was in a very strange position. It has no doors, no partition, just curtains. And i almost can't bathe in it. So is the fact that i wanted to go deep into sleep in my dream. But Haylie and another person in the hostel said i can't. Because some head from the department of the school is coming to come and check out what we're doing in the hostel. Alright, then fast forward. I went back to my own home. And this is where the scary part comes in. It was so vivid that i freaked out. I dreamt that Dada had a new wife. He betrayed Momo. I was so freaking scared when i dreamt of it. The face of that lady was so real. She had a face. She had an identity in my dream. I could clearly remember her face and everything in the house. I felt lost, fear, confusion. How in the world would my Dada do that? I got so insecure that i forced myself to wake up. Now with a heart that's beating so fast, i'm not sure what to expect next. I hope that would just be a dream and not reality. Alright, going away from this. For i need to. I have to. As i was saying, i was dead shag by the time i went offline yesterday. But i still couldn't sleep. I was tossing and turning and getting more pissed by myself as the minutes went past. I just want to sleep but i can't. ARGHS!! And oh yes. Before any more people irritate me with my MSN nic. Let me explain. THAT WAS JUST FREAKING LYRICS!!! Freaking NO can you ease my pain. Arghs!! |
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