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Friday, March 12, 2010

謝謝

As what Jo said, I really looked like crap the first day the breakup happened and I'm so much better now.

I think there really must be some sort of God up there, overlooking me. And God, if you listening or reading this right now, please please please give Gary the awesome people you've put in my life to help me through this phase of life. He must be feeling way worse than I am so please, help him through.

(I'm still not a Christian/Catholic whatsoever. I don't think I ever will be one again though.)

Really. I think what Gary said is right. I do have a lot of awesome people around me and I just have to open my eyes and appreciate them.

Thank you Ment for making me laugh when I really can't (he's technically the first one to know I broke up, even before I knew it. Haha.), gives me thumps on the back and friendly hugs to cheer me up.

Thank you April for asking me to go LAN once she saw the breakup FB stuff. I'm working everyday to not have the time to go LAN. And work is mostly boring but with little awesome snippets throughout the day so I don't really want to miss work. But I have a few people (Taiwanese horr!!) that I ask to go drink with me but have TOTALLY no idea who they are, so come protect me kay? :D

Thank you Wei Yi for SMSing me right in the morning when he saw the FB stuff too. And ebuddy me telling me not to do anything stupid. And asking how my eyes were. And talked consecutively to me for days (I deem them as concern too!!) and coming down to where I work.

Thank you Yanni for being there for me. While promising me to 'look after' me virtually, not letting me to do anything dumb.

Thank you Jo for trying to cheer me up and tell Xiao Xiong not to bully me because I just got dumped. And talking with Wei Yi, checking up on me with him. (Though she said Gary was a bad person for whatever happens. But don't think that way. Gary is a great guy and please don't think he's the bad guy in this story. Yeah, he was the one who initiated the breakup but I was the cause of it. So he isn't the bad guy this time.)

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Though he was the one who was 曖昧ing with other girls... in my opinion. But he has his explanation so let's leave this side of the story aside first.

Thank you Wendy for telling me not to emo.

Thank you Xiao Xiong for saying "可憐哦，眼睛都哭腫了". It makes me feel like I actually still do exist. That people still can see me and shower me with little bits of concern. But he turned around and bullied me straight after that though. -.-

Thank you Xiao Hei for hanging around me after he knew I got dumped. And promised to go drinking with me. Though I think the plan is going to get aborted. His friends (the Taiwanese bunch) asked him to go drink tomorrow at 9pm. How am I supposed to go? I'm working!! Anyways, he actually replied my texts, accompanied me through this rough patch and asked me to take care of myself. Now guess how old he is. He's the youngest of the bunch, kay. Wayyy younger than me and he already knew how to 安慰人了.

I know there are some more people on Facebook commenting on my relationship status change and if it's something that's trying to cheer me up, then thank you. If you're trying to laugh in my face then go away!!

Thank you everyone. I'm trying to get better and I think I already am way better than yesterday. I was folding hearts throughout the day thinking about him. But I didn't fold one heart today.

Though that doesn't mean I'm over him, but at least it means that I'm making progress.

Thank you guys for helping me through.

And please, higher upper power being, if you send such awesome people down to me to heal my soul and heart, please send equally awesome or more awesome people to Gary to heal him too.

I know you've sent Angela, Uriah, Min-Er, Xin Yi... please send him more and more awesome people to make him feel happy. To make him feel filled up and alive again.

Just like how random people whom I've no idea who they are (Xiao Hei is someone who literally bo-chap me when he comes to pool until I told him I wanna drink out of the blue) and could make me feel so much better...

Please send random people who can heal him to him too.

THANK YOU EVERYONE!!